Patricia Hagmaier

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I cannot believe it is 9 days away.  I am so excited and scared.  You know how everyone has to tell you worst case scenerios, I hate that it make me even more scared, like not waking up or complications.
My pre op went great other than getting scolded for not quitting smoking sooner.  I am determined though, through Christ and his strenght I know I can do it.
I had my grand mothers funeral today and my grandfather who is 93 didn't recognize me because I have gained so much weight.  I told him about the surgery and he said,"what you don't have the will power on your own".  I tried to explain it to him, but I don't think he understands.  He was so distrught today over my grandmothers death I am affraid he is going to give up now.
He has no one to share his life with and I think he will want to go home and be with Millie and my other grandmother Lillian.  He looked defeated.
Anyway, still seaking prayers a lot and a lot of prayers  The more the better I feel so much safer knowing I have others praying for me.
Love to you all
Trish

I have such big butterflies of anticiapation and excitement to start my new life.
My pre op is a week away and surgery 2 weeks and 4 days away.   It seems suriel almost, like I can't believe this is happening.
I Praise God for it,
Trish

I cant believe I am three weeks out. I never really thought this day would come.
I am stocking up on all my post op food, my greatest concern of course is complications.   I have been praying over this entrie surgery from the orderlies to the doctors and everyone in between.
The other concern is that they will get in there and find out they can't do it laprascopocly because of my past surgeries then I will have to have an open RNY.  A little scarier, but I am trusting the Lord to do what is best for me.
I feel so blessed to be given this gift, I don't want to blow it and believe it or not I am down from 2 packs a day to 10 cig.  I am almost there.
I Praise the Lord for that too, he is doing such increadible things for us.
I can't wait to be on the losing bench with everyone else.
Trish

Well.... I am praising God because I am approved and have my surgery date which is Aug 7, 2007.  It is a beautiful time because I will be sharing my new Bday with all three of my kids.  My twins bday is Aug 5th and they will be 16 this year and my oldest is Aug 10th and she will be 18.
Truly is a God timing to put it directly between all three of my kids because the most important reason for doing this except for myself is them and my husband.  I want to be around for them and for my grandkids and for my husband so we can enjoy each other as the kids grow up.
I am so blesed thank You Jesus, you truly are the greastest and able to do all.
Trish

Well,
I am so frustrated.  I was denied by Aetna PPO II
because they said I did not meet the criteria, because I did not have a complete 5 year weight history of 40 BMI or over.
What I do know is my health is deterioating and I am scared.  This is my last and only option and I hate it is in the hands of the insurance company.
My back is so bad I am on pain meds everyday and that still doesn't help.  I had a bi-lateral spinal fusion 5 years ago.  Because of that my range of motion is severlly limited. I am almost to the point where I cannot take care of myself after I have a BM. (this is utterly humiliating in itself).  If I get to this point I will have to leave work and go out on disability because I will have no way to care for myself at work.
My blood pressure in the last year has skyrocked from 
107/77 to 146/98 that scares me too.
All I can do is trust God is bigger than any stupid insurance company and He will with no doubt open the door for me for this surgery.  It is not a matter of vanity, but of quality of life, and quantity now.
My weight is now at 267 this is my highest and will need to lose 140lbs.
My only other option is to gain 24lbs so my BMI is over 50 so I don't need the 5 year weight history.
What kind of option is that!!!!!!!
Anyway, just checking in take care all
One other thing, MY family is the best they have been standing by my side. My teenage girls have been so excited about my getting this surgery so they can have thier mom back.  Its all they talk about.
IN HIM
Trish

Hi everyone,
Well, after a year of trying it on myown I am back and getting ready for surgery.
After doing all my research last year I really believed I had to try one more time to lose the weight by diet and excerise, I lost 30 lbs and could lose no more.  Now of course I have put it all back on and then some.  
I have now completed most of my pre-op testing, I will be done by next week and all I will have to do is await insurance approval.
I am so nervous so please pray for me that I get a quick acceptance.  After that I go in to see my surgeon and dietition and get my surgery date.

I feel such a relief this time.  I feel trapped int his 
body and I am so tired.  Emotionally, physically racked with pain and mentally tired too.  I feel hope
that I have a fighting chance now for the first time in my life.  I know it is not going to be easy and that for the long haul I will have to work to keep it off, but that is okay.
I feel like I have been given such a gift and I don't want to throw that away by screwing up what God is allowing me to be giving.  A new stomach, a new start.
I am in deep need of an angle so I am pleading with anyone who is willing to support me.
I am glad to be back and blessing to all.
Trish