frustrated!

May 17, 2009

so i was 211.7 for a day, and I haven't been anywhere under 213 this whole week, usually i'm 214 or 215! ughh this weight NEEDS to come off! I was 217 at the doctor 2 weeks ago.

I still think I am eating too much, anywhere from 1300 to 1500 cals a day. I am going to the doctor next friday, so I will definitely be getting a fill and I think I'll have 7ccs in my band then. I exercise at least 5 times a week though for 30-45 mins, so I don't know what else I can do.  Thinking back to when I lost weight before, I was eating 1600 cals a day and exercising and got to 207, so why can't I do it now? I'm just reallly frustrated!

I threw up for the first time today, too. It was totally my fault. I was eating cheese waaay too fast and I felt it get stuck so I thought maybe water would help it go down. Yeah, no. I srank a few sips then felt the most intense pressure and knew I was going to throw up. It was a weird feeling, because I didn't feel nauseated. Just pain.

Oh well, lesson learned!!

No new boy news, really. Well, there is one little cute story about how we talked in the parking lot at school for 2 hours straight on Thursday. He basically told me his life story and all about his past. It just made me want to hug him because even though he had a REALLY shitty childhood, he still turned otu to be a wonderful guy.  Lately, he has been kinda attitude-y with me. Like today, we were supposed to go to the library so we could study for bio.  I was going to go at 1 no matter when he was ready or not and I had woken up at like 11:45.  He texted me at 12 asking if I wanted to study and I said, "Yeah, I'm gonna go in like an hour" and he texted me back saying "were you gonna let me know?'

OBVIOUSLY I was going to let him know!!! Ughhh! i just said "Eventually, yeah. I still gotta take a shower"

And then, because there was a parade on the street near th library, like allll of the streets were closed and I ended up going on like a closed street so I could get to the lib but I guess he couldn't and so he texted me and told me he was just going to go home. So, I had to study alone. great. fabulous. ughh! I hate boys!

This is my last week of class though! yayyy! I have bio exam tomorrow that will determine if I have to take my bio final or not, then I take my last exam in Sociology on tuesday, Spanish Final on Friday, Geography exam on tuesday, possible bio exam on wednesday, then my anthro (with my boy) on thursday and I'm DONNEEEEEE MY FIRST YEAR OF COLLEGE!!! Its so crazy! I love college and I've had one of the best years of my life, academically and friendship wise!

Alright, I'll talk to everyone after finals!!

lovelovelove
Casey

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