Renee W.

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I can't believe how quickly time is going by.  My last post was 6 days ago ???? I feel like it was yesterday.  I haven't been coming here as often.  I just don't feel like I need it right now.  The weather has been beautiful.  Most of my questions have been answered.  I've been enjoying my family, cleaning house, working in the yard, organizing all my craft supplies, and resting occasionally.  I feel at peace. 

  I feel good.  My preop appointment is less than 3 weeks away.  It's coming up fast.  I finally feel ready.   I'm really trying to stick to a healthy diet.  (I admit mostly because I have that appointment in 3 weeks and they are going to weigh me !) I gave up my diet caff-free soda and am pushing non-carbonated drinks, mostly Crystal Light, some sf apple cider, some sf hot cocoa, and lots of plain water.  I seem to be having trouble with snacking in the evening.  I try to choose a sf fudgsicle, a low-fat string cheese, or a no sugar added applesauce.  I've been working in the yard a lot. Raking gives me a little adrenaline rush.  And I get sweaty, so I must be burning calories.   We cleaned out the garage and are working on the barn (shed, whatever).  I'm such a pack rat.  We've almost filled up a dumpster.  I love this weather.   It feels great having the windows open .  I am so grateful to have my family to help me thru this surgery.  I just talked to someone in the chat room that doesn't have any family to help take care of him.  I forget how lucky I am.  I am very very lucky!!!  So for right now I am trying to distract myself from obsessing about this surgery.  Thank goodness for this blog. I can use it like therapy.   I bought and exercise ball and dvd.  I have been using one at physical therapy and really like it.  I finished therapy last week.  So I'm going to focus on exercising, too.  Well, I better get some rest.  Be back soon.  

 Still getting a lot done around  here. Mostly cleaning out drawers and doing laundry, lately.    Had dental work done today (replaced old fillings with new shiny white ones).  I am soooo sore. They stabbed me 3 times to get me numb enough.  I was numb for about 5 hours and had trouble swallowing for most of the afternoon, That was kind of scary.  I got my supply of Profect for the first little post op time.  I also got my Davinci syrup the same day.  I have not tried it yet.  I found some SF/FF Vanilla ice cream from Schwan's.  I thought I might try the syrup over that.  I also tried Luigi's no sugar added italian ice ( lemon/cherry) and it is yummy.  I found multigrain torilla chips at Meijer's and Karl even likes them as much as regular.  I asked him today if he is afraid I'm going to get skinny and leave him and he said "NO".  I just wanted to document that somewhere.  I hear a lot of husbands get insecure after and turn into real dicks.  I also questioned if he is ready to take care of me.  I might mean kind of gross stuff.  He laughed and said I better check out in home nurses. LOL. I'm sure I will be well cared for between he and my mother.  I went to check on Grace after she fell asleep tonight and I found a note waiting for me.  She knows I always turn off her light next to her bed and her radio.  It said " THANK YOU , MOM, FOR EVERYTHING !"  Awww, someone does notice all the stuff I do.  I just didn't think an eleven year old would be the one.  I hope I am a good Mom.  I love them soooo much.  Good Night.  

  I have gotten sooooooo much done.  I washed the fronts of my cupboards and the walls in my kitchen.  I put together a shelf for Grace's room.  I've gotten tons of laundry done.  I organized the video games and movies.  I even raked the patches of lawn that don't have snow on them in the front yard.  It feels better to have made a little dent.  I even had time to make some earrings and bracelets.  I hear it is going to snow again.  When is spring really going to come.  Oh well, time for bed.

Why can't I get motivated?  I feel like my house will never be clean so I can relax when I have surgery.  Why do my kids make such a mess? I'm just kind of overwelmed.  There is constantly so much mail, laundry, dishes, garbage, dust, toys.  I don't expect perfection, but I don't feel like my house is ever as clean as other peoples.  I try to just take one thing at a time, but I get nowhere, then I just want to quit.  Karl says I just need some nicer weather to get motivated. I feel like surgery should be a great motivation though.  Oh well, I'll just keep trying.  What's going to happen when I'm out of commission ?? I don't want to think about that. Bu-Bye.

 I talked to Patti, the surgery scheduler, yesterday and she said she could put me on a list that could move up my date.  She kind of made it sound like my date should have been around Spring Break and Dr. is going on vacation.  So I got pushed back to the end.  I'm okay either way.  But it's nice to know I didn't do anything that caused my wait to be so long.  Happy Easter everyone !!! OMG, It's snowing. What happened to Spring. Oh well, focus on what I can control .