susieequte
so i was not even sure i wanted to sign up for OH at first, but that is part of my personalty that has got me at the weight i'am now. i try to be very distant and not invest my feelings or time in other people... as to not take a chance on being hurt. that is something i mean to change i want to lose the weight so bad it kills me! there are many things i need to change to be productive in this endeavor. i'am the heaviest i have ever been, although since birth i have always been heavy; how could i forget my mother will never let me "oh my god you almost killed me 14pounds 8 ounces, My God child!!" so it just stacked on from there, of course my cute brother and sister never had the weight issues i had blessed with the good genes. although i have to say that my brother and sister were never mean to me never left me out of the games that they played.... even if it took me longer to do things that came easily to them. my brother in particular was always very protective of me and he is the baby if you were going to be his friend you had to accept his bigger sister and he better never hear you make fun of me. i will always love him for that he was always very popular and would refuse to leave me behind if he was having fun i was going to have fun with him. you could not ask for better support. i do go on though. so to sum it up i was heavy as a child and had to deal with everything that comes with that baggage, teasing and isolation, self hate,depression, and so on and so on. this all stayed with me through teenage years then adulthood. oh i tried to diet boy did i try! exercise, diets you name the diet i tried it. some i lost weight with some not, but it never mattered because some were down the line i would go back to my old ways and gain it back and then some. i did not come to the decision easily to have WLS, i just kept thinking it is to risky and i can do this on my own I'm just lazy or i don't have enough willpower. that is not true though i need help i can't do this on my own and I'm ready to take the next step. this is one of those steps making myself open to the public and whoever might come across this profile; i need and want your support on my journey to a new life. if you have any advice or share some of the same experiences as me please get in contact.
