I am so sorry to hear of your loss. My mother passed away almost 11 months ago, and the pain is still as fresh. The best thing you can do is to live your life to the fullest and be happy. You know that is all she would want you to do. I do believe in God and heaven, and I know that I will be reunited with my mother in due time. And boy, will I have the stories to tell her! Please keep your chin up and God Bless you.