Carol - I just read you post and it deeply touched my heart! We all go through times of turmoil and it is so hard to stay focused. You have done an amazing job on your weight loss and gaining a healthier life! You should be so proud of yourself!! God loves you, and so do we!!!! Hang in there, all will be revealed. As for not having friends, get out there girl! You are beautiful, funny, inteligent, and likeable!! Maybe think about joining a wls surrport group in your area. I've found that the the one in my area, Atlanta, Georgia (meets once a month) has been such a blessing for me. A great place to meet people and talk about our successes and struggles, wls related and otherwise! We are always here for you. Love, Toni