Hello Onederland

Dec 18, 2010

This morning the scale welcomed me to Onderland...199.0 lbs to be exact.  I wish I could share this with people...but they know that I have lost over 40 lbs, and I don't want them to do the math and know how much I weighed at the beginning of this journey.  Guilt, shame....useless emotions...but very real for me.

I am doing well.  I was hoping that I would be under 200 for Christmas.  My next personal goal is to be 185 for Valentine's Day.  It is a lofty goal.  Something to shoot for in 9 weeks.  I am just going to be good and start exercising more.  My body isn't too droopy yet.  The "girls" are pretty deflated.  Russ says that's no problem.  We can always buy new ones!!

The next couple of weeks should fly by...  Then 2011 will begin.  I still feel like I'm in my cocoon, waiting to emerge.  Caught somewhere between a catapillar and a butterfly.  I have flashes of feeling like a butterfly...but more often I am the little green worm still.......

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