Sally, I know you are going through the ups and downs of your up coming surgery right now. I have been there. I just had my surgery on 10/4/02 and was a basket case up until I just let God take over, after all, he is the one who decides what will happen and no worry will change that. I went to sleep with a smile and woke up with the same, I am told. I can only say that allowing God to handle my fears was a great help and made the surgery smooth with his guiding hands for the surgeon. I just figured that either God was going to bring me through this and I was going to have a better life (which has already started) or he was going to take me to a place with no more pain, humiliation, or all the other things that are bad in our life. Heck, either one looked good to me. I pray that you have peace in your days up until surgery, and that God will guide the surgeon's hand and you have a speedy recovery. God Bless!!!!