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Well, it will be one month on the 15th that my case has been in for appeal. Word has it that they have 30 days to decide. My "gal Friday" (as mentioned in a previous post) called the insurance company finally, after my request on Wednesday, and was told that for sure. She thinks that's good news. If they really thought it should be denied, they would have done it by now. They must be really looking into it....or so she thinks....I hope so!
My hub has been so good lately at getting out every morning for a one hour walk. He has lost like 30-some pounds and is looking good! His clothes are baggy! I used to worry so much about him, because most of his weight was in his belly. It even used to be HARD like a pregnant belly. Now, it's way down and alittle mushy :). I am so glad for him, but every time that he heads out for a walk, I cringe. He always asks for me to come along and I don't. I just can't do it. I don't know why. He is a super duper walker, and I know I hold him back. He doesn't care about that at all, but I feel bad. I also get bad backaches when I am walking and after 1 mile, I just can't go on. Heck, I was told at the bariatric clinic that by 6 miles, my heart was at it hardest work. Excuses? Probably. I feel worse and worse about myself when I do not go with, but I can't pull up my bootstraps any more and do it!

Let's get this approval going, so I am not so depressed all of the time! PULEEEEEEEZE God! I am praying constantly!

My "girl-Friday" at the clinic dropped the ball on Friday and forgot to call my insurance company. I will call on my own tomorrow and pray for good news.
I try not to lose hope, but it's darn hard. I have had a wonderful weekend, spending time with my kids and grandson (minus my daughter-in-law), so my mind was kept very busy. Now, as I sit alone in my tv room, I just can't stop thinking about it. I have been on the OH site for an hour now, and have read and re-read things, almost to the point of stinging eyeballs!
I have been worrying about surgical complications, mainly two:
-I have bad sleep apnea, and I am afraid on having difficulty waking up and breathing on my own.
-I have issues with choking and swallowing, so I am afraid of the ng tube, or whatever it is that they cram down your thought. I just heard recently of a lady in town that had open bypass, and they had to stretch out her esophagus...eek! My grandmother had something like that done years ago, along with one cousin that I can think of.....eek again!
Time to think happy thoughts......what's my "happy place" tonight??? Hmmmm.....

Why can't I get an approval???? My appeal has been at the administrator since 10/17. I am starting to really lose hope, and it has left me in a terrible state.
I know I should be thinking "Ppppppiss Off Lou" and take the bull by the horns and try on my own once again, but I just can't do it. I am so sick of trying to lose weight, only to have it stay exactly the same. I am sick of being fat, sore, and down right ugly. I just want to have this surgery and start a new life.
I read some of these posts, and cannot see why I am not approved and they have been. I am not saying that I deserve it more, but cripes, alot of my issues are worse! I even read that a lady got approved without any co-morbities. My insurance company just wants me to die from them!!!!!!!!
I am sick of this!!!!!!!!!
Please God, please help me to get approved for this. I just don't know what I will do if I don't.

Well, I have had a glorious 4 days with my grandson, and I am pooped! What fun! Whatever we would do, from crafty things, to going for a walk, he kept saying "We're doing stuff aren't we Grandma?". I wonder if he was afraid we wouldn't?? ;)

I wish I could get my mind off of getting an approval. I think about it constantly, and will be so disappointed if I do not get approved. I truly do not know what I will do. Last time, when I was told I was denied, I cried harder than I did when my own Mom died!! I sobbed! I feel like this is a new chance for me. I want to be given a new "life". I am young, and have so many things that I feel limited to do.

Please God, I pray, if you do believe this is meant to be, give me an approval. I just want to keep the faith that the best possible outcome will happen for me....PLEASE??????
Amen...

It is so nice to sit here and listen to my 3 yr. old grandson playing with cars in the living room. I really could just sit and watch him play all day, but I think it's so good for him to go off and play by himself.
I wish it was a beautiful day here. It was rainy, or "drippy" earlier, so we can't go outside to play. The sky is lightening up, so hopefully late this afternoon or tomorrow will be nice.
We just HAVE to go get pumpkins and play in the leaves!
I really needed this time with him. My "men" are all in Wisconsin getting their hunting shack ready for the big deer season...Oh my mighty hunters :), they still think they need to bring MEAT home like cavemen!
If I would have been home completely alone this long weekend (school holiday), I would have just moped about and probably eaten myself out of house and home. Thankfully, he's such a healthy eater that I am behaving quite well.
Still praying to hear good news from the insurance company. I really don't know what I will do with myself if I get denied again. Thankfully, I have had supportive family around me to help me through this very trying time....it HAS been soooo trying!!!
Off to get ready for a 3 yr. olds nap.....to wear a pull up or to not wear a pull up....that is the question. He's potty trained, but hate to have a wet Grandma bed.....hmmmmm....

I am starting to panic. I was recently denied from my insurance company because I lacked documented information about a diet program. I have resubmitted information, including copies of a 6 month food journal, and a letter from my pcp that we have been working for over 6 months on this. I sure hope it works! I have also included a copy of a letter that I wrote to the company, along with a letter that my sister wrote. She felt compelled to help. :) My "doctor" brother was going to write one also, but totally forgot. Rats... The final documentation that I sent was a list of exercises that I was advised to do at home and our town's fitness center...not sure what help that will be either.

I am the chairperson for a sub sandwich sale. The parents of the Junior class have a "Post Prom" party for the kids in town, and the subs are our biggest money maker. I have been working on this since the middle of September, and finally yesterday we were able to complete the "Mission". (God my fingers are numb!!!!)
We made 2,000 sub sandwiches!! I am sick of seeing white and yellow cheeses, turkey, ham, and salami! The buns were amazing smelling, white and wheat, and they were soooooo calling my name! We also had rolls and coffee available for my workers, so of course, I HAD to have a roll. Rats!
I just can't type any more.....my right hand isn't working!!

Great, just great.....our fitness center does not have swimming in either pool during the day.  Only in the wee hours of the morning or after supper at night....not for me...Rats!
I will have to go there anyway next week and try out the ever famous eliptical machines that everyone raves about.  We'll see if I die.
  What the heck!!!  I go to find an exercising smiley face and there aren't any, but they have a smoking one??????????  Yuck.  No wonder he's green.

  Okay, I had to look up the MMPI scoring charts, just to see why I scored "badly".   That in itself was driving me nuts!!!!!!  According to the "Validity Scale", I scored a K (I remember the doc pointing this out).  That means Correction--Subject is defensive and attempting to obscure symptoms.  Geez Louise!  Here I thought I was just being truthful.
But, now that that is solved....it's time to hit the sheets.

Well, I just had to update...I have drank my first cup of milk in about 25 years.  Maybe 22, but either way, a lifetime!  I had 8 ounces of skim with a no-sugar carnation instant breakfast.  I chugged it, and the flavor wasn't too bad.  Kind of like melted chocolate ice cream.  But the aftertaste!!!  UGH!  Milky aftertaste, milky syrupy breath!  YUCK!!  Time to brush the old choppers!

Had my psych, dietitian, and PT visits today.  Everything is ready to be submitted to insurance.  Please pray for me!!  I am alittle nervous.  No, I'm ALOT nervous that now that I've jumped through these hoops that it might not be approved.  I am psyched.  I am in a great mind frame.  I am ready.
I had a little "stress" hearing about my psych test.  The doc said that I have a low score.  YIKES!!!!  She said it wasn't going to be a problem as my evaluation went very well, and I had probably scrutinized how I was going to answer.  I really thought I had answered quickly and had not thought about it.  I know that on some questions, when it asked things like "I like to play with fire" or wacko things like that, I laughed for a SECOND, but I really thought I was going too fast....oh well, as long as she thinks I'm normal and not someone that couldn't handle the stress of this situation.
The dietitian was very helpful.  I do not get near enough protein.  I am a "milk hater" too, so we (I) need to work on that big time.  I am actually going to drink 1 cup of milk per day...ME...yep...I'll give it a whirl.  As long as I can mix in Carnation Instant Breakfast or something flavorful.
The physical therapist had me walk at a pace that was comfortable to me, and found that after even 6 minutes my heart rate was way too high.  No wonder I couldn't stay to walk the mile!!!!  I am to try to walk alittle every day, and then also do water exercize one or two times a week.  Arm and leg stretches will help also with my joint aches.
Well, that's that!  Again, let's pray that the insurance company feels nice...