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Well...I am not going to be! Since my 2 sets of friends ended up having to go out of state for family emergency types of things... I decided to try and change things up. I decided for Easter...we are going to go to a water park. We are going to have a blast watching the kids play in water and get exercise. The ham dinner is going to have to wait. I will make it some time when I can eat a sliver...and I am going to have to change up my recipe. I make a kick butt ham...but, I need to rethink the ingredients and add some alternative goodies to give it that sweetness.

I realize now what caused the thrush. The doctor said before and after surgery it's standard procedure to give a patient antibiotics. Well, these antibiotics killed the good bacteria in my mouth causing me to have thrush. The thrush was sooo bad the doctor said she should take a picture of my mouth and put it into a text book. I was dehydrated and felt like death. They had a hard time getting an IV in until this lady named Rusty came in and she finally on her second poke got it in and maybe 3 hours later I started feeling functionable...but, my throat was still way to sore and closed to even drink water, broth, etc. They kept me until today. Last night around 11pm I started to be able to eat Jello. This morning I was able to handle broth, water, etc. I am home and eating jello. It's good to be home. But, I am glad I went to the hospital. I also, threw my back out somehow and they were able to control the pain from that also. They gave me something called magikal mouthwash...and it was nasty but, it numbed the pain in my throat. My blood pressure was sooo out of wack..I am sure that was due to me being in distress and pain.

Now that this is all over...everything else should be EASY right? I have paid my dues and now on to getting to a healthier me.

I'm not doing very well now. I am dehydrated and want to go to the hospital and plan on it as soon as I can. I have thrush and can't swallow. I guess it wasn't phlem it was the start to thrush. I don't know if it was stress on my immune system from surgery, my diabetes, or whatever caused this but, I am having a real hard time. My blood pressure is like 280 over 170 and my blood sugar is at 88. I called the doc last night and he did call me in a prescription..and I took it but, today I don't know if I could get anything down my throat....water tastes like glass shards.

Last night was hard. I am having a phlem problem. I hope I am not getting pneumonia or bronchitus...all I know is I have phlem in my throat that covers my air hole. I can't cough it up.. I have tried... and I can't swallow it... all it does it sit there. I was told to take a mucinex pill by schram. It went away for a little bit but, now it's back. UGH. I was terrified about the pill it was huge. But, I took it and then ate pudding and then took my pain med and went to bed and it worked. I was suffering from this from 3:30am until I called the doc at 6am. The answering service people were extremely rude but, Schram was nice.

Sarah ---here is her page --- http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/venusenvy/ stopped by with a huge amount of food to feed the kids since I can’t really cook or eat anything but broth right now and imagine how hard it is for a new patient to cook for the family. I mean how sweet is that? She said she thought all people did that for their friends... then she said...maybe it’s a Southern thing... she is from Kentucky and all... lol but, I think it’s because she loves me. She aint fooling no one!

Anyhow... I had to talk about it because it made my day.. we talked and then she left...and I enjoyed having a visitor. My cat romeo even kissed her for coming lol.

You know what... I really feel my mom’s love lately. She died on the first day of spring and that is close...and maybe that is why..or maybe it’s the warm weather that is around... I don’t know...but, i just feel so cared for right now...as if she is in the room...and I guess I am happy to feel that.

Well, two kids are gone...they are at that age where they have a life ya know... but, my little one is still skating around. Odd just having one lately. Very odd! She went to see the bunny... in fact she saw 2...she said she knew the first one was fake...but, the second one had pink and she knew THAT was the REAL easter bunny. I will try to upload the pics later.

Today ... life is really good...seriously... really really good.

Still feeling gas..and was watching FITTV earlier but, I had to turn it off... all that dang channel does it talk about food and well broccoli, veggie thin pizza, etc sounds TOO GOOD ... ugh. LOL

I am having the world's weirdest dreams. I dreamt last night that my belly swelled up with a huge blister and because it was see through I could see there was all this infected puss in it (I know gross) and I was walking around looking for my Psych Professor because I heard she was in the hospital due to something with her hands...I get to her...ask if it’s carpal tunnel she says "no"...and then right there in front of everyone my doggone belly just somehow got a hole in it and there is all this gross crap falling all over as I try to hobble to get a towel so I can stop the oozing and everyone is screaming and running from my horror...including my psych teacher who was on a gerny but, now screaming and running. Gosh, what a freaking WEIRD dream. The only thing I can think of is while I was getting poked by the nurses at Barix hospital she asked about college and I told her I took off in fall due to anticipating my surgery would be over Christmas vacation...well if you read my old posts you know what happened with that old doctor...she wasn't even a doc so my process started over so I took off this winter semester...So the nurse asked what my major was (because the IV thing was going bad and she wanted to take my mind off of it...and so I said psychology and this must have stuck in my mind and this is where the dream from last night came. My psych teacher talked a lot about weight...She was one of my favorite Professors...but, I knew she had some weight prejudice issues. So, this has to be the connection... the worst part is I don't even like this pain med. I take it and it gives me a horrid headache and it doesn't really take the pain away...it doesn't even make me sleepy so I could sleep through the night. But, I am not in that much pain. It mostly feels like someone punched me in the belly and it is trying to heal.

Sean’s taking my 6 year old Jaiden to an egg hunt and to have lunch with the Easter bunny at Applebees. I hope he takes good pics. This will be my first time not going...and for good reason. My goal today is to walk 30 minutes. Hmm... we’ll see.

This is a copy and paste from my daily blog I post... I don't know if I could get the umph to type a personal one...sorry but, this is an update.

Well, I am out of surgery and I have to say something really weird. That was the most easiest surgery I have ever had. It was a laparoscopy, 6 cuts, and wow ... my kidney stone surgery was way more painful... maybe because I had a catheter in for that and this one I didn’t. Maybe it was because I still had to pass a stone? Hmm... who knows. I was okay right up to the moment when they couldn’t get a vein. I have 5 blown veins which caused me to look like a really bad drug shooter. The vein finding this was painful...they gave me a local numbing stuff but golly it hurt. I almost cried because it shook me. (I have baby veins) They finally got one in my wrist. The surgery took an hour... once I came to my room I was ready to walk...but, they wanted me to wait a bit. I found out I can not metabolize morphine so they gave me one thing of dilodid (wish I had MORE...but stuck with crap at home) and I didn’t feel pain after that. I can’t really sleep and the home pain med tastes like horrid crap and it’s liquid... BLAH BLAH BLAH it’s loritab. The dye they made me drink for the X-ray was OMGOODNESS sickening! Everyone was wonderful except one person and I didn't see her face. I moaned a bit when I came out and she said to me "Don't matter how much noise you make I can't give you any more pain med" I was asking for that. But, she was in recovery and the rest of the staff was sooo kind, understanding, etc. I felt really bad for the woman in the bed next to me. She took off 6 weeks from work, so did her husband, she had lost 168 from gastric bypass and hers was plastic surgery and the doctor called to say he could only do half he was running late from a hand surgery... Oh did the husband get mad. She was upset because her insurance won't pay for it and her work... well what about taking off again? They stood their ground and of course my husband had to go offer them support...I am shy and feel like each curtain is private domain...but he was like "That is wrong" sheesh he can't go anywhere without making friends. I do hope she got all the surgery...I know someone asked for her on the phone and they said she was in surgery... probably in there 6 to 10 hours...and wow... them going into the dynamics of that had me scared to think of doing it. I was number 2 surgery and went home before number one surgery. Sean ...my husband of course made friends with them to and invited them to this board...I hope they come...but, he doesn't really know the address lol. Oh, and Michigan potholes suck after surgery!

I am hoping for a quick recovery... Today was beautiful and I think it was a sign from my mom saying hello... (she had gastric bypass back in 98... but, in 2000 she died of cancer and we were like extremely close) and I had cardinals all over chirping at me. (she loved watching cardinals through her window) Nothing like surgery to show a person what a supportive friend is. Thank you again board gal friends and thank you Jenise again! My friend Sarah had to take care of her husband (he was in toledo from a heart attack) and she still came over my house and had lunch with my kids. Who does that? she called at 5pm to see what they needed and well I was home. My son Nick had a hard time. He woke up at 4:30am hearing me getting ready and he just kept hugging me... I had to be strong because he said to me "You’ll always be my mom." I had to keep it together...if I broke...he’d break. He made sure he was on the first to be called and right before I left I was sitting on the couch waiting for Sean to get ready... and Nick cuddled up into me like he was my little boy all over again (he just turned 13) and it was great. Jaiden and Cherie’ seemed unfazed. (they are 6 and almost 12)

Oh and here I sit... and next to me is Sean sleeping....you’d think he had surgery ha ha ha.

My son...I forgot to add this... he was not okay until I could talk on the phone and say I was okay. After that... he was trying to plan his weekend and the 12 year old went skating lol. The 6 year old is still on her skates going through the house...she loves skating.

Oh and a funny thing... Sean fell asleep at the hospital when I was at X-ray and woke himself up saying "Oh, taco bell chips" HAHAHAHAHAHAH He is doing virtual surgery he says..eating all I do...and here he is already dreaming about taco bell. UGH. Me on the other hand ... I'm happily drinking juice, biting and letting sf popsicles melt in my mouth...jello is good... and broth was soothing. Of course I probably had a bite of each lol.

Thanks again...
this is my update and I am looking forward to when I feel better so I can walk.

Tomorrow is my surgery and I have been battling this sickness that is coming. I think it’s a sinus thing but, I am not letting it come on ...I took dayquil/nyquil, an old antibiotic (the doc prescribed a stronger one and I still had this bottle), took a multivitamin, and I am going to take some vitamin C. My throat feels like there is this lump near my ear and I get dizziness... my 11 year old has simuliar symptoms so, I am guessing sinus... but, who knows. It’s not sick enough to go to a doctor...so, I am hoping I am okay and get the surgery and put all this past me and start a new beginning. I think it's nerves too... I can't tell you how many people I have talked to on this site who get sick right before surgery. I have been recommended airborn...I looked on the back and it has vitamin C so...I just decided to stick with the C I already have.

I feel so ... worried about one of my friends. She is going through a lot. She has her psych eval today. She already has her approval letter and has been counting down the days until her psych eval because once she has that she can have her pre-ops and surgery. She doesn't want to prolong it...she has some medical problems with her knees and she really wants to start the surgery. Well, I heard a knock at my door and it was her...I guess yesterday she had to rush her husband to our local CRAP hospital and he ended up having a mini heart attack (I didn’t know any attack could be mild??) He is going to be moved to another better hospital due to his heart needing his 4th stint...or whatever those are called... and well... she is stuck in the middle ...worried about her husband... yet knowing this psych won’t be able to get her in to another appt until May which then compromizes the help she needs for her health so she is just torn in two. Her husband told her to go to the appt. If she goes with him she’ll just be sitting there in anxiety waiting. I am hoping she can do both. Her appt is at 10 am... he has to be moved in the am ... and then checked into the new hospital, then checking his vitals, then worked into a series of people probably scheduled to get surgery... or maybe not... so, by the time all of that is done... she should be back and able to be near him. Gosh, what a tremendous amount of stuff. Who knows what a friend could do during this time you know? Sit back, listen, and well... what else? So, I am hoping things fall into place and this screwed up day works itself out for her.

My son has been extra lovey lately. He let me know last night that surgery means the chance of death and so he's worried. My youngest daughter counts down the days as if it's a birthday, and my middle child is the only calm, serene one.

Well on to my clear liquids...

Gosh... tonight at 10pm it's liquids. I haven't cleaned my bedroom ...and I am disappointed because no one in the family seems to be keeping the house up. I spent hours cleaning on Saturday so I could have surgery and not worry about it. UGH. Today I am going to change that...when everyone gets home they can clean back up the house!

I am getting sick...throat and head. I am taking some older antibiotics...because I don't want to postpone my surgery. I have come too far, too long to have to wait.

Oh, and I bought my SF jello, popsicles, etc..getting ready for the fast.

Thanks for all the support ...it has really made a difference.

I have a friend who is going through this with me...she has her psych eval the day before I have my surgery. With me going first...maybe I can offer some help...who knows. I am kind of looking forward to us being women and having the health to do things besides eat out. Things like walk our dogs, go swimming, hiking, etc. I look forward to this new life. I didn't expect to have a friend... when I told her I was getting the surgery...she went through with it too..she had investigated it YEARS before but, never took the final step...this time I guess we are both taking our new steps.