I will stay in control today. Just for today I will make good choices. I will think of myself in a positive light. I don't have to conquer the world but live for today. I am important enough to take time to myself to eat right and exercise. I have neglected myself for several months as I transitioned into a new job, commute etc. I will no longer feel guilty about taking time to do what I need to do to take care of me. If I don't put myself and my health first I cannot take care of the ones I love the most. What do they say on the airplane adjust your face mask before your child's. if not, I will be in the ground hubby and kids would have to keep living without me. Even if I designate time for myself I am not neglecting them. I need to get over that. They each have their activities and its ok for me to have mine. I have come to far to sabatougue myself now. I turn 40 on April 25. I pray by then I will be back on track. What do they say? It takes 15 days to form a habit. I shall be getting my life rules back in order. Nothing taste as good as skinny feels! If its not healthy it's not worth it. God gave me a second chance on November 24, 2009. By all a counts I should have died. It wasn't the surgery but complications surrounding it. I had a bowel obstruction. If they had sent me home that day I would have died before I got to the next town over. My scar looks like Jesus on the cross. It serves as a reminder that on this journey I am never alone. I have to learn to change my focus quit letting my life take everything out of me and start living my life. He spared me for a reason. I am here for a purpose. It's time to get off the sidelines and discover what that is. Rant is over. Time to get my shower and face today's challenges head on. No more hiding out no more excuses!
66 yrs young, 4'11" hw 220, goal 120 met at 12 months, cw 129 learning Maintainance
