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At goal.........so what?
Nov 29, 2008
Yup! I'm at goal! No biggie! Is it REALLY such a big deal to reach "goal" just to have your mind screw with you??? Is it really worth it?? I still think of myself as "the fat girl"! I've been heavy ALL my life and have pictures to prove it. So, why did I think that once I'd lost all this weight that my life would be so much better? Is it really?
Well........SURE......my health is MUCH MUCH better! AND, clothes is cheaper! I can do many more things than I could do when I was 134 pounds heavier. BUT....does being at goal make my life any better? NOPE! I could have achieved the better health and the activity level 50-60 pounds ago! So, why is it such a big deal to reach "GOAL"??? Whose goal is it anyways?? My mind's???? My body's??? I am just confused I guess!
I've been lurking on the Maine board and I truly miss everyone on there. But, I also feel bad about posting things about reaching goal or complaining about things when I know others are struggling more than I am. The support on here is wonderful and I can't imagine having made it this far without all my OH buddies!
So, I guess my point is, or maybe I don't have a point?!?! Maybe I just needed to vent? I dunno! So, for what it's worth......I'm jealous of those of you who can wrap your minds around your new bodies and enjoy life! I'm jealous of you if you can look at yourself in the mirror and say that you love yourself and what you see in that mirror. I'm jealous of all of you who have lost less than me or weigh more than me and look AWESOMELY hot/incredible in your clothes!!!!! I'm not there yet, physically or mentally!!!!!! Yup, I have self-esteem issues......always have and probably always will! I guess we all have our issues and our little "jealousies" (is that a word?). I'm not proud of it but I'm aware of it and I'm gonna try to do something about it! I KNOW I need to stop comparing myself to others! It's REALLY hard! But, for my own mental and physical health........it's what I've got to do!
Do I make any sense at all? Probably not.........but........I try! haha!
Well........SURE......my health is MUCH MUCH better! AND, clothes is cheaper! I can do many more things than I could do when I was 134 pounds heavier. BUT....does being at goal make my life any better? NOPE! I could have achieved the better health and the activity level 50-60 pounds ago! So, why is it such a big deal to reach "GOAL"??? Whose goal is it anyways?? My mind's???? My body's??? I am just confused I guess!
I've been lurking on the Maine board and I truly miss everyone on there. But, I also feel bad about posting things about reaching goal or complaining about things when I know others are struggling more than I am. The support on here is wonderful and I can't imagine having made it this far without all my OH buddies!
So, I guess my point is, or maybe I don't have a point?!?! Maybe I just needed to vent? I dunno! So, for what it's worth......I'm jealous of those of you who can wrap your minds around your new bodies and enjoy life! I'm jealous of you if you can look at yourself in the mirror and say that you love yourself and what you see in that mirror. I'm jealous of all of you who have lost less than me or weigh more than me and look AWESOMELY hot/incredible in your clothes!!!!! I'm not there yet, physically or mentally!!!!!! Yup, I have self-esteem issues......always have and probably always will! I guess we all have our issues and our little "jealousies" (is that a word?). I'm not proud of it but I'm aware of it and I'm gonna try to do something about it! I KNOW I need to stop comparing myself to others! It's REALLY hard! But, for my own mental and physical health........it's what I've got to do!
Do I make any sense at all? Probably not.........but........I try! haha!
My first "Major" holiday since RNY.
Nov 27, 2008
Today was the day! My first Major holiday since surgery! WOW! Has it been crazy!
I've been cooking all week it seems! I made 2 pumpkin pies, 2 chocolate cream pies, a butterscotch cream pie, a frozen SF PB pie, chocolate chip cookies, an apple pie, a cherry pie and DH's apple crisp. That's besides preparing the 10pounds of mashed taters, 3 pounds of carrots, peas, turkey, stuffing, corn, rolls, and whatever else I've forgotten to mention! Mom made a sf jello pie, my sis brought squash, spinach, and green bean casserole, and my brother brought stuffed shrimp! We had SOOO much food and I have SOOO many leftovers! YIKES! At least I convinced my sis to bring her veggies back home with her and mom and dad took the apple pie and some turkey! It's not much, but at least it's something!
I've "pigged out" so much today! BUT........I DO NOT feel bad at all about it! It's 1 friggin day a year! So, what the heck! Yup......I had some chocolate chip cookies and some stuffing and all the stuff I normally don't eat! Granted, the portions were small, but I ate NORMAL food! It felt good! Of course, I ALWAYS put too much on my plate and end up leaving a good part of it behind, but at least I was able to sample a little bit of everything! YUMMY!!!!!
So.........tomorrow........it's BACK to the gym and back to the "program"! I don't want to undo EVERYTHING! haha!
DH's 2 sons from RI are visiting. We haven't seen them in about 2 years now. It's nice of them to come up and spend some time with their dad. Hard to believe how "grown up" they are! When I first met them, 10 years ago.......it just seems like time flies!! DH will have an interesting weekend with them here!
For me.......it's back to work tomorrow! No "Black Friday" shopping for me! That's ok though.........I'm broke anyways! HA I also have to work on Saturday! It stinks, but, what can you do? Suffer through, I suppose!
So, since it's Thanksgiving........just a few things I'm thankful for....
1. My family and friends
2. a warm home/roof over my head
3. a decent paying job that feeds and clothes the kids
4. a supportive husband (most of the time)
5. this wonderful tool I've been given to give me back my health
6. the snow, rain, sunshine and all the other weather that gives us seasons, flowers, and animals to enjoy
7....last, but NOT least......my FAITH, my Heavenly Father, without WHOM NONE of these other things I am thankful for would ever happen!
Thank you!
Happy Turkey Day to all!!!!!
I've been cooking all week it seems! I made 2 pumpkin pies, 2 chocolate cream pies, a butterscotch cream pie, a frozen SF PB pie, chocolate chip cookies, an apple pie, a cherry pie and DH's apple crisp. That's besides preparing the 10pounds of mashed taters, 3 pounds of carrots, peas, turkey, stuffing, corn, rolls, and whatever else I've forgotten to mention! Mom made a sf jello pie, my sis brought squash, spinach, and green bean casserole, and my brother brought stuffed shrimp! We had SOOO much food and I have SOOO many leftovers! YIKES! At least I convinced my sis to bring her veggies back home with her and mom and dad took the apple pie and some turkey! It's not much, but at least it's something!
I've "pigged out" so much today! BUT........I DO NOT feel bad at all about it! It's 1 friggin day a year! So, what the heck! Yup......I had some chocolate chip cookies and some stuffing and all the stuff I normally don't eat! Granted, the portions were small, but I ate NORMAL food! It felt good! Of course, I ALWAYS put too much on my plate and end up leaving a good part of it behind, but at least I was able to sample a little bit of everything! YUMMY!!!!!
So.........tomorrow........it's BACK to the gym and back to the "program"! I don't want to undo EVERYTHING! haha!
DH's 2 sons from RI are visiting. We haven't seen them in about 2 years now. It's nice of them to come up and spend some time with their dad. Hard to believe how "grown up" they are! When I first met them, 10 years ago.......it just seems like time flies!! DH will have an interesting weekend with them here!
For me.......it's back to work tomorrow! No "Black Friday" shopping for me! That's ok though.........I'm broke anyways! HA I also have to work on Saturday! It stinks, but, what can you do? Suffer through, I suppose!
So, since it's Thanksgiving........just a few things I'm thankful for....
1. My family and friends
2. a warm home/roof over my head
3. a decent paying job that feeds and clothes the kids
4. a supportive husband (most of the time)
5. this wonderful tool I've been given to give me back my health
6. the snow, rain, sunshine and all the other weather that gives us seasons, flowers, and animals to enjoy
7....last, but NOT least......my FAITH, my Heavenly Father, without WHOM NONE of these other things I am thankful for would ever happen!
Thank you!
Happy Turkey Day to all!!!!!
This is SOOO bad!!!!!!!!
Nov 23, 2008
As much as I love my Mom and Dad, I think I'm going to have to stop going down there to visit!!!! We went down for lunch today and I ate SOO much crap, it's incredible! I had ham (uhoh......water retention, here I come), about 2 tbs of mashed potatoes, some peas and carrots, a slice of bread(yeah it was a small one, but I NEVER eat bread!). Then, I had a sliver of boston cream pie and a sliver of chocolate cake! OMG, talk about carb overload! (Guess I don't dump on sugar! NOT GOOD!) Then, as we were getting ready to leave to come home, my mom says "do you remember these....your grandmother used to make them." She called them guinigs (which is the French word for rag) and they are made with leftover pie crust, a little bit of salt and butter to make them brown, and then a thin layer of PB in the middle! I didn't remember them at first, but the minute I took a bite.......it ALL came back to me! OH, the MEMORIES! Felt like I was back in my grandmother's kitchen! The are SOO good! I only had 2 little 1/2 inch squares, but still! WHAT a BAD eating day!!!!! And now........I'm still way behind on my protein but my calories are through the roof for the day and I've done no exercise! haha! Needless to say, I don't think I'll be jumping on the scale this week! (ALL this after being at goal for the second day straight! WOOHOO! Guess that will end tomorrow! Oh well!)
On an WOOHOOO note though!!!!!!!!! Mom and I went shopping while DH was watching the Pats play their game. We went to Reny's in Saco and I found my FAVORITE AE pants (just like the ones I first bought up at AE after surgery!!!) and they were only $14.99! I was so excited! AND........they had them in size 6!!!!!!!! WOOHOO for me!!!!!! I bought the blue ones and mom bought me the khaki ones and a sweater to go with them! Guess I know some of what I'm getting for Christmas! haha! So, now I guess I can get rid of the ones that are too big for me! I was SOOO excited to find those pants! I love them and they are SOO comfy!!!!! Oh my..........what a day!
Dad, of course, had his comments again today! When I walked in, he started looking around and asked where the rest of me was.....he thinks he's so funny! NOT! Then, as I was putting food on my plate at lunch, he looks over and says......"WOW, are you going to eat all that? Will it fit in your stomach?" I told him yeah....but my eyes were probably bigger than my stomach! I ended up giving half my ham to DH and leaving some other stuff on my plate too. Dad never said another word! haha
Oh yeah......I almost forgot! For reaching my "goal", I went and colored my hair! I needed to get rid of the gray! DD helped me! She did a great job, but I think I didn't leave it in long enough or my hair was too dark to start with or something.........so, I kinda look like a redhead now! I'm not particularly fond of it, but it'll have to do for now! At least some of the gray is covered for the time being! Oh well!
So much for my fun filled Sunday! I am NOT looking forward to this week! Fitting 5 days into 4 just kinda sucks! AND........all that cooking I have to do! Hope I can get it all done! I'm sure DH will be right here helping me out the whole time.........NOT!!!!!!! He'd be more in the way than a help anyways!
So..........happy THANKSGIVING to ALL!!!!!!!!!! I have many things to be thankful for and I'm still counting my blessings each and every day!
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!!!!!!
On an WOOHOOO note though!!!!!!!!! Mom and I went shopping while DH was watching the Pats play their game. We went to Reny's in Saco and I found my FAVORITE AE pants (just like the ones I first bought up at AE after surgery!!!) and they were only $14.99! I was so excited! AND........they had them in size 6!!!!!!!! WOOHOO for me!!!!!! I bought the blue ones and mom bought me the khaki ones and a sweater to go with them! Guess I know some of what I'm getting for Christmas! haha! So, now I guess I can get rid of the ones that are too big for me! I was SOOO excited to find those pants! I love them and they are SOO comfy!!!!! Oh my..........what a day!
Dad, of course, had his comments again today! When I walked in, he started looking around and asked where the rest of me was.....he thinks he's so funny! NOT! Then, as I was putting food on my plate at lunch, he looks over and says......"WOW, are you going to eat all that? Will it fit in your stomach?" I told him yeah....but my eyes were probably bigger than my stomach! I ended up giving half my ham to DH and leaving some other stuff on my plate too. Dad never said another word! haha
Oh yeah......I almost forgot! For reaching my "goal", I went and colored my hair! I needed to get rid of the gray! DD helped me! She did a great job, but I think I didn't leave it in long enough or my hair was too dark to start with or something.........so, I kinda look like a redhead now! I'm not particularly fond of it, but it'll have to do for now! At least some of the gray is covered for the time being! Oh well!
So much for my fun filled Sunday! I am NOT looking forward to this week! Fitting 5 days into 4 just kinda sucks! AND........all that cooking I have to do! Hope I can get it all done! I'm sure DH will be right here helping me out the whole time.........NOT!!!!!!! He'd be more in the way than a help anyways!
So..........happy THANKSGIVING to ALL!!!!!!!!!! I have many things to be thankful for and I'm still counting my blessings each and every day!
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!!!!!!
AMEN!!!!!! ALLELUIA!!!!!!!! THANK YOU HEAVENLY FATHER!!!!!!
Nov 21, 2008
11 months and 2 days post consult........7 months, 1 week and 1 day post surgery!!!!!!!! I AM AT MY GOAL!!!!!!!!!!! I weighed 125 pounds today!!!!!! 
THANK YOU HEAVENLY FATHER!!!!!!!!! I am SOO excited!!!!!!! 
I TRULY can NOT believe that this has happened to me/for me!!!!!! I am ssssoooooooooo amazed!!!!! I know, I know.......I was close yesterday, but just something in my mind....knowing that I ACTUALLY made a weight goal for the FIRST time in my LIFE! It's just SOOO AMAZING!!!!!!!! (FYI......DH's first comment was......"So, I guess you can start eating again!!!" DID he REALLY SAY THAT???? I guess he STILL doesn't understand that this is a LIFESTYLE change....not a DIET!!!!! I told him so too....and I might not have been too nice about it either! SORRY DH!!!!!!!)
I don't think I'll EVER be able to stop singing the PRAISES to my Lord and Savior, my surgeon (Dr Loggins and his staff), my family, all my friends here on OH and IRL!!!!!!! OMG!!!!! I just can't believe it!!!!
NOW............I have to maintain! Should be easy, right?? NOT!!! We'll see how that goes!!! My body might not be happy here either, who knows? I may drop a few more pounds just for that "rebound" weight, but we'll see where my body wants to be! I am JUST SO HAPPY right now!!!!!!
Coupla other things.....yup.....pouch is still sore this morning! Feels like I was kicked in the gut, just below my ribs on the left of my xiphoid, but there's no bruising, so I'll just keep an eye on it!
I tried this granola I bought from netrition.com.......OMG!! I warmed it up with some milk.....95 cals, 10g of protein, low carbs and taste....OMG! It's YUMMY!!!!!!!!!! GOOD STUFF!!!! Just hope it's not too much roughage for the pouchy......that's why I warmed it up, to make it softer and hopefully easier going down! BUT....good stuff!!!!!
So.....what do I do to celebrate this WOW??!!!??? I think I might go get my hair colored or something..........whaddya think???????????
Happy Saturday everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!
THANK YOU HEAVENLY FATHER!!!!!!!!! I am SOO excited!!!!!!! I TRULY can NOT believe that this has happened to me/for me!!!!!! I am ssssoooooooooo amazed!!!!! I know, I know.......I was close yesterday, but just something in my mind....knowing that I ACTUALLY made a weight goal for the FIRST time in my LIFE! It's just SOOO AMAZING!!!!!!!! (FYI......DH's first comment was......"So, I guess you can start eating again!!!" DID he REALLY SAY THAT???? I guess he STILL doesn't understand that this is a LIFESTYLE change....not a DIET!!!!! I told him so too....and I might not have been too nice about it either! SORRY DH!!!!!!!)I don't think I'll EVER be able to stop singing the PRAISES to my Lord and Savior, my surgeon (Dr Loggins and his staff), my family, all my friends here on OH and IRL!!!!!!! OMG!!!!! I just can't believe it!!!!
NOW............I have to maintain! Should be easy, right?? NOT!!! We'll see how that goes!!! My body might not be happy here either, who knows? I may drop a few more pounds just for that "rebound" weight, but we'll see where my body wants to be! I am JUST SO HAPPY right now!!!!!!
Coupla other things.....yup.....pouch is still sore this morning! Feels like I was kicked in the gut, just below my ribs on the left of my xiphoid, but there's no bruising, so I'll just keep an eye on it!
I tried this granola I bought from netrition.com.......OMG!! I warmed it up with some milk.....95 cals, 10g of protein, low carbs and taste....OMG! It's YUMMY!!!!!!!!!! GOOD STUFF!!!! Just hope it's not too much roughage for the pouchy......that's why I warmed it up, to make it softer and hopefully easier going down! BUT....good stuff!!!!!
So.....what do I do to celebrate this WOW??!!!??? I think I might go get my hair colored or something..........whaddya think???????????
Happy Saturday everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!
1 day after the endoscope!
Nov 21, 2008
WOW! I REALLY thought I'd be "all better" by today! I know the doctor had to do some work to get the clips (staples) out that were irritated, but WOW! My pouchy feels worse today than it has for the past week! I called Dr L's office and spoke to Michael, the PA, and he said that with all the work that was done in there yesterday that the soreness and pain is pretty "normal". He said it should be better in the next few days and if it gets ANY worse to call them! (He also told me that he was present for the endoscopy too, along with Dr Loggins! Musta been a party in there while I was OUT! haha!)
I'm kinda relieved that I called the office, just to get the reassurance that it's all ok, but dang, my pouchy still hurts! I'm still mostly eating soft foods and just about everything that touches my stomach makes the ache and pain worse!
At least I KNOW it WILL get better!
AND.......for all you NEWBIES!!!!!!!! I WOULD STILL do this in a HEARTBEAT!!!!!!!!!!! Ulcer or NOT!!!!!!!!! I can deal with a little bit of pain if it means being healthy for the rest of my life! SO....PLEASE don't let my little set backs discourage ANY of you!!!!! IT IS STILL WORTH IT!!!!!!!!!!
I'm kinda relieved that I called the office, just to get the reassurance that it's all ok, but dang, my pouchy still hurts! I'm still mostly eating soft foods and just about everything that touches my stomach makes the ache and pain worse!
At least I KNOW it WILL get better!
AND.......for all you NEWBIES!!!!!!!! I WOULD STILL do this in a HEARTBEAT!!!!!!!!!!! Ulcer or NOT!!!!!!!!! I can deal with a little bit of pain if it means being healthy for the rest of my life! SO....PLEASE don't let my little set backs discourage ANY of you!!!!! IT IS STILL WORTH IT!!!!!!!!!!
Dr Loggins just called
Nov 20, 2008
1139am: Dr Loggins just called and explained a few things to me! I guess he doesn't think the ulcer was as big as Dr O'Connor did. He thought it might be about 1 cm long or so but he felt it was caused by my body kinda "rejecting" the clips that they use to create the anasatmosis or maybe some food had irritated where the clips were. He said this happens occasionally but not very often. He also said that other clips they could see looked fine and not irritated at all, so go figure, right??? He said my pouch looks good, the size of my pouch looks good and the anastamosis itself looks good...nothing looks ischemic. So, he thinks now that these clips are gone (I guess Dr O'Connor removed 4-5 of them) that this should all heal up and I should be able to get back off the meds eventually. He said this does happen with some people as some bodies just don't like those clips but it's pretty rare. He thinks everything will be fine but he reccommended a follow-up scope in a few weeks too, just to make sure everything is healing up!
Endoscopy today!!
Nov 19, 2008
Well, the endoscopy is done and over with and I'm back home for the day! Glad it's over with!
AND...............I have an ulcer!!!!!!! Go figure, right????? The Dr that did the scope said it was pretty big too!
I also had a few staples along the anastamosis that were "festering" and causing issues, so he removed those and had to cauterize them as they were bleeding pretty good! 
He said everything should heal up in time. I have to stay on the prevacid and carafate until further notice! AND, I have to go for ANOTHER endoscopy in 2-3 weeks to make sure it's all looking good in there.
Apparently Dr Loggins and Michael did come over to watch the procedure but I sure don't remember them being there. I suppose I'll get a telephone call at some point to follow up. Guess I'll see what happens.
I'm off to bed to rest!
Have a great day!
AND...............I have an ulcer!!!!!!! Go figure, right????? The Dr that did the scope said it was pretty big too!
I also had a few staples along the anastamosis that were "festering" and causing issues, so he removed those and had to cauterize them as they were bleeding pretty good! He said everything should heal up in time. I have to stay on the prevacid and carafate until further notice! AND, I have to go for ANOTHER endoscopy in 2-3 weeks to make sure it's all looking good in there.Apparently Dr Loggins and Michael did come over to watch the procedure but I sure don't remember them being there. I suppose I'll get a telephone call at some point to follow up. Guess I'll see what happens.
I'm off to bed to rest!
Have a great day!
Now what???
Nov 17, 2008
So, I think I mentioned somewhere that my pouchy started hurting 2 days ago, on Saturday. I just kinda figured it would go away and I tried to ignore it. Sunday it was worse.......sore, aching, with and without food! So, I called Dr L's office this morning and they put me through to Crystal. She seemed a little irritated with me that I hadn't called over the weekend. (I told her I feel like I'm always calling with one problem or another and I thought it would go away. And, I DID call this morning when I saw that the pain was STILL there!!) She asked a bunch of questions (blood in stool? passing stool? temp? vomiting? alcohol? NSAID's? smoking? etc!! No to all, of course!) She wants me back on the prevacid and carafate AGAIN!!!!!!! SHEESHH!! Will this EVER end??!!??!! AND, now I have to go for an endoscopy as they want to make sure I don't have an ulcer or something going on in there! The GI doc's office called me and that's scheduled for 11/20/08, I have to be there at 7am! WOOHOO!! More time off from work! Just what I needed! NOT! I guess either Dr L or Michael will be there for the endoscopy so they can see what is going on in that little pouchy too.
I am NOT excited but I DO want this pain gone! We'll see what happens!
I am NOT excited but I DO want this pain gone! We'll see what happens!
I sure hope my scale is right!!!!!!!!
Nov 15, 2008
Un-freakin-believable!!!!!! Can I really be 1 pound away from my goal?? That's just CRAZY!!!!!!!!! I stepped on the scale 7 times this morning because I just couldn't believe it!!!!!!! But, there it was, staring me in the face on 6 of the 7 weigh in's............126!!!!!!!!!!! 1 Pound to go!!!!!!! Thank You Jesus! Thank You Heavenly Father!!!! This journey is AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will never understand my body......I mean, why is the scale moving now when it hasn't really moved in the past month? I don't get it!!!!! I have been exercising right along!!!!!! My diet hasn't really changed! The only thing I MAY be doing differently is maybe not snacking as much during the evening.........that's it!!!!!! Maybe that's the difference?? Whatever it is..........I'll TAKE it!!!!!!!!
No one will EVER know how GRATEFUL I am to be where I am today!!! This journey is amazing!!!!!!!!! Just think...........anything I lose from this day forward........is just "icing on the cake" as they say! I'm just so amazed!!!!!! I NEVER in my wildest dreams thought I could weigh in the 120's!!!!!!! NEVER!!!!!!!!!! I don't EVER remember weighing this!!!!!!! (maybe in 2nd or 3rd grade??? MAYBE????) What a trip this is!!!!!!!!!
One not so good thing to share though!!!!! Yesterday, I stared developing some pain in my pouch again! It's just really sore and aching! It's kinda how it's felt the last two times when I've irritated my pouch! I was hoping I would wake up this morning and it would be gone, but no such luck. I'll probably wait until tomorrow to call the doc and see if they want me to go back on the prevacid and carafate. Even drinking my milk is making my pouchy ache this morning! It'll all be fine.........Dr Loggins and his staff with hook me up, I'm sure!
Anyways.............Happy SONDAY to everyone!!!!!!!!!!! (Yup, I spelled that wrong on purpose.............It IS HIS day!!!!!!!! EVERYDAY!!!!!!!!) I'm SOOOOOOO THANKFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I will never understand my body......I mean, why is the scale moving now when it hasn't really moved in the past month? I don't get it!!!!! I have been exercising right along!!!!!! My diet hasn't really changed! The only thing I MAY be doing differently is maybe not snacking as much during the evening.........that's it!!!!!! Maybe that's the difference?? Whatever it is..........I'll TAKE it!!!!!!!!
No one will EVER know how GRATEFUL I am to be where I am today!!! This journey is amazing!!!!!!!!! Just think...........anything I lose from this day forward........is just "icing on the cake" as they say! I'm just so amazed!!!!!! I NEVER in my wildest dreams thought I could weigh in the 120's!!!!!!! NEVER!!!!!!!!!! I don't EVER remember weighing this!!!!!!! (maybe in 2nd or 3rd grade??? MAYBE????) What a trip this is!!!!!!!!!
One not so good thing to share though!!!!! Yesterday, I stared developing some pain in my pouch again! It's just really sore and aching! It's kinda how it's felt the last two times when I've irritated my pouch! I was hoping I would wake up this morning and it would be gone, but no such luck. I'll probably wait until tomorrow to call the doc and see if they want me to go back on the prevacid and carafate. Even drinking my milk is making my pouchy ache this morning! It'll all be fine.........Dr Loggins and his staff with hook me up, I'm sure!
Anyways.............Happy SONDAY to everyone!!!!!!!!!!! (Yup, I spelled that wrong on purpose.............It IS HIS day!!!!!!!! EVERYDAY!!!!!!!!) I'm SOOOOOOO THANKFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!! He DID NOT just say that!!!!!
Nov 14, 2008
So, this morning we didn't have to get up early for anything and DH and I were enjoying just being lazy, laying in bed. (Don't get any ideas..haha!) Anyways, as we are laying there, I started talking about how it was amazing that I actually had BONES now and could feel them. I've NEVER been able to feel them before I started losing this weight. WELL.........DH says, "Yeah, you have the body of an anorexic person now." WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! He DIDN'T just say that!!!!!! Needless to say......he got an elbow to the gut!!!!!!! He went on to clarify that he didn't really mean for it to come out like that but that since I've lost the weight, he's not used to feeling the bones either. He took the comment back and apologized. He said he KNOWS I'm eating healthy and doing what I am supposed to do and that his comment didn't come out right.........BUT..........it still kinda hurt! He's happy with my weight but I guess he's worried, in the back of his mind that I won't stop when I reach goal. I reassured him that once I get to my goal, I WILL try to maintain and emphasized that my body will know when it's done losing and where it wants to be weight wise. So, we'll see how this goes.
On another note..........down to 127!!!!!! 2 more pounds to my goal!!!!!! WOHOOO!!!!!!!!!
Happy Saturday to all!!!!!!!
On another note..........down to 127!!!!!! 2 more pounds to my goal!!!!!! WOHOOO!!!!!!!!!
Happy Saturday to all!!!!!!!
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