So, so bad!!!!!!!!

Oct 12, 2008

Post Date: 10/12/08 4:04 pm

I was so so so so so sooooooooooo BAD!!!!!!   

Going to my mom and dad's is ALWAYS an adventure in eating!  Today, Mom made soooo much good stuff!!!!!!!!  OMG!!!!!!!!!!  Back before surgery, I would have eaten and stuffed myself so bad!!!!!!!!!   She made: chicken alfredo, chicken parmesan, spaghetti and meatballs, green beans, SF jello pie, and strawberry rhubarb pudding  (DH had brought some of his Sabattus famous apple crisp too!!!)

So.....I had about 3 oz of chicken  ....a little of the alfredo and some of the chix parm (no PASTA for me!!!!)  a little bit of the spaghetti sauce and 1 meatball, 5-6 green beans. A little while later, I had a sliver of the sf jello pie........OOOOOOHHHH  YUUMMMMYYY!!!!!   I over did it, but  it finally all went down and I stayed feeling pretty good.    So, that's NOT the bad part!!!!!!!!!

On the way home....a few hours later, DH says....let's go get some french fries and onion rings at OOB!!!!!!!!!   OMG!!!!!!!!!!!   Lisa's pizza onion rings are like a MAJOR addiction for me!!!!!!!!!!   I ate 3....count em....3 onion rings!!!!!!!!   AND about 3-4 french fries!  BAD BAD BAD!!!!       I've already FLAMED myself.......trust me!!!!! 

Oh well...tomorrow is another day and I'll do better!  At least I got my fluids and vitamins done!!!!!

Mom and I also went to the thrift store down in Biddeford.  I found a couple of sweaters from LL Bean.  Nothing major, but hopefully I can be warmer this winter!  DH says I have enough sweaters already! HA...I have all of 4-5!!!!!!  Sheesshhh!  I'm NOT like him and wear the same clothes every day!  Oh well, he'll get over it!!!!!!

Dad was a ton of fun today too!!!!  As I walked in to their house, dad looks up and says, "I looked up and there you were...all skinny and Dan couldn't hide behind you!  You need to start eating more or something!"  He says I'm starting to look sickly!  OMG!!!!  I explained to him AGAIN, that I am not at my goal or my nut's goal and that my body will know when I'm where I need to be!  Mom told him to lay off too!  Even my sister laid into dad......she told him:  "When we were fat, you always told us to lose weight and get healthy!  Now that we are losing and looking good, you want us heavier!  We just can't win with you dad!"  That kinda quieted him down!  I know he means well, but I'm REALLY NOT skinny!  SHEESHH!!!!!!  I DID show him my bicep though......I FINALLY am starting to have "guns" as the young kids say!  It's kewl!  Now I just wish I didn't have the batwing hanging down on the bottom!  HAHA!!!!!!  Oh well!!!!!!!!

It was a fun day nonetheless!  It felt good to be out of the house most of the day and not spend much money! ha!

My 6 month appt is this Thursday.......I'll probably post an update after that MD appt (I think it will just be with Michael, the PA and Corinne, the Nut).

Have a great weekend!!!!!!!

Time to CELEBRATE!!!!!!!!!?????????!!!!!!!!

Oct 09, 2008

I don't know what I am doing differently but the scale keeps moving.....and in the right direction.....OF ALL THINGS!!!!!!!!    

As of today, I am down 125 pounds      (I'll be six months out of surgery next week.........10 months since first consult on the 20th!!!!)    9 pounds to reach my goal.........24 pounds to reach Corinne's goal for me!!!!!!!  OMG!!!!!!!!   

Time to go out and celebrate!!!!!!!!!!   (No Cheryl!!!!!!!!   Tylenol, blood mary and sex is NOT the celebration I'm talking about!!!!!!!!!)  

OMG! AGAIN!!!!!!!

Oct 09, 2008

I am NOW 10 pounds from MY goal!!!!!!!  (still 25 to get to Corinne's goal for me, but it's all good!!!!!!!!!)       Once I lose 5 more pounds, I will have lost HALF of what I weighed when I started this journey back in December of 2007!!!!!!!!!!!

Man!!!!!!!  WHAT A RIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So much to add today!!!!!!!!

Oct 06, 2008

THANKS be to MY GOD!!!!!  Another WOW!!!!!!     I weighed in at 136 pounds today!!!!!!!  That puts my BMI at 24.9.........just barely NORMAL!!!!!!!   (Never thought I'd EVER have anything NORMAL!!!)  I think it's the FIRST time in my LIFE that my BMI is NORMAL!  OMG!!!!  I still can't believe it!   The weight will probably be back up tomorrow, but it sure felt good for 1 day, at least!!!!!!!!  AND, I know I'll be heavier at the doc's office as our scales don't exactly agree!  But, at least I have a few more days until my appt to try to insure that I am close to that when I see the doc!  WOOHOO!!!   

Also........that puts me 11 pounds from MY goal!!!!!!!!  Still 26 pounds from Corinne's goal for me......but it's all GOOD!  NOW...I know, I know!!!  I can't get hung up on the numbers, but......it sure feels good!  

I went shopping to celebrate today too!   I went to Salvation Army!  I finally scored a jacket for $4.99!  It's a Woolrich and I don't really care for the color, but it'll do for work.  I also found a pair of Old Navy pants, AE pants, a pair of Nike windpants, a sweater, and....get this.........a pair of Abercrombie and Fitch jeans for $4.99!!!!!!  OMG!  I got them!!!!!!   When I got home, DD told me they were guys jeans!  SSHEESHHH...talk about bursting my bubble!   Oh well, I'll still wear them.....once they fit!  They are a size 31inch waist with button fly!   I can button all but the top button comfortably!  I could probably tie the top one, but they'd be too snug!  Hopefully they'll fit once I get to goal!   Just to be able to say that I own a pair of A&F jeans is AMAZING!  I NEVER thought I'd own a pair (if you don't know.....they are easily $60-70/pair!!)  No rips, stains or anything either...they look really nice!  Too bad they are guys jeans though!  Oh well!!!!!   The WERE on the ladies rack in the store!!!!!!   So....I spent $20 and got 4 pairs of pants, a jacket and a sweater!  How cool is that??   They're all in the wash now so maybe I'll have something to wear that won't be AS loose!  DH will be happy!  haha!  (He didn't even complain when I told him I went shopping!  haha...that's amazing!!!!!!)

Anyways.........Thank you AGAIN! to all my OH family, my family IRL, MY GOD and Saviour!!!!!!!!!!  and Dr Loggins for giving me this new chance at a healthy life!  GOTTA LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!       

Update re: blood sugars

Oct 06, 2008

I called Dr Loggins office first thing this morning and talked to Kim about how my PCP wanted me to do my 6 month blood work early so I wouldn't have to have the same lab work done twice.  So, she said that was fine and gave me an appt to see Dr Loggins tomorrow 10/07 instead of next week as previously scheduled (my PCP thought I should follow up with Dr Loggins sooner).

So, since we got home kinda late last night and I felt like eating once I got home, I had to wait until about 11 to get the lab work done!  Had to be fasting for 12 hours!!  Got it done and then downed a protein drink to keep me goin!

At about 1pm, I got a call from Michael, the PA at Dr L's office.  He said he was just calling to follow up about my phone call this morning.  He wasn't aware that I had the blood work done earlier this morning.  He thought I should see Dr Loggins too and told me to come in tomorrow as scheduled.

About 10 minutes later,  Michael called again and said he had pulled up the results of my lab work.  He said, basically, everything looked good.  My hemoglobin was a little low but my hematocrit was fine. Everything else was "normal" too (my PCP was concerned about my electrolytes).  Michael said he had talked to Dr Loggins and that the doc wanted me to make sure I was eating 6 times a day (3 meals and 3 snacks) so my blood sugars will stay where they need to be and that Dr Loggins wanted to see me. So, Michael told me that they were changing my appointment back to next Thursday, as previously scheduled, as Dr Loggins wouldn't be in the office Tuesday (tomorrow) afternoon.  Well, DUH, Dr Loggins isn't in on Thursday either!!!!!!  But, I didn't realize that until after I hung up with the PA.   So, I called Kim back and confirment that Dr L won't be in tomorrow or next Thursday!  SHEESSHH.... She said to just come in next Thursday anyways.  Soo........I guess Dr Loggins doesn't need to see me?!?!  I don't know! Whatever!  Guess I'll see what happens.  Hopefully this blood sugar will straighten itself out either way.

OMG!!!!! WOW!!!!!!!!!

Oct 03, 2008

I went to have highlights put in my hair Friday evening, but, of course, it was too late and they didn't have time to do it.  So, instead, I went to Goodwill to see if I could find any treasures!!

I found an LL Bean sweater, size LARGE  (NO XXXXX'S!!!!!) for $4.99!
I found a pink striped shirt for $3.99...size LARGE!!!!!!!
I found 2 pairs of pants.........$3.99 each..........NOW GET THIS!!!!!!!!!!!
    SIZE 8!!!!!!!!!!!!!  AND THEY FIT!!!!!!!  except in DA BUTT! cause I have NO BUTT!!!!!!!!!        1 of the pairs of pants is from American Eagle! WOOHOO!!!!!

OMG!!!!!!  I am so thankful for this surgery!  Can you imagine!?!?!  SIZE 8!!!!!!!   I have NEVER worn a size 8!!!!!!!!!!!!!  (that's down from a size 24/26 pants back in December when I started this process!!!!!!!!!!     And size large shirts.........from 26/28 shirts!!!!!!!

This journey is AMAZING!!!!!     Thank you Lord!       Thank you Dr Loggins!!!!!!!  Thank you to my family and my OH family!!!!!!!   I wouldn't be here without ALL of you!!!!!!!!!!!!      and your amazing SUPPORT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    

THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    

Just an update.....

Oct 03, 2008

Last night was very busy for me!  I worked all day, then drove up to Winslow to pick up DD at her field hockey game (luckily DS's football game was cancelled and both DS had no homework, so I could go up and watch most of DD's game).  After the game, DD had to get her stuff off the bus so she walked over there and called me and told me to drive around to the other side of the school and pick her up.  Well, I couldn't find the right driveway and hence, couldn't find the bus!  I started getting SOOO upset, peeved, really, really pissed.....and I couldn't stop myself!  My emotions got so out of control, it was crazy!   Then, I asked DD to find someplace for us to eat and she decided on KFC/Taco Bell. No problem! I find it, with the help of the GPS, but, once we get there, the driveway isn't marked and I turned into the Pizza Hut parking lot...of course, they aren't connected! Had to do a u-turn....and I'm getting more and more peeved every second!  I had to pull into the Marden's parking lot and then....once we finally got to KFC...the freaking line was OUT THE DOOR and the drive through line was like 20 cars long!!!!!!!  OMG!  I totally lost it!!!!!!  This usually mild mannered mom started dropping words that I don't usually use!  I couldn't stop myself!  DD was just in shock at how out of control I was of my emotions!!!!   THEN, I had to find my way out of the parking lot...following some slow-poke and go find the Subway!  Finally, got to Subway and I ordered a wrap with turkey and just "a little bit" of mustard!.   The girl like douses the wrap with mustard!  I about lost it!  I left and went to the bathroom!  It was NUTS!!!  Weird part is....as soon as I ate........everything was calm and just fine! 

So......I stared thinking about it and came to the conclusion that my blood sugar might have been "out of whack".  By the time we got home about 45 minutes later, my blood sugar was 87.  Kinda low, I thought, considering I HAD eaten!    Fasting, this morning, it was 78.  So, since I am just about out of testing strips, I called my PCP to see if I could get a script to get some more strips so I could kinda keep an eye on this.  Of course, the RN says, I think the doctor would want to see you!  So......off to the doctor this afternoon!  YIPPEE!

2pm appt with my PCP...she thinks it's probably my blood sugar dropping.  As we talked, I realized that some of my moodiness may have actually been low blood sugars as they usually happen around the same time of day....late afternoon, before supper!  She wrote the script for the testing strips (I already have a meter.) and she wanted me to go have some blood work done.  I told her that Dr Loggins office sent me a lab slip for tons of bloodwork that is due in about 10 days, for my 6 month check up.  She thinks I could possibly be anemic or my electrolytes may be outta whack too. She's not sure.  (Other symptoms I've had: occasional dizzyness, some heart palpitations...I've had these before, but they've come back after having been gone for over a year, and sometimes I just feel like I'm in a daze or a fog....not often, granted, but it does happen occasionally.....which is what I told my PCP)

So..........now, she wants me to monitor my blood sugar over the weekend, fasting and before meals and anytime I dont' feel "right". She wants me to call Dr Loggins office on Monday and see if I can have all my bloodwork drawn early and see if I can get in and see Dr L early for my 6 month check up.  We also discussed my diet and she was glad to know that I AM getting all my fluids, vitamins and protein as directed.  She thinks that my weight loss has been great and she's really proud of me for that but she also thinks that all these symptoms may just be my body adjusting to all the weight loss.  She couldn't offer much more in the way of explanations and she really wants me to discuss all this with Dr Loggins and see what he thinks.

Guess I'm picking my finger a bunch this weekend and will be calling the office on Monday to check on the blood work and moving up my appointment.  Seems kinda silly as I'm seeing him in about 2 weeks, but we'll see what the office says!

Yippee!!!!!!   The excitement never ends around here!!!!!!!!

Peeved or hormones........I don't know which!!!!!!!

Sep 29, 2008

I think my hormones are raging or something...it IS my TOM!!!!!

So, today.......this lady gives me a compliment (I guess) by telling me that I am looking "really skinny"!  YEAH RIGHT! is what I'm thinking!  Then, she says,  "You're at your goal, right?  You must not have any left to lose....we (I don't know who she was talking to about me) were talking about you the other day and saying how much you've lost and how skinny you are now.  Are you feeling ok?  Are you eating ok?"  OMG!  I HAD SURGERY TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!  YIKES!  Maybe I am being too sensitive?  Maybe it's just my hormones?  I guess I'm just tired of hearing people tell me that I'm skinny when I KNOW that I still have a ways to go to reach my goal....and even further to go to reach Corinne's goal for me!

I know it'll take a while for my head to catch up with my body...but, sheesshh....enough with the skinny remarks!!!  Guess I'm so used to the "oh, you'd be so pretty if you were skinnier" comments that I can't deal with the reverse now????  

I REALLY am not posting this to offend ANYONE!!!!!  I apologize if I DO offend anyone!  I just needed to vent! I'm REALLY SORRY!!!!!!!

WOOOHOOO!!!!!!! I HAVE ISSUES!!!!!!!!!

Sep 28, 2008

With my SKIN.....what were YOU thinking???   I have a couple of areas under my right arm that won't heal up (hydrenitis or something) and now one under my left breast!  WOOHOO!  Never thought I'd be excited about having skin issues!   I took a coupla pix of them so I can date them and have them as "evidence".  Maybe it will help me with plastics down the road?  Keeping my fingers crossed!  

Also, DD and I did the American Heart Association Heart Walk today! We walked 4 miles in the rain and we got soaked to the bone!  It was fun and for a good cause, so it was all worth it!  Amazing to think that I don't think I COULD have done that walk last year!  Amazing the changes!  Gotta love em!

FINALLY!!!!!

Sep 27, 2008

I'm NOT complaining....I KNOW there are stalls!!!  It's just REALLY nice to see the scale finally move in the right direction!  Seems like A LOT of us on the Maine OH board are finally seeing some downward trends....it's ALL GOOD!

I finally have reached my goal of losing 120#!!!   120.5 gone as of this morning!!!!!  WOOHOOO!!!  13.5 more pounds to get to MY goal!  Still 28.5 to get to Corinne's goal for me (PROLLY AIN'T happening without plastic surgery!!!!)  I'm just TOO excited to see the scale moving in the right direction!!!!!

I'm feeling better too!  Not sure what happened on Thursday, but, Friday was a little bit better and today I feel "back to normal" (if there is such a thing in my life!!  HAHA)  Still haven't had much luck increasing the calories as I had planned (I'm just not hungry since I was sick feeling on Thursday!)  I'll see how it goes and try to increase my calories a little at a time, as I can!!!!

I'm still working out as much as I can!  I can now do 45 minutes on the eliptical at the gym (I'm using the "hill" program on level 8 and I burn about 280 cals during that 45 minutes...according to the machine---not sure how accurate that is!!!!)  I'm also doing some abd work---gently-- still trying to make sure I don't "pull" anything again!  Working the arms pretty hard but amazingly, I'm not getting very sore from all that!  Working the legs a little bit, but they get quite a work out on the eliptical and during the cardio stuff, so I don't concentrate on them too much.  I usually finish off with 15-20 minutes of work on a bike or treadmill, just to make sure I've gotten enough cardio stuff in! It's all good!

We got lucky today! Mom and Dad went yard sale-ing and found us a treadmill for $75!!!!!!  Mom says it's pretty nice too!  Can't wait to get it up here so DH and DD can use it too!  We can ALL use the exercise!

So, things are going well!  It'll be interesting to see how my blood work comes out at my 6 month check up in a couple of weeks!

Thanks again to my Lord and Savior for this wonderful life and tool!  To my surgeon, ALL my family and OH friends!  I couldn't do this without you!!!!!!!!!!

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