Alayna A.
1 Year Update...a tad late
Dec 02, 2008
146 I have pretty much maintained between 140-145ish. When I had my one year appt. today they told me that that is a good weight for me, normal BMI and all my issues pre-op are now resolved. No more impaired fasting glucose, no reflux. I feel sooooo much better now than I did before. I am still adjusting to what I look like. I try to have pictures taken frequently so I can see what I look like.
I haven't been working out as much as I would like, I would like to firm up more but that's my own deal. I get bored with what I am doing and then I go into a non-workout funk. I just picked up the Jillian Michael's 30 day shred DVD and will begin that tomorrow or Thursday, probably tomorrow.
I have been GREAT with my multi-vitamins and my B12 shots. I have sucked at my calcium. Today when I met with the dietician she gave me some samples of some and told me to try the citrical petites. I'll pick up the petites tomorrow after school and will hopefully get to work early enough to pick up the Bariatric Advantage lozenges tomorrow. I had tried the cinnamon flavor before and ended up not liking them. She gave me samples of the cherry and mint today and I liked both, cherry definitely best though.
As far as the personal life, things are good. My fiance and I are planning to wed approximately March 2010. I can't book the reception site I want until June 1st unfortunately. Still on the search for a ceremony site but planning is going well. You would think the idea of dress shopping would make me want to workout! LOL
I ran a 5K in October without any training and did pretty good I think. I ran the whole way, 32:43 was my time.
I'll try to check in more often and at least blog, haven't had time to keep up on the boards at all. Life is busy!
I haven't been working out as much as I would like, I would like to firm up more but that's my own deal. I get bored with what I am doing and then I go into a non-workout funk. I just picked up the Jillian Michael's 30 day shred DVD and will begin that tomorrow or Thursday, probably tomorrow.
I have been GREAT with my multi-vitamins and my B12 shots. I have sucked at my calcium. Today when I met with the dietician she gave me some samples of some and told me to try the citrical petites. I'll pick up the petites tomorrow after school and will hopefully get to work early enough to pick up the Bariatric Advantage lozenges tomorrow. I had tried the cinnamon flavor before and ended up not liking them. She gave me samples of the cherry and mint today and I liked both, cherry definitely best though.
As far as the personal life, things are good. My fiance and I are planning to wed approximately March 2010. I can't book the reception site I want until June 1st unfortunately. Still on the search for a ceremony site but planning is going well. You would think the idea of dress shopping would make me want to workout! LOL
I ran a 5K in October without any training and did pretty good I think. I ran the whole way, 32:43 was my time.
I'll try to check in more often and at least blog, haven't had time to keep up on the boards at all. Life is busy!
Things are FANTASTIC!
Aug 03, 2008
142.4 I am so so so glad I made those appointments and met with the shrink, dr, and nut at my clinic 2 weeks ago! I let go of the guilt and I have been doing fantastic. The scale is showing my efforts are paying off :)
I have a BF now. His name is Will. I've actually dated him on and off for the past 2½yrs. He's been in love with me for the past couple of years but it's hard to love someone and accept the love they have for you when you don't love yourself. I could never commit to him, I could never allow myself to get too close to him. I couldn't open myself up to him and let myself see any kind of future with him.
Long story short, things have changed significantly and I have finally opened that door, and oh the possibilities!! Since opening that door, i've fallen in love, or at least admitted what I have felt all along. He's my best friend, he loves me for me. He loved me long before I had the surgery and loved me still after. They do say if you have a good strong relationship before surgery it will usually get stronger and better after. Well....we had a complicated relationship before, and now it's really strong and good.
He is everything I ever dreamed of and more!! I had left him in February and dated a little. When I would think about what it was I wanted in a future husband all I could think was "I want someone just like Will." I went back to him in June and since I have been back things have been way different.
He finally opened up to me, before he kept his feelings to himself thinking it would make me leave him cuz I always kept him away and couldn't commit etc. He was telling me more and more how he felt about me and finally he told me he loved me. Instead of making me run, it made us talk. We talked about all of the possibilities, the more we talked the more I realized he's my dream come true and he's been right in front of me this whole time!! I could never accept his love, or allow myself to love him back because I didn't accept and love myself!!
I'm moving in with him ASAP, and we'll be shopping for an engagement ring when he gets home from FL. A lot of people are saying "so quick? slow down!" To us though, it's been a long time coming. We feel like the luckiest people in the world to have found the love of our lives and are so excited to spend the rest of our lives together.
We're thinking summer 2010 for our wedding.
I have a BF now. His name is Will. I've actually dated him on and off for the past 2½yrs. He's been in love with me for the past couple of years but it's hard to love someone and accept the love they have for you when you don't love yourself. I could never commit to him, I could never allow myself to get too close to him. I couldn't open myself up to him and let myself see any kind of future with him.
Long story short, things have changed significantly and I have finally opened that door, and oh the possibilities!! Since opening that door, i've fallen in love, or at least admitted what I have felt all along. He's my best friend, he loves me for me. He loved me long before I had the surgery and loved me still after. They do say if you have a good strong relationship before surgery it will usually get stronger and better after. Well....we had a complicated relationship before, and now it's really strong and good.
He is everything I ever dreamed of and more!! I had left him in February and dated a little. When I would think about what it was I wanted in a future husband all I could think was "I want someone just like Will." I went back to him in June and since I have been back things have been way different.
He finally opened up to me, before he kept his feelings to himself thinking it would make me leave him cuz I always kept him away and couldn't commit etc. He was telling me more and more how he felt about me and finally he told me he loved me. Instead of making me run, it made us talk. We talked about all of the possibilities, the more we talked the more I realized he's my dream come true and he's been right in front of me this whole time!! I could never accept his love, or allow myself to love him back because I didn't accept and love myself!!
I'm moving in with him ASAP, and we'll be shopping for an engagement ring when he gets home from FL. A lot of people are saying "so quick? slow down!" To us though, it's been a long time coming. We feel like the luckiest people in the world to have found the love of our lives and are so excited to spend the rest of our lives together.
We're thinking summer 2010 for our wedding.
I am not a failure!
Jul 24, 2008
147.4 I have been pretty MIA lately. I have been struggling since the beginning of April. I hit my lowest of 144.4 around that time and since then have seen 151 on the scale.
I saw old habits creeping back in, habits I never realized I even had prior to surgery. I was snacking and grazing all day long. I was making poor food choices when I dined out. I was dining out way more than my goal of 2 meals a week or less.
I went through a worldwind of emotions sorrounding this. I felt ashamed, ashamed I had allowed these behaviors to happen. Ashamed for what I was doing. I felt guilt, I felt overwhelmed when I tried to address the problems myself. I started to get depressed and ended up going on a hiatus from the gym. I felt like a failure, like I couldn't get back on track.
After a while of trying to fix it on my own, reading books, reading the boards, talking with friends, coworkers and at coffee, I finally called my clinic and made a shrink appt and my 6 month follow up appts....2 months late.
I saw the shrink, the same one I saw pre-op, which helped because he and I already had history, he knew my background. He was great. He helped point out I was eating the same things for my meals all the time, which leads to boredom which leads to snacking and eating not so good choices because I am bored with the foods I am eating at my meals. He also helped me focus on all I have accomplished thus far. I have lost 82% of my excess weight, I can finally touch my toes, something I have NEVER in my life been able to do. I can run! I ran for half an hour today, went 2.76 miles.
The next day I met with the medical doctor at my clinic and then the nutritionist. The Dr said something to me that really struck a cord. She told me to let go of the guilt, to not feel guilty. EVERYONE goes through periods in their lives throughout the years where they are much more diligent with their eating and leading a healthy lifestyle and sometimes they're not so good. Everyone's scale bounces around a little bit, it doesn't flat line. She said it's a matter of shortening those time frames where you're 'off the wagon'.
I got some good ideas from my nutritionist and we talked about portion sizes. I realized I had been doing better than I thought I was as far as that goes. I am going to start trying other things for breakfast like lunch and dinner food. I am pretty bored with cereals and such. My goal is to try a couple of new recipes a week. Until then while I research and find some to try, I went to Aldi and picked up some new protein sources to try.
Everyone I met with this week really stressed and pointed out all the good things. I really am doing well, and to them I am a success so far. I focus on protein first and I do get 60-80g protein a day and I take my multi-vitamins and calcium and I drink my water. I am not a failure, and I won't be. I am normal. I am back on track and feeling great!
The Dr had me step on the scale again on Tuesday, my body fat % is right in the middle of the normal range :) My BMI is normal too. I went out and bought a body fat scale that also measures hydration. I am going to start tracking those and watch the trends. I think having a body fat % goal is much better for me. I just haven't figured out what that goal is yet.
I saw old habits creeping back in, habits I never realized I even had prior to surgery. I was snacking and grazing all day long. I was making poor food choices when I dined out. I was dining out way more than my goal of 2 meals a week or less.
I went through a worldwind of emotions sorrounding this. I felt ashamed, ashamed I had allowed these behaviors to happen. Ashamed for what I was doing. I felt guilt, I felt overwhelmed when I tried to address the problems myself. I started to get depressed and ended up going on a hiatus from the gym. I felt like a failure, like I couldn't get back on track.
After a while of trying to fix it on my own, reading books, reading the boards, talking with friends, coworkers and at coffee, I finally called my clinic and made a shrink appt and my 6 month follow up appts....2 months late.
I saw the shrink, the same one I saw pre-op, which helped because he and I already had history, he knew my background. He was great. He helped point out I was eating the same things for my meals all the time, which leads to boredom which leads to snacking and eating not so good choices because I am bored with the foods I am eating at my meals. He also helped me focus on all I have accomplished thus far. I have lost 82% of my excess weight, I can finally touch my toes, something I have NEVER in my life been able to do. I can run! I ran for half an hour today, went 2.76 miles.
The next day I met with the medical doctor at my clinic and then the nutritionist. The Dr said something to me that really struck a cord. She told me to let go of the guilt, to not feel guilty. EVERYONE goes through periods in their lives throughout the years where they are much more diligent with their eating and leading a healthy lifestyle and sometimes they're not so good. Everyone's scale bounces around a little bit, it doesn't flat line. She said it's a matter of shortening those time frames where you're 'off the wagon'.
I got some good ideas from my nutritionist and we talked about portion sizes. I realized I had been doing better than I thought I was as far as that goes. I am going to start trying other things for breakfast like lunch and dinner food. I am pretty bored with cereals and such. My goal is to try a couple of new recipes a week. Until then while I research and find some to try, I went to Aldi and picked up some new protein sources to try.
Everyone I met with this week really stressed and pointed out all the good things. I really am doing well, and to them I am a success so far. I focus on protein first and I do get 60-80g protein a day and I take my multi-vitamins and calcium and I drink my water. I am not a failure, and I won't be. I am normal. I am back on track and feeling great!
The Dr had me step on the scale again on Tuesday, my body fat % is right in the middle of the normal range :) My BMI is normal too. I went out and bought a body fat scale that also measures hydration. I am going to start tracking those and watch the trends. I think having a body fat % goal is much better for me. I just haven't figured out what that goal is yet.
Update
May 12, 2008
144.8 The gym is going well. I enjoy it. I have been adding in a little warm-up on a cardio machine before hitting the weights. I wonder if this is really doing anything? When I finish my Mindless Eating book and finally return it to the library and pay my fines for it being so late I think I will check out some fitness magazines and get some ideas for changing up my routine at the gym. I figure I will keep doing what I am doing for a couple of weeks and build a new routine for my whole body and do that for awhile until I get bored with that. Those fitness magazines can give you really good ideas. Right now I am alternating upper and lower body every other day along with 30mins cardio everyday after my weights. I change the cardio up between the bike or eliptical.
Loving the gym
May 08, 2008
146.4 It's that time of the month so the scale went up a little bit, or I hope that's why. LOL I have been going to the gym everyday this week, doing my weight training and then 30mins cardio. I like it a lot. Today I did a 10min warm up on the eliptical and then did my upper body lifting and that was all I had time for. I feel weird not having done my cardio. I did do 10mins I guess. Not much. I really need some clothes to workout in, I only have one pair of pants and a shirt that I have worn all week long. The regulars at the gym probably think i'm weird.
I am going to a wedding on Saturday, "cocktail attire requested" was on the invitation. I am so excited. I got a pedicure yesterday, bought what I think is a gorgeous dress on Monday. Tomorrow I need to find a bra to go with the dress, it's a halter top style and a little tummy thing to hold in my extra little roll I have by my belly button. I can't wait for that roll to flatten out. Once that flattens out I will feel much better about my body. That one little roll drives me nuts.
I think I will also be shopping for another dress tomorrow for a wedding I am going to next weekend. Hopefully I can find something at Vanity, I have a $15 gift card to spend there.
I am going to a wedding on Saturday, "cocktail attire requested" was on the invitation. I am so excited. I got a pedicure yesterday, bought what I think is a gorgeous dress on Monday. Tomorrow I need to find a bra to go with the dress, it's a halter top style and a little tummy thing to hold in my extra little roll I have by my belly button. I can't wait for that roll to flatten out. Once that flattens out I will feel much better about my body. That one little roll drives me nuts.
I think I will also be shopping for another dress tomorrow for a wedding I am going to next weekend. Hopefully I can find something at Vanity, I have a $15 gift card to spend there.
Joined the gym
May 05, 2008
145.2 I joined anytime fitness near me. So far I love it. Today my foot was hurting a little bit so I did the bicycle for my cardio, after I did my legs for weights. I did my upper body on Saturday. Didn't make it to the gym yesterday, spent the majority of my day on the back of a motorcycle and was absolutely exhausted by the time I got home. It takes a lot out of ya. I woke up this morning determined though. I really like going to the gym. Put on the headphones and do my thing. It gets me out of the house. I was getting really bored working out at home, I really needed to change it up. I realized today how hard it is to get and keep your heart rate up on a bicycle. No wonder I never lost weight with how much I biked when I was a kid, I never biked fast and hard enough I am sure to get my HR up to burning anything. On Saturday I did the eliptical, that is a little easier to get my HR up on. Hopefully this weird foot pain goes away soon. I wonder if I stepped on my foot funny or something. It's on the outside of my left foot.
Anyways, the scale had crept up to 147 or so and stayed there. I started reading Mindless Eating by Brian Wansink, it's a book the shrink had recommended. I am noticing some old habits creeping in, snacking a little and making the wrong choices and eating out a lot. I am on a quest to nip that in the bud. 3lbs in the wrong direction and I am all over it to get back on track. That's good!!! Better than waiting for 20-30lbs in the wrong direction.
I still can't really see myself for the size I am. I really need a lot more current pics so I can really see where I am at. I don't see it in the mirror, I just see where I am still pudgy and can't really grasp where I am at. I still feel fat, not as big as I once was, but definitely bigger than I am. I realize that when I do see pics. It's quite the adjustment. Yesterday my friend was trying to tell me to put my left foot on the peg and stand on it to get on the bike. I was so worried I would dump the bike over with my weight....that's the old me coming out still....he can definitely handle keeping his bike standing with me climbing on.
Anyways...that's where I am...struggling a little bit, but working on nipping it in the bud and getting back on track. This is life. It's definitely not the easy way, it's still hard work and diligence, but oh so worth it. I don't regret it whatsoever, not a single moment have I regretted it.
Anyways, the scale had crept up to 147 or so and stayed there. I started reading Mindless Eating by Brian Wansink, it's a book the shrink had recommended. I am noticing some old habits creeping in, snacking a little and making the wrong choices and eating out a lot. I am on a quest to nip that in the bud. 3lbs in the wrong direction and I am all over it to get back on track. That's good!!! Better than waiting for 20-30lbs in the wrong direction.
I still can't really see myself for the size I am. I really need a lot more current pics so I can really see where I am at. I don't see it in the mirror, I just see where I am still pudgy and can't really grasp where I am at. I still feel fat, not as big as I once was, but definitely bigger than I am. I realize that when I do see pics. It's quite the adjustment. Yesterday my friend was trying to tell me to put my left foot on the peg and stand on it to get on the bike. I was so worried I would dump the bike over with my weight....that's the old me coming out still....he can definitely handle keeping his bike standing with me climbing on.
Anyways...that's where I am...struggling a little bit, but working on nipping it in the bud and getting back on track. This is life. It's definitely not the easy way, it's still hard work and diligence, but oh so worth it. I don't regret it whatsoever, not a single moment have I regretted it.
Finally a HEALTHY weight!!!
Apr 20, 2008
144.4 I am finally considered to be a healthy weight. How exciting!! It's been coming off really slow now. It will probably take me another few months to lose these last 15-20lbs that I want to lose. Oh well. I am pretty comfortable and loving life.
I haven't updated in awhile, life has been busy. I got myself a boyfriend now, well we're a month in so we'll see where it goes. I'm trying to be cautious, but so far so good. I really like the guy and he seems to really like me :)
I haven't been great about exercise, my schedule has been crazy busy but I am going to my straight evening shift this Wednesday which should make it so much easier to wake up and workout right away in the morning. I am very excited about my switch in hours.
I have been having the same things for breakfast and lunch, cream of wheat with protein powder mixed in and a tuna lunch kit for lunch. LOL I should switch it up soon. I am surprised I haven't gotten bored with it yet!!
Water is going good. I do really well when I bring all of the fluids I will need for the day to work, I am usually done with my water intake by the time I am on my way home from work. We'll see what adjustments need to be made when I switch hours.
I get to buy a cocktail dress for a wedding in May, I am looking forward to dress shopping. You'd think that'd be motivation to workout more!
I haven't updated in awhile, life has been busy. I got myself a boyfriend now, well we're a month in so we'll see where it goes. I'm trying to be cautious, but so far so good. I really like the guy and he seems to really like me :)
I haven't been great about exercise, my schedule has been crazy busy but I am going to my straight evening shift this Wednesday which should make it so much easier to wake up and workout right away in the morning. I am very excited about my switch in hours.
I have been having the same things for breakfast and lunch, cream of wheat with protein powder mixed in and a tuna lunch kit for lunch. LOL I should switch it up soon. I am surprised I haven't gotten bored with it yet!!
Water is going good. I do really well when I bring all of the fluids I will need for the day to work, I am usually done with my water intake by the time I am on my way home from work. We'll see what adjustments need to be made when I switch hours.
I get to buy a cocktail dress for a wedding in May, I am looking forward to dress shopping. You'd think that'd be motivation to workout more!
Homestretch
Mar 23, 2008
149 I am down to the last 20-25lbs to lose. 90 down so far. The inches have been coming off every week little by little. I am back into exercising and it feels so good. I have been working my abs pretty good, hopefully that will help firm things up as I take off this last 20lbs. Right now my belly is pretty floppy.
Shopping for clothes is not very fun right now. I am smaller in my shoulders and bigger in my belly so it's hard to find flattering nice things. That and I don't want to spend the money since I know I have more to lose. I can't wait for this last 20lbs to come off so I can really shop! LOL
Although I should wait a month or two or so after I get to my goal to stabilize. I can't believe how close I am. I am sure this last 20lbs will take another few months or more to come off now. Hopefully not that long. :)
Lately I have been wondering if this is all I am going to lose. It's been slowing down so much and the scale fluctuated up this past week that I was wondering if I was done. I know I am not, I know I will keep losing, but it's all those head games. Grr.
Speaking of head games, dating sucks. LOL It was fun, til I got stood up last night, but the guy says he's still interested....well I am not sure how interested I am after being stood up. I don't like being stood up.
Shopping for clothes is not very fun right now. I am smaller in my shoulders and bigger in my belly so it's hard to find flattering nice things. That and I don't want to spend the money since I know I have more to lose. I can't wait for this last 20lbs to come off so I can really shop! LOL
Although I should wait a month or two or so after I get to my goal to stabilize. I can't believe how close I am. I am sure this last 20lbs will take another few months or more to come off now. Hopefully not that long. :)
Lately I have been wondering if this is all I am going to lose. It's been slowing down so much and the scale fluctuated up this past week that I was wondering if I was done. I know I am not, I know I will keep losing, but it's all those head games. Grr.
Speaking of head games, dating sucks. LOL It was fun, til I got stood up last night, but the guy says he's still interested....well I am not sure how interested I am after being stood up. I don't like being stood up.
Out of the 150's finally!!!
Mar 16, 2008
149.6 Not by much, but I'll take it!! :) I felt like I was in the 150's for awhile there. It probably wasn't as long as I think it was. Life is busy and good. Dating is fun. I love the new me more and more everyday I think. I take a step back and try to look in on my life from the outside and I am proud of how far I have come and how I am handling things. I'm not conceited, just confident :) I saw a myspace icon that said that, I should have put that on my profile. LOL
4 month update
Mar 14, 2008
151.8 I am officially in size 8's. It's so fun. I am wearing an XS scrub top and small pants at work now. I bought size L in juniors sweaters. I have been a rockstar at my water and have gotten back into the swing of things with working out. I have so much more confidence and so much more energy and so much more fun now. I am down 51.8lbs since the day of my surgery and 87.8lbs total so far. I am guessing I have about 20-30lbs more to go. We'll see where my body stops though I guess. I'll just keep on keepin' on.
I have a first date tonight. I am excited to be in the dating scene. It's so weird to have someone interested in me though. He doesn't know about my surgery yet. We're going out to dinner so I am sure it will probably come up. This will be an experience :)
He's picking me up in half an hour, I better go finish getting ready. I will hopefully post pics tomorrow.
I have a first date tonight. I am excited to be in the dating scene. It's so weird to have someone interested in me though. He doesn't know about my surgery yet. We're going out to dinner so I am sure it will probably come up. This will be an experience :)
He's picking me up in half an hour, I better go finish getting ready. I will hopefully post pics tomorrow.
About Me
Oakdale, MN
Location
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Surgery
11/14/2007
Surgery Date
Oct 21, 2006
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