Diane
Nothing I can say will make anything a bit better. But I want you to know that I was 545, and I would have rathered die then gained one more pound. I imagine all of us are the same way. We all know the risks and for Larry he won regardless. He is with the Lord.and He has not weight problem there.
For you, well you have a empty spot and you hurt. But remember Larry is not gone He hasmoved to His eternal home awaiting your arrival when the Lord calls you home. My prayers for comforting your heart are being sent as I type. All my Love
James