MMsFlick78
Being overweight affected me in many ways. All my life I have been overweight, and since about the age of 16 I have been battling with it. The more I try, it seems like the more I fail at the end; by gaining twice as much that I had lost.
I have tried many methods, some more then once. I don't remember the dates and how much, because I have tried so many times. I tried not eating, which of course did not work. I tried several pills that you send for in the mail. I watched what I ate and took the pills as directed on the instructions. Again, this did not work either. Instead of pills I sent for DetoXykall, this wasn't helping much with weight lose (maybe a few pounds here and there). It did make moving my bowels much easier and more frequent. Their were two clinics that I tried. One was LA Weight Loss Center. I do have to say they did work, up until it got too expensive. I just could not afford eating all the protein, fruits, and vegetables every day. I went through LA about 3 different times, each about a year long. Weight Watchers was the other clinic I went too, I went there 3 times also. this was more realistic, to where I can eat what I can afford and just count the points. This also worked for awhile, and then I hit a plateau. Along with all the diets, I was also going to the gym. I would spend at least an hour or more working out. Then I went through knee surgery, and that slowed down the work outs and the weight loss dramatically. I would then "give up" and be in a phase where I just didn't care anymore. This is how I was put on this earth, so just suck it up! I would eat one day and not the next. It all depended on what the scale said in the morning. Within 2 years I had 3 surgeries on the same knee. I gained over 100 pounds back, quicker then I took it off! I was at a loss and didn't know what to do anymore. I went to my PCP and he had several tests done and introduced me to a couple diets. After about 9 months or so, all I did was gain more weight. The doctor then referred me to a bariatric surgeon.
I don't like to go out with friends anymore. I make an excuse up, because I am too embarrassed. When i do go out I don't have fun, because I worry what others are thinking. I get the feeling that everyone is looking at me and talking about the way I look. As for a relationship with someone, I am once again too embarrassed to meet anyone. If I do it's always the type of guy that thinks you are vulnerable and can get whatever he wants from you. At work I have slowed down and when I need to squat it is impossible (do to my knee and the weight). Working in a small room, I am always knocking things around with my hips or butt. If I work at a faster pace I find myself sweating and my face is bright red. Even sitting in a regular chair is impossible, sometimes I would stand because of this. I try to eat alone, even when invited to go to lunch with the gang. I think they are looking at my plate, thinking 'wow, no wonder she is fat'! When I sleep, I wake up just about every night sweating. From all the ups and downs from weight loss I have clothes ranging from size 12 to 28, and keep them all just in case. My goal is to burn my "BIG" clothes and not feel as though I will need them ever again!
virtual model at 315 lbs
virtual model at 150 lbs
