I HAVE A FEW COMMENTS ON THE PPL THAT DON'T HOLD THE DOOR FOR U ...BECAUSE I DON'T LOOK LIKE A MOVIE STAR.. AND THESE THAT WHEN U GO IN THE STEAK HOUSE THEY THINK, "MY WORDS, WHY IS SHE IN HERE, SHE IS BIG ENOUGH"... WELL THEY JUST DON'T KNOW HOW BAD IT HURTS ME...NOT THAT THEY WOULD CARE...I HAVE BECOME SO AWARE OF ALL THE THINGS IN MY LIFE I HAVE WATCH OUT FOR, MY SWIM SUITE TOO SMALL, MY DRESSES TO SMALL, AND I CAN'T GO TO CHURCH LIKE I WANT TO...I HAVE A NEW EXPLORER AND "I CAN HARDLY FIT BEHIND THE STEERING WHEEL"
WHAT A LIFE....SOME TIMES I JUST WANT TO DIE... WALK A SHORT DISTANCE AND BE OUT OF BREATHE.. DROPING SOMETHING ON THE FLOOR AND HOPING SOMEONE WILL BE SO KIND AS TO PICK IT UP FOR U...CAN'T GET A M.R.I. BECAUSE THE MICHINE HAS A WEIGHT LIMIT ON IT... GOING TO THE DR.OFFICE AND SIT IN THE CHAIRS, AND NOT BE ABLE TO FIT IN THEM... GOING TO VISIT A SISTER AND HER INFORM U THAT SHE PAID A LOT FOR THAT CHAIR SO BE CAREFUL SETTING ON IT, AND NOT HURT (BREAK) IT ...NOT BE ABLE TO GO TO LADIES' RETREAT BECAUSE U CAN'T WALK A LONG DISTANCES... HAVE THE NEIGHBOR SAY TO U WHEN U COME HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL WITH UR NEW BABY "OH, I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW U WAS PREGANAT"... AND THE FIRST THING PPL LOOK AT WHEN I COME IN THE ROOM IS MY FAT STOMACH... DOESN'T ALL THESE THING MAKE U WANT TO SCREAM "I AM A HUMAN TOO , I HAVE FEELING THE SAME AS U" I DO ... AND WHEN I HAVE ALL MY WEIGHT OFF, I AM GOING TO HELP THOSE THAT R OBESIT AND MAKE THEM KNOW THAT THEY R LOVED AND R SPECIAL PPL TOO, GOD BLESS U ALL... LOVEDOVE