Alayna A.

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150     Yikes again! Scrolling down just a little in my blog here I come across 138, and I am at 150 right now! Wow. I have got to get myself back on track here with my health. That is what it ultimately boils down to. I want to be healthy, fit and active. I want my body to have the nutrients it needs to function properly, I want my muscles to be strong and be burning as many calories as they can by just doing there every day things, I want to have a lot of energy.

I picked up a copy of The New Rules of Lifting at the library and I have read it a few times, some parts many times, made my own workout logs and got a clip board. I practiced the exercises at home perfecting my form. I ran through the workout in my mind multiple times. I put it off for a month and finally went today. I was so nervous but I put on my headphones and tuned everyone else out. I was really thankful that when it was time to do the pushups and the swiss ball crunches that no one was over in that area.

They do have a book specifically for Women but my library didn't have a copy of that. I did the Break In program workout A. It was quick, efficient and I can feel my muscles tingling all over. It only took half an hour or so. I am following it up with a Smart Ones chicken parmesan, 26g protein. I am drinking a tall SF Caramel latte and one of those new gatorade G3 recovery protein drinks 16g of protein and for a treat later I can enjoy some of my protein ice cream I made a few days ago. (www.theworldaccordingtoeggface.com for recipes)

Even if you have no interest in lifting weights the book is a really good read. It is based on a lot of recent scientific data and his own experience of lifting for many many years. Everything just makes so much sense. It pretty much echoes what my great Dr Sund, my bariatrician has been telling me for a couple of years now as to keys to long term success and weight maintance. Protein, and muscle.

She's been telling me it, and the book gave me more of the 'why' it works. Now I am going to implement! My goal is to get as much protein in as possible, the book recommends a gram of protein for every pound of body weight per day. So, I am going to attempt to get in 150g of protein in a day and as my weight drops the number of g/day can drop as well.

I have my vitamins around the house in candy dishes, that makes them handy and better than having candy in them.

Events I am looking forward to looking and feeling my best at:
Within the next 4 months we'll be doing another photo shoot with our photographer.
I am 5 months away from my 3 year surgiversary.
I am 6 months away from hopefully a trip to Cozumel with my dear husband. (I still absolutely LOVE being married)

It's been 2 and a half years already! It seems like yesterday I was being wheeled to the OR, recovering, the visitors, calls and flowers.

I have been doing a lot of yoga classes at the gym. I keep missing the pilates classes and we haven't been back to a spinning class yet. I have been swimming more and have been working on a couple of different backstrokes. I am enjoying swimming. I can only go for about 15 mins and then I am spent and quit. I try to do one last length of the pool as a sprint at the end.

I haven't noticed a difference in my weight or the way my clothes fit, but I have noticed an improvement in how I feel physically and that's sign enough for me that I am going in the right direction. I am having fun and keeping with it, that's what counts.

I only have one hockey game left for this spring league I was on. I have had a lot of fun and it has been a good source of exercise and stress relief. When I am out there I am not thinking of anything else and it's good to clear your mind sometimes.

I started reading Allen Carr's EasyWeigh to Lose Weight. I read his book about quitting smoking about 6 and a half years ago and quitting smoking was the easiest thing I have ever done. I always said he needed to write a book about quitting eating, well quit eating badly and overeating. Well he did write a book about eating! It has some good intereting points to ponder. I am about half way into it. I found it on Abebooks.com for pretty cheap.

I have gone swimming a couple of times now this week. I like the backstroke, I don't like my face in the water. At least not yet while I am getting comfortable with the breathing and the rythym. It is a good workout! I think the hubs and I are going to do spinning again this weekend, and I am going to keep working on my backstroke!

I am so glad I joined the gym!

Oh yeah! The semester is OVER!!! Woo Hoo!!! I think I squeezed by with B's in both of my classes. I have chemistry this summer and I full well expect and plan on achieving an A. Until then, I have about 2 and a half weeks off!!

Whew! My hubby and I went to the cycle class at the gym this morning. That is quite the workout! We will definitely be going to doing it again. I have gone to yoga twice and now cycling. We also went there 2 nights just to relax in the hot tub and sauna. I am so glad we got the membership. I hope my husband finds something he really enjoys so he keeps going and doesn't hate going.

Tomorrow will be my day off of the gym and back for yoga on Tuesday, followed by hockey Tuesday night. It feels really good to get active again.

I still struggle with my vitamins. I have been trying to find something that works for me and I am trying something new. I am going to try to tie it into a routine of something I do every day. Right away in the morning when I wake up I go to the bathroom, so in there I have a 7 day box, each one containing one multi-vitamin, b12, and a calcium.

In my car I have a stash of iron and at some point in the day when I am driving (I always go at least one place every day) I will take one. I am going to carry calcium and my multi-vitamins and when I eat lunch or eat during the day I will take one of each. Then just one more calcium to take with dinner. I put my bottle of iron supplements by my bed and will take the other one before bed.

I am hoping once I start tying these into my routines that it will become second nature.

I don't like wearing my fat pants, it feels really good to be working out. I haven't worked out regularly in about a year and a half I figure. That's pretty sad :( I don't know why I struggled so much to get back into working out. Excuses excuses I am sure. I wish I wouldn't have waited so long to find something I enjoyed.

I was getting ready the other day to go to a friend's house. I asked my husband to pick something out for me to wear. I saw the jeans he pulled out and I said "those won't fit me." He asked why not and insisted I put them on. I put them on and they did fit. Ironically this is what we normally cheer for right? Well not this time, tears welled up and an instant pout on my face and I whined to him after he told me they fit fine "They're not supposed to fit, they're my FAT pants!!"

I joined the gym on Tuesday and went to my first yoga class on Wednesday. I am sore and feeling it in my arms and back today. I plan to go to the 10:45am pilates class today. After I spend some time working on my math...ah finals!

I know I have been stress eating and haven't been active besides starting to play hockey again and my fairly active job. I have been reading a book about finding more time and it kind of debunked the  "I don't have time to workout" excuse. The gym is only 4 minutes away and they have a variety of classes that fit into my schedule. I think it will be fun. My hubby also joined and we went and used the hot tub last night after a long day of work that was a nice retreat :)

I didn't weigh myself today, but I know I am pudgier. I am wearing my 'fat pants' and they're snug. :( I started playing hockey last week, that is going well. It feels good to be active again. I want to join LA Fitness, I think I would do really well with the classes they offer.

I have noticed that this time going back to hockey after not playing for awhile has been much easier than the last time I did. I attribute it to being much lighter. My back isn't killing me so bad I can barely walk. The only things hurting really are the weird muscles you use when you shoot the puck or my groin from skating, that is not normal motions either. So I am not in any better shape, but yet I am not keeled over in pain in my back. This has been pretty motivating to find exercise that I enjoy doing, such as playing hockey. There is open hockey on Fridays that I may try out and see what it's like, that would be an added hour. This also makes me want to work out besides hockey so I can be better on the ice and not so sore! :)

Physical activity is so much easier when you're lighter. It's amazing.

2 years and counting.....amazing.

145     I can't believe I have maintained this weight, give or take a few pounds here and there, for 2 years now!! I just looked back at my April 2008 archive blog and I was 144lbs. I have never in my life been able to maintain a loss like this. It is incredible. I have to keep reminding myself of this whenever I get down on myself or if I fall behind on vitamins and think I suck. I guess maybe the rest just might be skin? I don't know. I am sure if I worked out like a fiend and wrote down every morsel I could probably get down further, but obviously my body likes where I am.

2 years. Amazing.

147.2     Woo Hoo! It's paying off and feels good! It's so fun figuring out solutions to issues. The first step is recognizing a downfall and then figuring out ways to fix it, or at least "work arounds" so you can help prevent yourself from whatever it is you're trying to 'correct'.

For example, I sometimes forget to fill my mini carry along pill case with my vitamins when I leave in the morning. So, I packed a spare vitamin kit in my bag so when I forget I have back up and no excuse.

152! YIKES! I have come to realize some things. I think I tend to have a lot of these blog posts...Anyways, I have realized that since I moved into our new house last August I have gained around 10lbs. I was floating between 142-144-140. I am now at 152! This is so scary and troubling for me. I have been struggling for awhile now trying to figure out what was going on and why I couldn't seem to take control of the situation. I think there were a multitude of factors that have since changed and now I am on the right track!

1.) When my husband and I first moved into our house he bought the groceries and household things and I paid the other bills so he could pay down his debt. Not seeing how much was being spent and not really knowing how much we had I didn't feel in control of the cooking and food and always wanted to go out to eat. So we ate out a lot.

2.) Our house did not come with a dishwasher. I began to hate cooking because it inevitably had a ton of dishes to clean and put away. It was a never ending cycle and my counters were never clear, always drying dishes or dirty dishes in the sink.

Things have changed! We have pooled our money now and I have taken over paying the bills and doing the shopping. I am back into my recipe searching, meal planning mode and am so excited! I have the whole week planned. I even found a recipe for chicken that I love and I was finally able to eat a chicken breast!

Also we got a dishwasher. Oh my how that has ever changed the flow around here. It took us a few days and a few loads to get into a groove, but I LOVE my dishwasher. Never again will I ever say "No dishwasher? That's ok, we can wash them by hand for awhile." Nope, never!

I challenged my husband, mostly to help myself with my bad spending habits, that we could only have $20 each and we had to see how long we could make it last. This doesn't include necessities like gas and food or his new tire last night. The $20 is for our vices, my magazines and diet mt dew, his cigars or junk food. I think this challenge will not only save us money, but will also help my waist line!

I have been hibernating and wearing my fat clothes all winter. I am biting this in the bud though! I am going to wear my summer clothes, I will not be buying all new clothes. I will not buy larger clothes.

On the exercise front...I suck still. I am fairly active. I don't have a sedentary job and when I am home I am rarely sitting still for very long. I did though, sign up to play in a womens' hockey league this spring, 7 weeks of 1 game each week. I think I may sign up for swimming lessons also. I think being a better swimmer would help me be more comfortable and confident in the water when scuba diving.

Well that's all for now. Off to school...

138     I don't know why, but vitamins have been my major struggle. I am perfect with my B12, but with the rest of it I haven't found a groove, something that really works for me that I can stick with and remember to take. However, I think I may have found it! I picked up some Bariatric Advantage mixed berry chewable multivitamins today at the pharmacy and they are nummy and not horribly huge or anything. I have an email in to my dietician to see if I am supposed to double the dose like we normally do with one a day vitamins or if I go with the BA recommendation on the bottle of 2/day.

The pharmacy was out of the chewable iron and she said she hadn't placed an order. I called another hospital that I know carries BA and they didn't have them in either. So I ordered them on BA.com and signed up for their automatic refill program (free shipping). My iron and more multivitamins are on their way!

Now I just need to find the best way to transport these things around with me and find the best means for me to remember to take these.

Other than that things are going quite well. I have been struggling with depression as well as other issues, probably had them all along and am just now dealing with them. I am just about to begin therapy. I took an MMPI and it said I was depressed and I was off the charts for anxiety and being an introvert. I guess when my shrink saw my results he thought to himself "I wonder how many people she's having at her wedding?" LOL Well....40, and only 17 are on my side! I am looking forward to working through and getting past some issues I know I have had for a very long time, and some that I am just now realizing have always been there and didn't realize they were an issue.

I have been a slug and haven't been working out. I'll admit it. I have a treadmill, tons of workout tapes and dvds and a wedding coming up! You would think I would be motivated to workout!