First Emotional Breakdown
Yay! I'm human! LOL OMG! I had theeee best pity party, complete with violins, Kleenix, snot, and tears. Like... a real "cry me a river" kinda day.
But, at the same time...it felt good! LOL
But on a serious note, I realized the weight of all that has happened, and there has been plenty, from the initial consultation through the entire process which moved at the speed of light in 3 months tops, plus maintaining all my school assignments during the week of surgery, and now finals this week with two 10-page research papers due tomorrow, which I have yet to start, except for the outline, not to mention a rough time on my job, and a wonderful man in my life who has commitment phobia (that's a whole 'nother book for an entirely different day) LOL All these things just bundled itself up all together, and decided a wage war on poor little ol' me.
BUT.... and you all know, I have been encouraging everyone to stay positive, so I waged war right back, and gave sorrow a run for her money. LOL So after my Pity Party, I began to encourage myself with positive words of affirmations in order to gain my emotional strength back and defeat self-pity right where she stood.
Even now as I sit here and write, I have a smug smile on my face of victory, and a joy in my heart that says.... I will not be defeated and even through the BLAH times will come, and there will be many, you go to your pity party, stay a coupl'a hours, then high-tail it out of there, take off your clothes of weeping, and put on your dancing shoes, rejoice in your accomplishments, rejoice in your future, and rejoice in the best decision we could have ever made for ourselves, our family, and all those who care and love us.
Stay Beautiful!
I'm glad you are feeling better. Emotions come and go. So glad the negatives ones are gone!!
Surgery date - 04/03/13; Goal date - 11/10/13 (I reached goal in 31 weeks & 4 days)
Highest weight 261 SW 258 GW 150 M1 -26 M2 -14 M3 -10 M4 -12 M5 -13 M6 -12 M7 -11 M8 -10 In maintenance since November 2013 HT- 5'6"
"take off your clothes of weeping, and put on your dancing shoes"
And then you're dancing around naked! And how can you be upset THEN?? LOL
Beautiful post. Way to go, girl :)
VSG 7/1/13 with Dr. Jack Rutledge 28 y/o female - 5'10" - HW: 298 - GW: 174 - SW: 290 (-8) - M1: 262 (-28) - M2: 247 (-15) - M3: 235 (-12) - M4: 228 (-7 ~First Stall: almost 2 wks~) - M5: 218 (-10) - M6: 209 (-9) - M7: 199 (-10) Onederland on 1/31 - M8: 196 (-3) 100 lb total loss on 2/2 - M9: 192.6 (-3.4) - M10: 188.6 (-4) - M11: 182 (-6.6) - M12: 175.6 (-6.4) - M13: 173.8 (-1.8) CW (7/8/15): 167 - GOAL reached in 1 Year and 25 Days! - TOTAL WL - 131 lbs
Ooh, my dear, you're only 2.5 weeks out. Those emotions are going to be all over the place. I think you were about due, though, since from what I read from your earlier posts you had to hit the ground runnin' right after your surgery, not to mention all that you discussed in your OP in this thread!
You are indeed beautiful, and it is a joy to read your posts and feel so strongly your enthusiasm and motivation.
5'8" HRW 357 on 7/09/12 SW 339 >196 8/26/13 (surgeon's goal) TWL 193 CW 164
*:•-:¦:-•:*1st pers. goal 178 on 10/16/13; ultimate goal 164 on 12/13/13*:•-:¦:-•:*
Enjoyed your post ;) I don't call that a Breakdown but a Breakthrough. Keep in mind you are going through a HUGH life change of mental, emotional, spiritual and physical proportion. Whewww, that is a lot. And most people who have or are experiencing this journey has thrown one of those "pity parties". But you sound strong and spirited. Play it forward and keep it going. Can't wait to read about your successes.
Love it! So glad you're feeling better. We all go through the same struggles. This surgery is a life changer and sometime hard on you emotionally, but you cry it out sometimes but get over it too and move on as staying too long in that sad place is not healthy for you and old habits of overeating and laying around on the couch and not moving will creep up on you again. I applaud you for knowing when to let it go! Take care.
