242!
Feb 28, 2007
This morning I woke up and got on the scale like I always do...and to my suprise it said 242!!! That is so awesome! Weird too cuz yesterday it said 250....I am so happy:)
Hair Loss and extra skin
Feb 11, 2007
For some reason I thought it wouldn't happen to me. But everyday when I wash my hair handfuls come out:( I love my hair and do not want to lose anymore. I went and got my hair done yesterday and warned my hairdresser before she did anything that it is falling out. When she washed my hair she got scared I could see it in her face. She was like whoa this is a lotta hair ur losing. Yes it is. So I am now taking Biotin and trying to drink my stupid nasty protein drinks everyday. God I hate all protein drinks. Another thing I'm going through right now is kinda gross but you people like to know it all right? The good bad and ugly. So I've been noticing alot of extra skin. My stomach is starting to look kinda bad. Its hard to explain like there is skin on the top of my belly button and it hangs down so it looks like I have no belly button. But this extra skin hanging is causing me to get belly button infections. I'm going to the doctor for it on the 20th. They hurt and itch and it's really bothersome. Maybe now if I document the infections with my doctor early my insurance will pay for a tummy tuck cause it will be a medical nessecity(whoa how do i spell that?) if im getting infections right? Anyone else have this going on? Also my arms:( When I got fat I guess my weight didnt distribute right and my right arm was a little bit bigger than my left. Now my arms hang and flap. It is so disgusting and embarrasing. I would never wear short sleeve shirts. But one of my arm flaps are bigger than the other. I need to start weight lifting or something because they are getting worse. And my boobs hang. They are no longer perky they just hang lower. Suprisingly I only went down one cup size and they look horrible. Well that is my bad news. I don't have any good news cuz I haven't lost any weight cuz I just got my period today after 3 months of not having one. So whenever I get it I actually gain weight. Ha. I should've posted on a better day. But things can only get better from here right? TTYL
249
Feb 04, 2007
I weigh 249 today...I am soooo exited to not be over 250 anymore!!! Today EVERYONE was telling me how pretty I looked and my gosh it was such a great day!!! I can't wait to be out of the 240's now!!!
3 and a half month Dr. Suh visit
Jan 11, 2007
I always love going to see Dr. Suh. He always seems to put me back on track for some reason. I wish I could see him every week. But I know that is not possible. I asked him why I am not losing weight as fast as I would like. It is kinda depressing that I've only lost 26 pounds in a little over 2 months. This is when I'm supposed to be losing weight the fastest right? Well he asks me what I am eating. I thought I was doing alright...but when I sat down and actually thought about what I ate the few days prior it scared me. I'm already falling back into my old habits. I drink gatorade(too many calories), I eat lots of carbs, and I drink lots of alcohol. Oh yah...and I stopped exercising about 2 months ago. So this all needs to stop. Today I walked on the treadmill for 22 minutes. That is the most I've ever walked on the treadmill before and it actually felt really good. I'm drinking my protein drink as we speak. And I've already had 2 bottles of water today and a string cheese. For dinner I am eating beans and fish. Not a good combo but great for protein. I sat down and talked to my mom and told her what I need and that I am extremely scared of not losing weight and staying the size I am. Yeah I know I look better than I did before but this is my comfort weight I was this weight all throughout my teenage years. I wanna be a weight I've never seen before...like 200...I'll be so happy with 200 and hopefully this surgery can bring me there. I know it is not too late yet and I plan on using the time I have to the fullest. Anyways about my mom...she went to the store like 3 days ago and comes home with this big ass tub of cheesy puffs and a bunch of cookies from sams club. I was like what the hell? I think she just doesnt understand because she is not overweight. Or she thinks I have more will power than I do...lol...but I have none. She said she is definately bringing them to work tomorrow so I don't see them and be tempted. Yes, I did fall into my cheesy poof temptations this past couple of days...but not today!! Today my scale says I weigh 259! My doctor said if I do everything right to expect to lose 15 lbs a month for the next three months then it will get slower. If that is correct I will weigh 214 lbs in 3 months. I have never ever been that weight. Ever Wow that is crazy to type even. We will see what happens I guess. Hugz and kisses to all you who take the time to read my lame profile!!! Good luck on all your journeys!!
Stalled...it sucks big time
Jan 03, 2007
Just when I was thinking I didn't lose any weight this month I get on here and found that I weighed 274 on December 4th. That was a long time ago....but I thought I weighed 264 on December 4th. And I weighed 264 this morning. So I guess 10 lbs in over a month isnt that bad. Cuz I'll admit I haven't been an angel this month. And if I can eat what I've been putting down my mouth this month and still lose weight...well thats pretty darn cool. So I must be going crazy...lol...or its just too early for me. I am so not a morning person. Especially now since I can't have my 10 cups of the strongest coffe ever made...lol I limit myself to protein drinks in the morning. Cuz I know if I don't drink them then, then I won't drink them. And if I skip one day...then whoo that will throw me off for a long time. My three month was on Christmas. But I was so depressed with my weight loss that I didn't post anything about it. I don't mean to be a downer...but this surgery has just been pissing me off lately. Why the hell do I have to be a slow damn loser??? How come everyone else can lose their weight hella fast and I'm always stuck at the same stupid weight. And....well thats enough for now. So many damn frustrations but all in all it is my fault. I bet I could lose weight faster if all I ate was protein and I exercised like a mad women...but I don't wanna do that everyday. I have a life. I don't want to waste two hours out of my day being miserable on a treadmill. Maybe that is just a copout...but that is truely how I look at it. Oh yah I have one more confession to make. I can tolerate alcohol! And I think since Christmas and New Years I've been really bad with it. And drinking a little too much. I just have to learn to do it in moderation. But I love alcohol!! It makes me feel tipsy so fast now. No more drinks for another 6 months I swear!!! Scouts honor! LoL.....What did everyone get for Christmas? Me- well I got alotta clothes from Torrid...size 18 pants:) and size 2 tops. Umm I gotta CUTE Coach purse and matching wallet. Shoes...CDS....DVDS....money...and a digital camera. I needed one. But I had to put my compter in the shop cuz the thing where the plug for the battery goes is lose and it wouldn't charge. Soo maybe by next time I'll have new pics. Well thats all for now. Happy new year everyone!!!! Down to 264....minus a total of 54 pounds since surgery and 63 pounds since the start of it all.....
New pic!!! and update
Dec 04, 2006
I am oficially down to 274....and a size 21 jeans. I wish I would have taken my inches before my surgery cuz I know I lost alotta them. From a size 26 to 21!!! It feels really good. All the clothes I bought last month fit now. I'm having alotta problems with protein and water. I can't seem to get all I need. I usually only get about 40 grams of protein per day and about 50 ounces of fluids. On a good day. Earlier in the month I started walking 20 minutes on the treadmill everyday...then I slacked off and got real busy and haven't done that for about 2 weeks. I'm trying to fit that in my schedule somewhere. This month was the worst with throwing up. I throw up every other day it seems. It's just from eating too fast tho or too much or the food gets stuck...thats the worst.....Well sorry so short but have to run...more to come soon!!
Hey Everyone!!!!
Nov 09, 2006
Wellllllll.....I hate food!!!!! It's disgusting and makes me wanna throw up just thinking about it. I have to force myself to eat now. I am an anerexic in a fat body...lol....
But seriously...I don't have an appetite anymore at all. I can definately tell I am losing weight now. It's weird the way peole have already started to treat me differently. I dunno...I'm still me...just getting a little smaller. I weigh 283...that was from like 3 days ago....Guys actually hold doors for me now!!! It's happened like 10 times in the past few weeks. My mom says its cuz I got my hair did. LoL....I dunno what it is...maybe it is because I actually hold my head high now and have much much more self-confidence. I went shopping and purposely got all smaller sizes...nothing dramatically smaller but I bought some juniors 2xl and size 21 jeans....and I'm getting kinda nervous that I won't ever fit into them and I wanna take all the clothes back and get the bigger sizes. But everyone keeps telling me just to wait a few weeks and they will be big on me. I sure hope so...but I want to wear them now damnit!!! Everything is going pretty smooth with my water and protein. Believe it or not I found the only protein drink I've stuck with drinking everyday is at Walmart(and I HATE Walmart)....but its pretty good...its 20 grams a serving but I mix it with a cup of milk so that adds 10 grams of protein....and I've heard your body can only absorb 30 grams at a time. So its perfect!!! And believe it or not its my favorite thing to drink now!!! I actually prefer it over pizza. Now that is just weird. LoL...
Happy Halloween!!!
Oct 31, 2006
Just wanted to post this real quick before I head off to school. Can you believe that my teacher is making us take a pretty huge test on Halloween? That is bs huh? Well this morning I woke up and got on the scale and guess what it said..........289!!!!! I am in the 280's!! I haven't been in the 280's in two years! I've started walking everynight...I measured a mile and a half in my neighborhood. So hopefully that will get me in the 270's soon enough!! I hope everyone has a fun and safe Halloween! And don't eat any candy its bad!!
Almost 5 weeks post op...
Oct 30, 2006
I just had to post on how wonderful I have been feeling lately!! I added some pics from three weeks post op and one month post op....and even one two days after I came home from the hospital. I can tell I am getting smaller. I love it!!!! It's amazing what 27 pounds can do!!! I don't know how to put the pictures on the blog so I am putting them at the bottom so look for them!!!
Going to school...
Oct 26, 2006
Let me tell ya things are much much better than my last post. The only thing that sucks right now is not having anything to wear to school!!! I swear, all my pants were big before cuz I lost weight on my pre-op diet. I seem to forget that I lost weight then also...I weighed 325 pounds the first time I went to Lite Weighs and I about died. Well when I ended Lite Weighs I was 309. Then when I came home from surgery I was 318. Now I'm 293!!! It's awesome! Oh yah...I love to post my weight alot just to remind myself of what I have accomplished so far. Well I went to my one month check up on Tuesday and I was very mad cuz my doctors scale said I only lost 4 lbs in the last 3 weeks of the month. My doctor told me not to worry and that this is very normal. He said the weight we lose the first weight is usually water weight....then we start losing fat. And my body needs time to adjust and heal properly. It is just getting used to what I did to it! He also said by the next time I see him, which will be in 2 months, I should lose 40 pounds!!!! That made me VERY optimistic. That means I should weigh 253...oh my god I can't imagine myself weighing 253. Haven't been that weight since...gawd forever. I just can't wait!!! Well I had some pictures from the hospital and pre-op to put on here but I took the damn things to Walmart and they said the camera was over or under exposed or something. The pictures looked like crap. But I've started on a new roll at 3 weeks post-op so I guess we'll just have to go from there. Should have them up by the next time I post. Well...I gotta go get ready for school and figure out what the hell I'm gonna wear..lol...so bye for now!!!!
