Renee W.

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  : Found my protein drink today.  The Profect 2.9oz bullets.  25g protein, 0 carbs , 100 cal.  They are fruit flavored.  Fuzzy peach nectar, Blue rasberry swirl, Fresh citrus berry, Ruby melon twist, Cool melon splash, Passion fruit, Grapefruit mango, & Orange pineapple. I'm not a big milk drinker, so all the powders that mix with milk no my favorite.  These are yummy.  I also tried a new bar today.  It's Atkins Endulge Peanut Caramel Cluster Bar and looks and tastes just like a Payday candy bar.  4g protein, 9g carbs, 110 cal. Still waiting ..... working on the house today.  Organizing and cleaning.  Had physical therapy this morning in the pool.  Feeling pretty good.  Just had 3 protein bars, 1 bullet, and water today.  Trying to get my 10% preop body weight off.  Not hungry at all.   It's still early.                 
  

  Busy weekend at work. Exhausted tonight. Watching the Oscars.  I didn't see any of these movies.  What have I been doing ?  Oh ya, I only watch movies made by Disney. LOL.  Feel good today.  Looking forward to next week. It's funny how talking to ppl on this site calms you nerves and make you feel normal.  Every one of us are in the same boat. Well, maybe it's a cruise ship with a buffet.  I never thought I could make friends I've never met.  I had some nice chats tonight.  I like being here. It's comfortable.  No insecurities.  I think I've had a breakthrough.  Life is only getting easier.  Confidence going up, pain going down, blood pressure going down, energy going up, making friends.  What else do I need to be happy.  I already have the perfect family.  I just need to work on me.  Gonna go get cozy.  Be back tomorrow.  Night. 

 So I'm in the middle of my long weekend.  It's 4:30am.  I can't seem to sleep even though I have to be at work at 8am.  I hope this week will bring final approval and maybe a date not to far in the future.  Even though, I have so much to do before surgery.  I have to finish painting my daughters room and put up a wall border.  I want to spring clean the house. I want to clean out the garage.  I feel like I'm nesting, but I'm not pregnant. LOL. I just want everything to be ready.  That's going to be my focus for this week.  So I don't go crazy.  And I want to spend every minute I can with my kids.  I love them soooo much.  They drive me crazy, but they are really good kids.  Maybe they will have one more snow day.  HAHA.  Gotta sleep.  Be back later.  

  Talked to Tristan at Dr G's today.  My chart was given to Dr for final review.  That means psych eval was okay and final approval from insurance next stop.....  It's really happening.  I feel like these little things are getting me thru my impatience.  Now I'm a little scared again.  But still excited and confident in my decision. 

Virtual Me @ goal (153)

 I'm feeling good today.  Playing with mvm.com was really fun.. Check my photos.  My goal is 150lbs.  That is a possible version on me @ 153. I can't wait to go to the beach.  I got my tax return today.  That means I can pay the $1000 that is my responsibility for surgery easily.  Life is good.  I'm a little pms-y so been eating a little too much.  But have a good mind set to get back on track.  I love thedailyplate.com.  It's really cool when you exercise because you can actually start out negative calories. Woohoo !!! The sun actually came out today.  We have about 3 feet of snow on the ground.  It can start melting any time.  I would like to get outside working in the yard.  Even raking and cutting the grass sounds good right now.  The kids are getting stir crazy even though they have been out in the snow playing.  I can't take another school snow day.  I love them but that's me time.  Mostly to clean up after them but it's waaay easier with them gone.  Trying hard not to call Tristan at Dr G's.   But by the first of next week hopefully things will have progressed.  
 I must be dreaming.   

  If I write it, maybe I will feel better.  Still waiting on final insurance approval.  I don't think that will be a problem.  I was all geared up to have surgery within 2 months.  Now I find out it might be as late as June.  They get you all excited and trying to lose weight pre-op, and you think okay I can do this for 2 months.  Then all of a sudden it's 4 months.  OMG, I don't know if I can stay sane that long, waiting ...  I'm trying to keep busy and get my house and life in order.  I need a new hobby or something.  Eating is my favorite.  I already have a family and pets to take care of.  I have a job.  I make jewelry with beads.  I like reading and doing puzzles.  I just can't seem to keep my mind off surgery.  Okay, I feel a little better. I know sounds a little OCD. Really, I am sane and normal. 

 Well, I had my psych eval. yesterday and my nutrition class today.  I got my letter of medical necessity from my primary care doctor.  Now, we just have to wait for the psych results and we can go for final approval.  That psychological profile exam was interesting. It had like 560 T/F statements to answer.  It's kind of a relief.  Next thing ya know, maybe I'll have a date.  

2/4/07: I'm a little frustrated today.  I was scheduled to have my psych evaluation tomorrow and I got a call today that the doctor left her group and no longer takes my insurance.  I had to find a new psychologist and reschedule in a week.  I was really looking forward to this step being over and my final approval coming thru soon.  Oh well ....What's a week when the rest of my life is going to be sooooo much better.