I AM A MEMBER OF KAISER AND HAD MY 7TH CLASS LAST NIGHT ALMOST 1/3 OF THE WAY CLOSER TO SURGERY HOPEFULLY IN MARCH OR APRIL, TRYING TO BE AWARE OF MYSELF, OUR COUNCELER SAYS SELF AWARENESS IS IMPORTANT, I HAVE TRIED TO BE INVISIBLE FOR A LONG TIME, DOING, DOING, DOING TO FEEL IMPORTANT AND NEEDED, COMFORTING MYSELF WITH FOOD AND REACHING AN ALL TIME HIGH WEIGHT OF 250 LBS, I HAVE DOUBLED MY WEIGHT IN THE LAST 25 YEARS WOW NOT EXACTLY INVISIBLE!! TRYING TO KEEP MY SENSE OF HUMOR WHILE FACING REALITY AND NOT DIVING BACK IN TO BED AND HIDING, TRYING TO BE SELF AWARE WITH OUT PUKING
OR BECOMING SO DEPRESSED I CANT LEAVE THE HOUSE, I AM TRYING
TO FIND OUT WHAT I NEED, REALLY NEED THAT DOESNT INVOLVE BAKING OR A DRIVE THROUGH I AM SO THANKFUL FOR NEW FRIENDS AT POSITIVE CHOICE AND FINDING THIS WEBSITE, THANKS BECKY BU