hello again everyone... two posts in one day. i dunno if this is good news or bad news... i'm so scared right now. around 5:30pm today muscarella came into the waiting room and told me that he "opened" jeremy back up. he said that the infection was basically getting worse again. so, he took out 3 liters of fluid from his abdomen. he made the incision larger to "clean" inside of him. while exploring he found a really tiny hole in jeremy's colon and just a bit of it was dead. so he removed that part and found a stool in there. so muscarella thinks that that stool is what caused this whole infection in the first place. the gortex plastic thingy that was holding jeremy's insides is now sewn to his muscles instead of his skin. and now he has a coloscomy bag that he will have for at least one year. muscarella said "if he survives..." and that is what killed me... the "if"... what a scary word. everyday i feel like i'm losing him. i love him so much and i am in-love with him. how could i possibly lose him??? i keep praying in hopes that God will listen... jeremy means everything to me... everything. please keep the prayers alive... to keep jeremy alive... please. i haven't seen him yet, not for a few more hours. the hospital didn't give him laxatives before the surgery... i wonder if that would have made a difference. before we came to the hospital, we had a long talk and he said no matter what happens, he wants me to just be happy in life. how could i possibly be happy without him?? he is what makes me happy! i miss his sweet voice... please keep praying for him, please.
~robbi