nice to finally meet you

Mar 13, 2009

i finally got to meet latresha r a and upon the strangest circumstance  my dad has a basketball team and her son is on it girl i am glad to see you and you look great take care and keep doing good i am sorry i did not have more time to talk but with your son on the team you will see alot of me hope to see you saturday at the car wash
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still waiting

Mar 09, 2009

i just talked to my surgeons Secretary and this whole time i have been waiting for approval and it has not even been submitted due to the fact  my psychiatrist did not state in the eval that he approved the wls or not i am very upset about this as i previously stated in a previous blog he told me that being that i was raped when i was younger after i go through the procedure more men will be attracted to be and i mad loose my mind and fall into shock and regression i don't feel like that and i don't Tet that bother me any more the way i look now i get approached by plenty and it don't worry me
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still waiting and stressed to peices

Mar 05, 2009

well i am still waiting on approval from my insurance i have called the doctors office and no one is returnign my calls which makes me really mad also i am really streesing i am going through alot of issues surrounding my little cousin she is in relaive placemaent and her mom is giving me alot of drama trying to fight me and every thing saying i am not taking care of her child i am doing the best that i can i have 2 kids here that are not biologically mine one is 8 months to be nine months tommorrow and the other is 6 months to be 7 months on the 9th of this month  i am just tired of all the drama and i am tired of waiting on my approval date not just tired frustratecd because they are not returning my calls to find out if there is anything that i can do i have enought o worry about besides i am ready to start anew  but the babies i am not worried i do the best that i can and besides they are not wanting for nothing andif they are is a want and not a need  i must vent to keep from going crazy my psch already wants to put me on depression meds but i dont feel depressed i am stressed
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happy valentine's day

Feb 14, 2009

HELLO ALL I WANT TO WISH YOU ALL A HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY AND I HOPE YOUR SPOUSES OR SIGNIFICANT OTHERS GOT YOU SOMETHING NICE AS FOR ME NOTHING  MY HUSBAND SAYS HE DONT HAVE TO BUY ME ANYTHING ON THIS DAY BECAUSE I SHOULD FEEL LIKE EVERYDAY IS VALENTINE'S DAY BECAUSE I CAN GET WHAT EVER I WANT WHEN I WANT AND IF IT TAKES 2 OR 3 JOBS FOR ME TO GET WHAT I WANT THEN HE WILL DO WHAT EVER IT TAKES  THAT IS SPECIAL HUH BUT I AM NOT REALLY INTO HOLIDAYS ANYMORE HE NEVER HAS HOLIDAYS OFF TO SPEND WITH THE FAMILY ANYWAY SO I DONT LOOK FORWARD TO THEM BUT I BET THIS MUCH ONCE I GET DOWN IN WEIGHT I WILL CHANGE I AM SO SELF CONCIOUS THAT I DONT WANTT O BE IN FRONT OF PEOPLE OR DONT WANT PEOPLE TO LOOK AT ME SO I STAY IN THE HOUSE THE ONLY TIME I GO OUT IS TO TAKE MY HUSBAND TO WORK ME AND KIDS TO THE DR OR TO THE GROCERY STORE OTHER THAN THAT I AM IN INDORRS ON MY COMPUTER OR PLAYING WITH THE BABIES
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laying in wait

Feb 07, 2009

well as you all know i had my consultation and i am just waiting on my approval and i am very anxious but excited i cannot wait to get that phone call saying you are approved  i am going to have a happy cry  when that day comes today has been kinda sad for me i am having some issues and i easily get depressed  well last night we had a family outing and i really was not feeling myself when i look at all the people that was there i sorta well i do feel like everyone is looking and talking about me also i have a friend a male friend we have been friends for 15 years and yesterday that kinda came to a halt a screeching halt my husband understands that that i have friends and has total faith and trust in me but on the other hand my friends girlfriend is not feeling our friendship and called my husband yesterday and made all kind of accusations to the fact that we were secretly having an affair because we talk quite a bit which i don't see anything wrong my husband did not take it to heart but i lost my friend cause his girl has him on lock lol well til next time my oh family take care of yourselves and each other peace love and hair grease
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my consult visit

Jan 31, 2009

well i have had my consultation with Dr kfir Ben-David upon entering the room he was very nice but before i saw him a Dr Awad came in to talk to me i don't care for him to much at this point he asked me about my eating habits and upon telling him how i eat he did not believe me he said you cant weigh 330 pounds if you dint eat much and i said to my myself  i guess you can i am living proof you see guys i only eat once a day if that i dint eat breakfast but every occasion which is rare and if i do it is a bowl of cereal i never eat lunch unless i am hungry at the time and the only time i eat dinner is when my husband cooks and i feel like eating and that is rare cause he is always at work  i drink more than i eat i love to drink now i know some of you are sceptical like the Dr was but i kid you not my husband even had to tell the Dr. that i dont hardly eat i am even on medication that wont allow me to eat It is called phentermine i am never hardly hungry at all like right now the time is 11:57 am and i have had nothing to eat and have drank 3 glasses of water thats koolaid  y'all lol but after the bout with Dr Awad he left to get Dr Ben-David and he was a pleasure to meet and i seem to be amazed at all the knowledge i had concerning the surgery thanks to you guys so now i wait for approval  so every one of you whom read this i want  you to send me a prayer comment to see how many of you will and to you ms diet coke i am sorry that i met you but i didn't you saw me as your message stated at the consult but i did not notice you i am sorry for that i love all of you and for any one else whom saw me at the consult hello again and thanks for all the comments on my family i try really hard to keep it together raising these kids are hard   but cool
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night before consult

Jan 28, 2009

 well i have just a couple hours before my consult i am not nervous i am very excited and ready to go by this time tomorrow i will let you guys know what happens i have to drive a little ways to get there so we will be leaving early in the morning so that i get there on time i really am excited SO excited to be going finally i have waited a little over a month for this day and it has finally come but on a previous note i have been doing well a little stressed out from baby sitting bad kids but so far i have not strangled any of them lolbut i am about to pull my hair out
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gone 2 soon mourning the life of katie

Jan 19, 2009

this weekend has been a sad one one of my friends her body was found in a trash can in a neighborhood she did not live in or frequend whom ever done this will burn in hell for eternity katie you will be missed  Katie Nicole Roberts
some one shot her and dumped her in the trash she has 2 kids left behinds and a whole lot of friends and family we will miss you sweetie 


for more info http://www.news4jax.com/news/18510917/detail.html/


please lake city if you know any thing please call lake city police  


rest in peace katie although i know you can't until your killer or killers have been caught
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going for my goals

Jan 19, 2009

hi everyone first i will start by saying thanks for all the support and comments i have now decided to achieve my all time goal after wls which is open my own photography studio here in lake city i have nothing and not alot as far as a budget go but i am gonna work at it slowly photography is my passion i am in need of a good digitall slr but i dont have the money even on  ebay they are expensive i have even been on freecycle.com and this one guy tried to sell me one on freecycle hint the title is free.............................. cycle excuse me i was venting because i am getting frustrated i really want to do this so if any one has any used equipment for photography and looking to get rid of it i am the person in need badly in need but any way i have taken some shots on my ittle digital and sold packages to family and friends so if i can do it without profesional eqipment i have a great feeling i can do it 10 times over when i do get what i need i am welcoming all comments on this and all advice on going for my goal like the equipment needed if there is anyone out there whom knows help me i have to do what is good for my family now and me but mainly it is time to put melissa first i try to help everybody and i know that i will be blessed but i feel that some people are taking advantage of me  but hey i am going for the gold  my goals
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A BEGINNING TO A NEW

Jan 16, 2009

WATCH MY BEGINNING OF MY JOURNEY


SLIDESHOW & PLEASE COMMENT ON IT

http://smilebox.com/playBlog/4e7a45784d5451304d673d3d0d0a
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About Me
Lake City, FL
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31.6
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Surgery
02/22/2010
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Nov 06, 2008
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