Tammi H.

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I am so upset with myself. I once weighed 180, and now I am at or above 195. I gained, I gained, how and why did I? I am sure I have an idea, and so now I just have to work my butt off to get back down, and get below the 180 I once weighed. I am so depressed about the 15 pounds, I could almost sit here every day and cry over it. Yet I just try to keep giving myself a pep talk, " you can do this" You have the power and tools to accomplish a bigger weight loss, you can reach 145-150, don't give up"

I am losing pretty slow now that I have less then 40 pounds  left to loose in order to see my bmi in the normal weight range. 
I have lost a total of 138 pounds as of today. Now I LOVE the new me, haven't seen this person for, man I don't know for how long. I just HATE, and I do mean HATE to see myself in a mirror. Now I didn't have this operation for cosmedic reasons, but, however the sagging skin is just nasty. I don't even want to be with a man, where I might undress. So I am having to over come this. I am pretty sure being on medicare/ medicaid I won't get a chance to have tummy tuck of any kind. Of course I am just a little pass my 1 year annaversery. YA I made it. Now I fear of gaining weight. Why? I am on 2 meds that can cause weight gain. And I find myself eating things that are a bit high in calories.  I also am not real sure of amount that should be kept at. I am looking and researching so hope to find something out about that.
I can start wearing some pretty cool cloths, however, once again I feel as tho I still need to  hide my body, for the saggy skin reasons.
Well going to go, I need some sleep. I also MUST start going to the gym/ and getting more active, perhaps that will help me.
Oh, also have to find a dr here, my wls was done by dr Bright in Spokane Wa when I stilled lived in G-ville Idaho, so will see what happens.
God bless
Tammi

I am getting discouraged. I am still at the same weight. I go between 190 and 195. I have to add more protein to my daily intake. I know that I am not taking in enough. 
I also want and need a home, living in this RV isn't easy for me and makes it harder to eat and excercise and just to have a normal life, God I pray for a normal life. Pls help. I want and need to be thankful, which there is so many things that I am, but I just am having a rough day at it today. and fighting migraines all day long, and longer then just a day or so here and or there.
Well am going now. Just an update on what is going on with me, even if no one is reading this...

 There must be Angels and Jesus looking over me. I am at what seems to be a stand still, and yet I am happy and glad to be where I am. I have lossed from 310 to 195 pounds, and will be thankful to see 145. However, sometimes I just am not sure I will be so lucky, I will need skin removed. But that is all down the road.
        It feels good to have a couple of guys liking me. WOW, like that has been a long time since I have had that happen. I just don't know what to do. It is complicated, and don't think I will drag you into it. But do know I am enjoying the new me. She has been doing good for me. I am so blessed and greatful. 
        My goal and next steps will be to really hunt down a way to get the extra skin removed. So I just want to ask for prayers, in the way that I can have this done.

I was not looking forward to the point where the weight stops for a period of time. I feel i am to obsessed on the scales, but instead I need to work hard on looking my best, dressing better then I could when I was 310. 
I have been blessed, I kept cloth from when I was smaller, and family has sent me cloth and keeping me in cloth. I am so thankful for that.
I was hoping to make the 100 pounds mark before seeing my dr on the 6 months visit, but I am not feeling like it will happen now. SO once again like I said, I am not going to stress over pounds, but focus on my health, and improving my strength.

Hello, I am doing great. I am able to do things that I haven't been able to do for ever. It feels great to be able to clean house without major pain. I am down 70 pounds since the WLS, but from the first of this year I have lost a full 80 pounds, and only 95 to go to reach my goal. It sure feels good to get complements from folks around town.Well, this is all for now. The new eating habit really isn't all that hard for me. Of course there are times when my memory wants more, foods I use to have before WLS, and soda as well. But I am resisting, I will not allow everything I have been through to be wasted away.

It is real early here, and I need to get myself back to bed. But I woke up not feeling so good. Think it might be the need for water. So I am drinking some, and I think it is helping.
I see my drs lpn today, and we will see what he has to say about everything, one thing is going to happen, cos I am going to make it happen, and that is I will stop one of my meds, I just can't take it in liquid form, It almost comes back up so we will see what he has to say about that.
I will also see what I weigh and will report it in here. Night, well it isn't night but am going to go get more sleep.

Hello,
  I am here to say that I have made it. The wait, and work seemed like a life time, but as of Feb 26th I had the gastric bypass surgery, and am doing pretty good, still tire easy, but must add exercise to my days, haven't really had the strength to do so until now.
I had my gallbladder out at the same time as the WLS and had some unusual complications due to it. But am doing ok now. I did have to come home with a drain tube in me, but it isn't drianing out into a bag or anything, just hanging there on my side. Dr. Bright was great dealing with this problem, he really did his best to take care of the matter. It caused me to stay A Scracred Heart Center in Spokane longer then I thought I would be staying, but it was cos of the problem that accured.
   I am on Medicare and Medicaid, and nothing was paid by me, Both paid for the surgery. Took me time to help the Clinic and hospital to understand that Medicaid would pay the 20% and once that happened I was in for surgery extremely fast, it was awesome, I would not change a thing. Not even a month after surgery and I am at least 30 lbs lighter. yay.

Hello, I am here to report that as of Feb. 26th I have had the gastric bypass. Dr. Bright took out my gallbladder as well, and it has given us some problems. I was leaking, ( kidney) so left the hospital 6 days later with a tube in my side. But with well care and support from my mom and friend I am on the road to recovery. Tube comes out April 11, I can't wait, I want it out now lol.
I also had a struggle with the medicare/medicaid insurance. The clinic and hospital didn't think that medicaid would help at all, so at the last minute I am told that if they don't I will have to pay 1000.00 deductable ( this was a week before surgery ) and since June I had been telling everyone that my research of medicaid has been good, that they will pay the share that medicare doesn't pay. Finally after giving them a name and number, they learned themselves that medicaid will cover. So I had the operation on the schedule day, which speaking of that, it came upon me real fast. Feb 15th I am told by clinic that I will have operation on the 27 of  March, ( wow only a month away ) Well the next day I get a call, and I am moved up to Feb 26th oh wow, and I still had 3 tests left to take/get. But I did it. And that is why I got the opening is cos I was so close to having everything done. By the time of surgery, my bmi went from 48.4 to 50 something.
Well I am going to go for now. Going to keep more updated on here, and do some searching of the site now that I am not so busy trying to get the tests and things done for the operation.....