jbird1972
I think a lot of us have been judged this way...
Mar 19, 2009
I can't be all doom and gloom, some of it has to be funny!
Mar 19, 2009
We are taking the kids to the Dells this weekend, staying at The Wilderness, one of my favorites, although I love the Kalahari. I will conquer one of my goals of enjoying indoor waterparks again. I beat the seatbelt extender on the airplane, was able to ride the rollercoasters at Disney, and fit in the seat of the ones I won't ride because they scare the crap out of me LOL, so this is one of the few things left on my list, enjoy the waterslides without fear that I will break the ride! This is actually a funny story, so it is ok to laugh, because it was funny (although, I hope I don't offend anyone who has had a scarring experience like this, because I have had those as well)...I always had the ability to laugh at myself and find the funny in every situation (almost), and thank goodness I still do. The last time we went to the Dells, they have those inner tubes for the wave pools/lazy river, well they are all roughly the same diameter, or so I thought. I had spent the whole day using them with no problem, and then I got stuck in one, and I mean really stuck, like call the fire dept stuck LOL, thankfully my kids are good sports and not easily embarrassed, I wrangled my daughter, Toni, and once she realized what was going on, we both were laughing so hard we couldn't even get enough strength together to do anything, I had no idea where Marty and Miles were, somewhere on the lazy river I guess, so Toni and I tried to hide in a corner somewhere, and it was a two-person effort to try and find the valve to let the air out, of course it was on the inside rim of the tube LOL, and it took the two of us, one squeezing the valve, and one squeezing the air out of the tube to free me from my prison of air LOL I told my aunt this story the other day, and it was still as funny now as it was then. So, there is your funny story of the day, make sure you get a good visual of me stuck in the inner tube and laugh, it's ok, really! Have a good spring break with your families!
Is there a doctor in the house that won't say, I can't help you
Mar 12, 2009
I finally broke down and went to a pain doctor recommended by a friend of mine, she was very nice, but right off the bat asked me why I was sent to her since she usually only does procedural pain relief (spinal blocks, etc...) and usually only after the other docs are able to tell her what the underlying problem is, well that just left me speechless, another strike for me, I have to laugh at this point, I'm in pain because they can't figure out what is wrong, and I can't get good pain relief because they can't figure out what is wrong LOL She did mention that she feels like the pain I have is from adhesions, no need to say anything else except viscious cycle, and said since the pain is visceral (organ related from the pulling), she has a procedure that she has only done a few times (guinea pig alert!), and said it may or may not work for me (heard that before!) and it involved a procedure under sedation, in the OR where they do a splenic (spelling is wrong) sympathetic nerve block to block pain to those organs. I talked to my primary's nurse afterwards, and she was not real comfortable with someone doing a procedure on me that they have only done a few times, neither am I. She is writing the referral for me and sending me to the pain clinic at their hospital to see if I fare any better with them.
I am going today to buy Dr. Oz's new book, YOU: The Smart patient, I love his stuff, should be a good read, maybe it will make me laugh.
Jules
Bad bacteria=50, Good bacteria=0
Mar 05, 2009
I am two weeks post ERCP/Sphincterotomy, and I am starting to wonder how many unnecessary surgeries and procedures I have had
I got a call from the GI doctor at U of C on Tuesday, they had the results from my biopsies. I have an inflammatory bowel process going on in the large intestine, and when they biopsied my small intestine, they discovered that I have an overgrowth of "bad" bacteria that has exceeded the amount of good bacteria. The GI doc that did the ERCP only does procedures, so she said that she would refer me to one of her colleagues that sees patients in clinic for these problems, and felt that I needed to be on some sort of antibiotic treatment.
I saw the surgeon at U of C yesterday, and brought him up to date with all that, he agreed that he thinks this is what has been making me sick, and stated that he firmly believes that it was the gastric bypass that started it all, a rare, but a problem he has seen, just only a couple times. Even though he reversed my gastric bypass, it is still messed up. He told me that I am going to suffer a lot over the next several months (his words, not mine), apparently the pain is going to continue while they go through the process of trying to balance the bacteria because the bad bacteria has damaged the nerves that control the movement (peristalsis) of the GI tract, so they pain and weird contractions I have are from that. I have no choice but to believe it at this point and follow the course of treatment, but I can't help but feel distrustful, I feel like I have been a human guinea pig this last year. I am willing to suffer more for another 6 months if I know at the end of that time I will feel better, I am not confident that is the case. My calories are not any better than they were when I was on the TPN, and I am worried about my weight dropping again, which it already is, but no one else is worried about it. I don't want anymore PICC lines/central lines and TPN, but I don't want to start wasting away again either. The bright spot is that I get to go back to work, but I don't think anyone is confident that I will be able to handle it, but I am determined to have some sort of normal in my life.
Finally got home from the hospital Tuesday
Feb 25, 2009
The hospital nightmare is over, whew! I came home with some sort of respiratory bug, no antibiotics needed though, thank goodness. I have this terrible lower half of my body swelling that was really concerning me, went to see the primary doc yesterday, right away he was thinking blood clot Yikes! He sent me down to imaging for a stat venous doppler, thankfully no clot. I am still waiting for the biopsies from the colonoscopy to come back and tell me what kind of Colitis I have, and I'm not even sure if I buy that theory anyway. Right now I am just trying to recover enough to go back to work short days and find a way to manage the pain since the pain meds they sent me home with are contraindicated for 3 medicines that I already take, and they knew that, frustrating. I am seeing my original surgeon today for a follow-up, maybe he can help me out.
tests, tests, and more tests
Feb 23, 2009
ERCP Done
Feb 20, 2009
I am ERCP bound
Feb 11, 2009
I spoke with the GI doc today, and we are going to go ahead and try an ERCP to see if that helps me. There is a substantial risk of Pancreatitis VS 30% chance that it will fix my problem, but it is a risk I have to take. If I do nothing, my life will continue to stink, and I just need to get on with my life already, back to work, back to my life, my family. Unless my surgeon here objects, they are going to leave the PICC line in, I used to have great veins, now they are crap, so they would rather keep the already established IV access that we have, at least then they will have something to start the anesthesia with, and they can try a secondary line if necessary once I am already out. They told me to expect to stay overnight for observation, unless I am totally pain free afterwards, then I can go right home. I am calling in all my prayers for this one, I think I am going to need it, but as my hubby said, I am due for a break here. I will keep you all posted. I am the first case of the morning on Tuesday Feb 17th at 7:30am. Thanks for thinking about me!
Trying to keep positive, it isn't easy
Feb 10, 2009
That's me, pulling out what is left of my hair LOL Thank goodness I had thick hair to start with! This is day 12 of the PICC line/TPN, and it is getting really old, really fast. It is doing what it is intended, I do feel like I have gained a few pounds, of course having to shut off all of my old built in alarms that are shouting at me "YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO GAIN WEIGHT!", I do understand that right now I need to gain weight, but there is that little part of me that is not ok with it. My friend Susie is so sweet, they have a baby lamb that is having to be bottle fed, and they named her JBird after me, so cute, I almost cried. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have the wonderful support of my family, friends, and co-workers, I am very lucky. I go to see the doc on Thursday to evaluate where we are in all this, I know he will be happy to see the pounds, but I will have to be honest with him and tell him that the pounds are from the PICC, I am eating also, but not very much (TPN kind of kills the appetite), and what I do eat still makes me sick to varying degrees. I want this PICC line out so that I can go back to work, but I know that without it, I will be right back where I was, and possibly worse. The alternative is a g-tube, and I just can't mentally go there. I would be able to work with it, but it just conjures up images of nursing home patients. I am hoping that I haven't scared the GI doctor away, she is great and really knows her stuff, but she was already nervous about doing an ERCP on me before, and I think this latest hospital episode just reinforced her fears. I left her a message to touch base with her, I am waiting to hear back. So, for now I am trying to keep my spirits high and my anxiety low, and embracing the blessings in my life.
Update/Post MRCP
Feb 04, 2009