debim3
May 14, 2008 6 months down
May 13, 2008
As of yesterday, I am 6 months post-op. I am down 81lbs and currently weigh 144. I am now no longer considered diabetic, I don't have sleep apnea anymore, I can walk, run up stairs, cross my legs, pass by brownies without eating any and not feel deprived.
Prior to surgery I wore size 24 pants and 3x shirts, now I wear size 8-10 pants and size medium shirts! My highest weight was 265 (that I know of, when I saw that number I stopped weighing myself for maybe a year).
I still see the "fat" me in the mirror, but for some reason, when I pass a large window or something I do a double-take because I can't believe that tiny thing is ME!!! I have bones!! I also have lots of hanging skin, which I hate!
I'm outgoing, I laugh more, I show up to events late on occasion (never did before as I did not want everyone to look at the fat person walking in-hard to be invisible if you walk in late), I'm not invisible any longer, I flirt with men, I get flirted with, I smile almost all the time. I am happy. I am free. I am doing things I've dreamed of doing. I'm adventurous and am up to try new things all the time.
I don't really know who I am anymore. Where was this person all these years? Why did she waste her life waiting for weight loss, instead of just going out and having fun while still young enough? I miss the old me sometimes, she was comfortable and she got to eat brownies and ice cream! But I'm learning to LOVE the new me. I'm learning that I am a valuable person. I have friends and they actually want to be around me. I have an opinion. I have worth. I'm not a waste of air.
Having this surgery saved my life, both physically and emotionally. I have a life now rather than just existing. I wish I had done it 10 years ago. I would recommend it anyone and I would do it again!
Prior to surgery I wore size 24 pants and 3x shirts, now I wear size 8-10 pants and size medium shirts! My highest weight was 265 (that I know of, when I saw that number I stopped weighing myself for maybe a year).
I still see the "fat" me in the mirror, but for some reason, when I pass a large window or something I do a double-take because I can't believe that tiny thing is ME!!! I have bones!! I also have lots of hanging skin, which I hate!
I'm outgoing, I laugh more, I show up to events late on occasion (never did before as I did not want everyone to look at the fat person walking in-hard to be invisible if you walk in late), I'm not invisible any longer, I flirt with men, I get flirted with, I smile almost all the time. I am happy. I am free. I am doing things I've dreamed of doing. I'm adventurous and am up to try new things all the time.
I don't really know who I am anymore. Where was this person all these years? Why did she waste her life waiting for weight loss, instead of just going out and having fun while still young enough? I miss the old me sometimes, she was comfortable and she got to eat brownies and ice cream! But I'm learning to LOVE the new me. I'm learning that I am a valuable person. I have friends and they actually want to be around me. I have an opinion. I have worth. I'm not a waste of air.
Having this surgery saved my life, both physically and emotionally. I have a life now rather than just existing. I wish I had done it 10 years ago. I would recommend it anyone and I would do it again!
