LucilleBB
September 23, 2008
Sep 22, 2008
I am heading to my meeting with the psychologist today. Alittle nervous...will I "pass"? Am I really screwed up???
I will have my dietitian visit, PT visit, and Bariatric MD visit tomorrow.
Everyone has been so helpful getting me whisked through this process. My insurance company will be declining all WLS coverages after 12/31/08. Let's hope that after this weeks visits it will continue to go smoothly.
I have been feeling the "food funeral" emotions that I have read about. "I better have that NOW cuz I won't get it later". Geez, talk about undermining myself. But I guess it's a normal reaction.
I read a profile last night that I was concerned about. The lady had the surgery one year ago, and is eating and drinking things that just shouldn't be eaten after WLS. I worry if that will be me also? I can't imagine going through a huge surgery and recovery, spending that much money, and then have it all go for naught. Please God, make me strong!
My mind is in constant overdrive already and I haven't even been approved for the surgery. So many questions. How do I take my meds if they cannot be crushed? Will I be able to stand the protein drinks and Vitamin D in a liquid form? Will my throat problems be a cause of concern during the surgery? Will my sleep apnea also be a problem? Do I have any type of scar tissue on my colon after my 1981 surgery? Will I change too much in my personality if I am successful? I actually do LOVE myself right now, at this point in my life. There has been times when I haven't. Will I look to flabby and get wrinkles now that my fat face will disappear? GEEZ! Settle down!!
So, here I go. Time to hit the shower, hit the road, and hit this head-on. Wish me luck!
I will have my dietitian visit, PT visit, and Bariatric MD visit tomorrow.
Everyone has been so helpful getting me whisked through this process. My insurance company will be declining all WLS coverages after 12/31/08. Let's hope that after this weeks visits it will continue to go smoothly.
I have been feeling the "food funeral" emotions that I have read about. "I better have that NOW cuz I won't get it later". Geez, talk about undermining myself. But I guess it's a normal reaction.
I read a profile last night that I was concerned about. The lady had the surgery one year ago, and is eating and drinking things that just shouldn't be eaten after WLS. I worry if that will be me also? I can't imagine going through a huge surgery and recovery, spending that much money, and then have it all go for naught. Please God, make me strong!
My mind is in constant overdrive already and I haven't even been approved for the surgery. So many questions. How do I take my meds if they cannot be crushed? Will I be able to stand the protein drinks and Vitamin D in a liquid form? Will my throat problems be a cause of concern during the surgery? Will my sleep apnea also be a problem? Do I have any type of scar tissue on my colon after my 1981 surgery? Will I change too much in my personality if I am successful? I actually do LOVE myself right now, at this point in my life. There has been times when I haven't. Will I look to flabby and get wrinkles now that my fat face will disappear? GEEZ! Settle down!!
So, here I go. Time to hit the shower, hit the road, and hit this head-on. Wish me luck!
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