Sally, as I sit here and say my extra special prayer for you, I am asking Jesus to calm your fears and lead you to make the right decision for you. You said it yourself the last time your surgery date was cancelled, "I'll probably be one of those that die waiting to get a surgery date", Well Sally, you have not, you have made it to this point. Apparently our awesome God does not want you yet. Nor do I believe he does tommorrow, I know this is fear that is making you say these words... You truly are prepared for this surgery, just relax, take big breathes and think how hard you have worked to get to this date, you do want it, or you would have never went for it in the first place... Jesus I pray to you, calm my friend Sally, hold her face and love her and let her know it is ok and calm her restless soul. In Jesus name I pray this... Amen. Sally I love you, do what's right for you. hugs