Dear Sally, You are so eloquent and you have the capacity to move people toward you. I read your posts and relate so well. You ask, "How does a person accept so much daily help and not feel so worthless as a human being??" All I can think of is a small child receiving love and care and help from her parents, without which she would feel worthless! If children are not properly cared for, they suffer greatly from feeling undesearving and worthless, but if they are properly cared for, they learn that they are worthy of love and care. Try to take the help of your friends and your AMOS family as God's message to you of your worth. You are worthy and desearving of love and care and help. And you are being helped because the people in your life recognize and value your worth as a friend and a person. God did not put us on this earth to take this journey alone and uncared for. Speak gently to yourself and know, even if you can't feel it, that you are a person of value and worth, and people recognize that. God's blessing to you and congratulations on receiving your surgery date. Hang in there. Robin