J. W. 22 years, 5 months ago

Sally, I totally am with you on the 4th of July thing. Yesterday was horrible for me. I did not enjoy any of it...and I am sad, so very sad, because MO is preventing me from life. I forced myself to get dressed, smile, and pretend to be excited for my 3 year old and 10 year old girls. We went to my Mom's for a picnic...and I KNOW my parent's, husband, and grandmother, who are all normal sized pity me. I know they pity my kids, because at 400+ pounds, their Mommy cannot swim with them, or jump with them, cannot do much at all but sit in the sweltering heat watching everyone else have fun. Then there is the food issue, I enjoy it less and less but still continue to shove it down my throat all the while wishing I was somewhere else...like at home in the air conditioning with my very swollen ankles up! I watch my husband do all the physical things with the kids while as usual, I sit on my very well padded BUTT. Yes, I agree, summer time and 4th of July activities are not for the obese. I have 2 picnics to attend tommorrow and I am trying to think of ways to not go, but then my family suffers. So I go and watch all my skinny girlfriends enjoy life and play with their kids while I sit winded just from walking from the car on the deck missing all the fun and too embarrassed to eat much. My surgery date is approaching and as far as I am concerned it cannot come quick enough, I am so ready to change my life and get healthy. And I wish all the best to you Sally, because I can tell you are a special person. Thanks for letting me vent, and you are in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck with everyone. And if you don't want to go to those picnics Sally DON'T GO. Nobody really understands if they are not obese.

J. W. 22 years, 5 months ago


Hellcatmama 22 years, 5 months ago

Sally, I read your post today and I know exactly how you feel....and where your coming from. I know about this fat being a living hell....My warmest hugs go out to you. You tell it just like it is!!! There is NOTHING wrong with that. I know that God answers ALL prayers and HE will answer yours Sally, I have no doubt! I bet you will soon get that surgery date. God Bless you and peace~~~

dibie1221 22 years, 5 months ago

Hi Sally. I'm a bigtime lurker on the message board, and I just want you to know that every time I see your face, I say a prayer for you to get your surgery. You remind me so much of my sister, but of me, too in a way. Please stay strong for the good fight, and you will win in the end. Every painful step will be worth it. I'm a nurse, 44yo, and I sympathize with your position. So many times we see people take advantage of assistance, it becomes a stigma. But when you really NEED it, use it! You will pay back with bonuses when you have your life back. Hugs. Please feel free to email me any time!!!!!!!!!!!! Diana

skinnierone44 22 years, 5 months ago

Hi Sally as I sit here writing to you I also am crying from reading your story. People can be so cruel but you need to know that you are a person and you have real feelings just like them. I know exactly what you are going through I am 5'5" and weight 370 pounds. I have been struggling with my weight for a very long time. I too get treated differently by my own mother. It is like I should not be eating all that stuff and I have not even told her I am having this surgery. Why are we always discriminated against we are all wonderful people. If you want to write to me I would be more than glad to write back to you I will be your new friend if you want me to be. Take care and my thoughts and prayers are with you Sally BIG HUGS TOO YOU KATHY

charanewme 22 years, 5 months ago

Sally stay positive and don't let others get you down. Follow your dreams and they will come true.You are my prayers Charlene.

Adele L. 22 years, 5 months ago

Hello Sally, I just wanted you to know that I will be keeping you in my prayers. Hang in there baby. When things get tough... the tough get going and you seem like a stong and tough person. May God bless you and keep you healthy and strong.

Tami D. 22 years, 5 months ago

Awsome Sally, I am just filled with pride to know you! You are a real inspiration.. Keep up doing just a little at a time.. remember even healthy folks climb mountains one step at a time! You are in my prayers! Tami

Karen N. 22 years, 5 months ago

day by day, Sally... just keep singing that little song from 'Godspell' You're gettiung closer all the time. How nice to read your positive post about the exercise you've started. You have lots of support here

Joanie C. 22 years, 5 months ago

Hi Sally, I read your posts and kept thinking of them, so thought I'd jot you a note. You are so wonderfully candid, I just love how you poured your heart out in your posts. Just keep postive thoughts coming and you'll get where you are going, little by little everything will be just fine. God Bless you! Joanie
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