msmelodie9
I feel the need....
May 08, 2012
to clarify some things. Getting to this point has been a long time coming. I know WLS is not a easy way to lose weight, especially if food was a friend or comfort to you. I realized when I started this journey I will never be able to have the same relationship with food again. I know I didn't get to this point overnight...in fact this is 40 years in the making. This is a family issue, because everyone is overweight. My mother had the surgery in 2001, and unfortunately she did not make it home. For years I was dead set against WLS and swore I would die overweight. As the years past and my health deteriorated more and more, my feelings started to changed because my quality of life decrease. At the same time friends of mine were surviving the surgery with positive results. I figured after 11 years, surgeons have improved their techniques and the success rates were higher. Once I found a program and medical staff I felt comfortable with I began my journey.
I'm still in the process of getting my support team together. At first I wasn't telling anyone what I was doing, especially family, because of past history. My brother doesn't even know I'm doing this because I know it wouldn't set well with him until he saw I survived. We are the only 2 surviving members of my immediate family. Of course I will tell him after-wards, and let him see the results. Hopefully he will be inspired to take the journey. I also have a therapist to help me get through this mentally. Just like a addict going through withdrawals, that is where I am with this diet. Some days I need to vent my frustrations, but believe me I am not taking this lightly. If I cant feel safe around fellow food addicts, then where else can I vent where people understand. I'm saying all of this because some OH members thought I had a bad attitude towards this process and I felt attacked. I want people to understand where I am coming from. I need encouragement just like so many others on this site.
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I'm still in the process of getting my support team together. At first I wasn't telling anyone what I was doing, especially family, because of past history. My brother doesn't even know I'm doing this because I know it wouldn't set well with him until he saw I survived. We are the only 2 surviving members of my immediate family. Of course I will tell him after-wards, and let him see the results. Hopefully he will be inspired to take the journey. I also have a therapist to help me get through this mentally. Just like a addict going through withdrawals, that is where I am with this diet. Some days I need to vent my frustrations, but believe me I am not taking this lightly. If I cant feel safe around fellow food addicts, then where else can I vent where people understand. I'm saying all of this because some OH members thought I had a bad attitude towards this process and I felt attacked. I want people to understand where I am coming from. I need encouragement just like so many others on this site.
I am sick of this!!
May 07, 2012
Whew. I got that out, and now I am calming down. First this liquid diet is ridiculous!! they want me to have 7 8oz protein shakes, and 64 oz of water.......in 1 DAY ! No one is that thirsty......I am not coping well. So today I called the program director and let him know I can only get 4 protein shakes and maybe 16oz of water in a day. He said how about eating 4 yogurts along with the shakes....problem is I don't like yogurt. I tried it in middle school and the aftertaste has stayed with me to this day. Next he asked about string cheese...problem is I don't like string cheese! (OK I admit I'm a picky eater, but I still managed to get this big. Go Figure 
). Finally we got to meats: turkey, chicken, etc. He offered 8 slices of lunch-meat along with 4 shakes. I think I can tolerate that for 2 more weeks. Last night I couldn't sleep because my mind just wants this over with. I'm getting anxiety attacks, but I don't like taking the meds for it.....especially when I have to drive. I need God to help me not to concentrate on it so much. How do you cope with these feelings?
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). Finally we got to meats: turkey, chicken, etc. He offered 8 slices of lunch-meat along with 4 shakes. I think I can tolerate that for 2 more weeks. Last night I couldn't sleep because my mind just wants this over with. I'm getting anxiety attacks, but I don't like taking the meds for it.....especially when I have to drive. I need God to help me not to concentrate on it so much. How do you cope with these feelings?Countdown
May 04, 2012
Well everyone, I have finally finished my pre-op appointments. My big date is May 21st @ 7:30 am. I am super nervous. I'm not worried about the surgery itself, but my worries are possible complications....I don't need anymore trauma. I haven't told some of my family members, because I don't want them to worry (remember my mom did not survive after her surgery). I know there have been improvements in the past 11 years, plus I trust the surgeon and hospital staff. They do take precautions to make sure things go well. Now I'm on this liquid diet for 3 weeks to shrink my liver. I'm really getting tired of these protein shakes so I'm trying to figure out how to add variety to chocolate and strawberry shakes (those are the only 2 I like).
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Finanally
Mar 26, 2012
I have finally completed the required six month waiting period for my surgery. I have taken all test and had several exams. I have received the okay from the doctors, now I'm just waiting for the go ahead from the insurance company. Waiting is so hard, I just want this over and done with!! I'm not thrilled with the 3 week liquid diet before surgery.....but somehow I will survive. I am getting my support team together, so thats exciting. Now it's a waiting game...................
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Update
Dec 18, 2011
Merry Christmas to all. I just wanted to give an update.I found a hospital and Surgeon that I trust. I will have my surgery in March 2012 at Sibley Hospital with Dr Brian Long. I am currently going through my 6 month prep for surgery. I just want to get this over with so I can begin feeling better. I feel like my life is on pause until I get this done. I can hardly wait to start getting ready to lose weight
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I'm Back
Jun 28, 2011
Hello
It has been 2 years now since I have been on this site. A lot has happened during that time, too much to share. Anyway, guess what? I still havent had the surgery. I dont know what is wrong with me waiting so long while my health gets worse. I am so fustrated with myself about it. In a few month months I turn 40 which is a big milestone to me. One of my parents didnt get to see 40. I should be ready to celebrate, but right now I am trying to talk myself out of becoming a hermit. I feel so large around everyone, so for the past 6 months I have been going to my PCP so he can document my weight for insurance purposes. I need a emergency bypass because I am so ready for a change. Not being about to socialize or just hold a job is fustrating. Im back on this site so I can being finding the support I need through thi journey.
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It has been 2 years now since I have been on this site. A lot has happened during that time, too much to share. Anyway, guess what? I still havent had the surgery. I dont know what is wrong with me waiting so long while my health gets worse. I am so fustrated with myself about it. In a few month months I turn 40 which is a big milestone to me. One of my parents didnt get to see 40. I should be ready to celebrate, but right now I am trying to talk myself out of becoming a hermit. I feel so large around everyone, so for the past 6 months I have been going to my PCP so he can document my weight for insurance purposes. I need a emergency bypass because I am so ready for a change. Not being about to socialize or just hold a job is fustrating. Im back on this site so I can being finding the support I need through thi journey.
I made it !!
Aug 20, 2008
Well the good news is I made it to my appointment today, I even caught the end of the support group meeting. There were lots of people sharing their experiences. I met women who where 2 months out for their surgeries and starting to find out what they can and can not eat. I am a little concerned about that, because one of my favorite food groups is starches, which is something your body doesn't agree with. I am learning now that I will have to be very careful what eat, because Idont want to throw up or have the dumping syndrome. 
On a high note I lost 5 pounds since my last weigh in
. I am also starting to take PT this week to help get my energy and stamina back....so I am on the right track.
On a high note I lost 5 pounds since my last weigh in. I am also starting to take PT this week to help get my energy and stamina back....so I am on the right track.
Starting Over
Aug 06, 2008
Hello
I just wanted to give my OH family an update. Since my insurance requires the 6 month diet history, I have to start all over again. I couldn't make the appointment scheduled in July, so I have to start from scratch
. In the meantime I am trying to keep my spirits up and not get frustrated with this whole process. August 20th is my next appointment, so I pray I can make it
I just wanted to give my OH family an update. Since my insurance requires the 6 month diet history, I have to start all over again. I couldn't make the appointment scheduled in July, so I have to start from scratch
. In the meantime I am trying to keep my spirits up and not get frustrated with this whole process. August 20th is my next appointment, so I pray I can make it
July Update
Jul 10, 2008
Hello
I just wanted to check in and give everyone an update. I found out a few weeks ago that my insurance will pay for the surgery only if I go through with the 6 month diet history.To me its ridiculous because if I haven't lost weight in all this time, what makes them think I am going to lose any in 6 months!!!That time period gives me time to rethink going through all of this. It took me years to get up the nerve to go thought with the surgery in the first place...so now I am debating what I should do.
I just wanted to check in and give everyone an update. I found out a few weeks ago that my insurance will pay for the surgery only if I go through with the 6 month diet history.To me its ridiculous because if I haven't lost weight in all this time, what makes them think I am going to lose any in 6 months!!!
That time period gives me time to rethink going through all of this. It took me years to get up the nerve to go thought with the surgery in the first place...so now I am debating what I should do.
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Waldorf, MD
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05/21/2012
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Jun 14, 2008
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