Dabba Doo X.
Why are the weekends so hard for me???
Apr 20, 2008
My husband had to work all weekend and I was so bored that I did nothing but snack all weekend long! I hate when I do this because I feel so bad about doing it and I also feel "bad" physical for doing it.
I didn't really eat anything "bad", but I just grazed all day long! I have got to find something else to do.
I am going to call in the morning and find out if I can get my fill moved up some, it is scheduled in four weeks and I know I need another. So I guess we will see!
I really wish I knew what made me tick differently then other people. Why do I enjoy food so much? Why do I use it for comfort? I don't understand why I emotionally eat? I don't understand what purpose it has or why I keep doing it! This has been a life long struggle for me and the band hasn't helped that part of me! I am just hopeful that once I get restriction this will be easier!
Have you ever had to cut negative, rotten, mean people out of your life? I am the type of person who mothers, who takes on the burdens of others, but I am too the point with my sister that I am ready to write her off! I am finally coming to the realization that some times there are just those who can't help and she is that someone for me. She is toxic! She has been my whole life. She hurts or destroys everything in her path. She takes no prisoners, she just destroys all. She doesn't care who it is, she shows no mercy. She lies, she steals. she lies so much that she can't even keep the lies straight anymore.
I feel so sorry for her husband, because he really is a great man and he doesn't deserve the likes of her, but because he is a great man he continues to put up with her lies.
I just thank God that I am not like that. I thank him for making me a loving person, and even though I am tiring of my sister I hope he understands.
I didn't really eat anything "bad", but I just grazed all day long! I have got to find something else to do.
I am going to call in the morning and find out if I can get my fill moved up some, it is scheduled in four weeks and I know I need another. So I guess we will see!
I really wish I knew what made me tick differently then other people. Why do I enjoy food so much? Why do I use it for comfort? I don't understand why I emotionally eat? I don't understand what purpose it has or why I keep doing it! This has been a life long struggle for me and the band hasn't helped that part of me! I am just hopeful that once I get restriction this will be easier!
Have you ever had to cut negative, rotten, mean people out of your life? I am the type of person who mothers, who takes on the burdens of others, but I am too the point with my sister that I am ready to write her off! I am finally coming to the realization that some times there are just those who can't help and she is that someone for me. She is toxic! She has been my whole life. She hurts or destroys everything in her path. She takes no prisoners, she just destroys all. She doesn't care who it is, she shows no mercy. She lies, she steals. she lies so much that she can't even keep the lies straight anymore.
I feel so sorry for her husband, because he really is a great man and he doesn't deserve the likes of her, but because he is a great man he continues to put up with her lies.
I just thank God that I am not like that. I thank him for making me a loving person, and even though I am tiring of my sister I hope he understands.
Day 36 - post op
Apr 19, 2008
I weighed myself yesterday and I am down 1/2 pound. I put the scale back up and will only take it down on Fridays. I feel much better now that I am not weighing everyday. It is like a small weight has been lifted off of me, but I do feel a little guilty for not weighing because what if I gain? But for now, I am letting those thoughts go. I know that I little to no restriction so I am trying to not be so hard on myself for not losing alot of weight. I am still dieting and eating proteins first, then veggies and I am trying to avoid carbs such as sugars and flours although I do cheat from time to time and have a cookie here or a small bit of candy there.
The Scale is GONE!!!
Apr 17, 2008
Well, not forever, but I did finally put the stupid thing up on a very high shelf that I need a chair to get to it. I have now gone 2 days without weighing! That is an accomplishment in itself!!!
I made a huge mistake today! I went to McDonald's for breakfast. I ordered the big breakfast thinking the eggs and sausage would be okay. Well I ate those plus the hash brown. When I got home I looked up the calories on the Dailyplate and about fell out of my chair! For those three alone it was nearly 500 calories!!! Let's just say that I won't be making that mistake again! I did make up for it by riding the exercise bike and burning 450 calories, but still! It was definately an eye opener!
Today is my 16th Wedding Anniversary. This time last year I was 38 lbs heavier. Hopefully this time next year I will be another 75 lbs lighter! That would put me at goal of 150! I haven't been 150 lbs since I was 19 years old. Next month I will be 38. That's 19 years!!! That's along time, but I know I can do this! I will do this! I want the old me back. I don't want my kids growing up being embarrassed by their mom because she is so overweight. I want them to be proud of me. I want to be proud of me!
I made a huge mistake today! I went to McDonald's for breakfast. I ordered the big breakfast thinking the eggs and sausage would be okay. Well I ate those plus the hash brown. When I got home I looked up the calories on the Dailyplate and about fell out of my chair! For those three alone it was nearly 500 calories!!! Let's just say that I won't be making that mistake again! I did make up for it by riding the exercise bike and burning 450 calories, but still! It was definately an eye opener!
Today is my 16th Wedding Anniversary. This time last year I was 38 lbs heavier. Hopefully this time next year I will be another 75 lbs lighter! That would put me at goal of 150! I haven't been 150 lbs since I was 19 years old. Next month I will be 38. That's 19 years!!! That's along time, but I know I can do this! I will do this! I want the old me back. I don't want my kids growing up being embarrassed by their mom because she is so overweight. I want them to be proud of me. I want to be proud of me!
I don't think fill is really working!!!
Apr 14, 2008
I think that was I was feeling was the swelling from the fill. The last two days I find that I can get more then the 1/2 cup and as much as 1 cup and I am only staying full (not hungry) for about 2 hours. I have 5 weeks until my 2nd fill :( I guess it's 5 more weeks of dieting! I really don't see how people do this without exercising. I went 2 days without exercising and didn't lose anything.
I can't wait until I can get to the point of not having to count calories. I am hopeful that eventually it will be second nature and i will be able to eat and conscience of what's okay, without counting.
I have to say that I really feel alot better when I do exercise. I wish I had time to do it in the mornings before work instead of in the evenings, but you have to squeeze it in where-ever you can, and right now that's in the evenings!
P.S. I just have to say that my husband is driving me crazy!!!! He is trying to be a good sport and not overeat, but I am finding that he is getting up in the middle of the night and gorging. I can tell that he is gaining weight. i wish he would just eat to get full at supper time, instead of eating in the middle of the night.
There are also times when he is eating something like ice cream, a fast food hamburger or some other junk, and he asks me if I want some? I told him it was like asking a junkie if he wanted crack! Of course I want some...but it's not good for me so I have to say no! I don't know if he is just trying to be polite or if he is being malicious! I really hope that it's him trying to be polite.
I can't wait until I can get to the point of not having to count calories. I am hopeful that eventually it will be second nature and i will be able to eat and conscience of what's okay, without counting.
I have to say that I really feel alot better when I do exercise. I wish I had time to do it in the mornings before work instead of in the evenings, but you have to squeeze it in where-ever you can, and right now that's in the evenings!
P.S. I just have to say that my husband is driving me crazy!!!! He is trying to be a good sport and not overeat, but I am finding that he is getting up in the middle of the night and gorging. I can tell that he is gaining weight. i wish he would just eat to get full at supper time, instead of eating in the middle of the night.
There are also times when he is eating something like ice cream, a fast food hamburger or some other junk, and he asks me if I want some? I told him it was like asking a junkie if he wanted crack! Of course I want some...but it's not good for me so I have to say no! I don't know if he is just trying to be polite or if he is being malicious! I really hope that it's him trying to be polite.
The scale is finally going down! I'm at 221.5
Apr 12, 2008
I don't know if it's from the fill or from the increase to 1000 calories, but the scale has been moving ever since the day after my fill. I have lost 4 pounds in 3 days. I am just going to keep doing what I'm doing and hopefully it will keep coming off!
I am completely convinced that I was in starvation mode because I was only getting 600-800 cals (some dum-dum at the doc told me that), so after 2 weeks of that, I called the nut and she said NEVER go below 800!!! No wonder why I wasn't losing, even with all the exercise! I am just happy to finally see the scale moving again!
My sister is coming in this coming weekend, I think she will be really surprised to see the changes in me. I haven't seen her since Thanksgiving and I was around 250 then.
I do have to confess something though: We went out of town yesterday because my son had a go-kart race, and I ate like crazy. I know it was because I was bored sitting around during all the times when he wasn't racing, but I have got to figure out something else to do. I just snacked all day. Plus I ate a 8 pc fried shrimp basket from Popeyes. I did break it up into 2 meals 4 shrimp and 1/2 dirty rice at each meal. It was so yummy! But I am back home now and back to the game plan!!! BTW, my son kicked some butt last night and won!!
I am completely convinced that I was in starvation mode because I was only getting 600-800 cals (some dum-dum at the doc told me that), so after 2 weeks of that, I called the nut and she said NEVER go below 800!!! No wonder why I wasn't losing, even with all the exercise! I am just happy to finally see the scale moving again!
My sister is coming in this coming weekend, I think she will be really surprised to see the changes in me. I haven't seen her since Thanksgiving and I was around 250 then.
I do have to confess something though: We went out of town yesterday because my son had a go-kart race, and I ate like crazy. I know it was because I was bored sitting around during all the times when he wasn't racing, but I have got to figure out something else to do. I just snacked all day. Plus I ate a 8 pc fried shrimp basket from Popeyes. I did break it up into 2 meals 4 shrimp and 1/2 dirty rice at each meal. It was so yummy! But I am back home now and back to the game plan!!! BTW, my son kicked some butt last night and won!!
My first fill!!!!
Apr 10, 2008
I went yesterday for the first fill. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. Dr. Davis pressed around on my tummy to locate the port, numbed the area and then stuck me with the fill needle. He put in 2 cc's. I have a total of 4 now. It was kinda of confusing because he put in 2.5 cc at surgery, but when he pulled it out, it was only 2. He said that some gets left in the band, tube. So yesterday I had liquids and today I get soft foods and tomorrow I get reg foods. No bread, pork or steak for 10 days.
My stomach was a little sore and I did feel a little queezy a few times yesterday, but nothing too bad.
I have already scheduled my next fill for may 15th. I don't know yet if I have restriction or not. I am just eating 1/2 cup at a time like he told me.
I guess once I start eating reg food I will know if I have restriction or not.
Oh, and the scale said I am at 224. Which is good, because I had gone back up to 226!!!!
See what one day of liquids will do for you?
My stomach was a little sore and I did feel a little queezy a few times yesterday, but nothing too bad.
I have already scheduled my next fill for may 15th. I don't know yet if I have restriction or not. I am just eating 1/2 cup at a time like he told me.
I guess once I start eating reg food I will know if I have restriction or not.
Oh, and the scale said I am at 224. Which is good, because I had gone back up to 226!!!!
See what one day of liquids will do for you?
Day 27 - Post-op
Apr 09, 2008
I go in today for my first fill! I called the Nut the other day and she told me that I was not getting enough cals, that I should never go below 800 and here I was keeping it closer to 600. She said to strive for around 1000 and to concentrate on getting 70-80 gms of protein.
So for the last 2 days, I have been doing that. I have gained like 3 pounds. I don't know what the heck is going on with my body, but it is so frustrating. I am really hoping that this fill gives me some restriction. I am still eating 3 meals + 2 snacks a day. I am even eating solid protein for breakfast and I am getting hungry by 10am. I have healthy snacks like yogurt, cheese and crackers, 100 cal wheat thins, etc.
I am a little nervous about getting the first fill. I will report back this afternoon and tell you how it goes. Please pray that this will give me some restriction.
Thanks!
So for the last 2 days, I have been doing that. I have gained like 3 pounds. I don't know what the heck is going on with my body, but it is so frustrating. I am really hoping that this fill gives me some restriction. I am still eating 3 meals + 2 snacks a day. I am even eating solid protein for breakfast and I am getting hungry by 10am. I have healthy snacks like yogurt, cheese and crackers, 100 cal wheat thins, etc.
I am a little nervous about getting the first fill. I will report back this afternoon and tell you how it goes. Please pray that this will give me some restriction.
Thanks!
Frustrated!!!!!!
Apr 07, 2008
I don't know why, but I am just frustrated right now with my friend the band!
In 2 1/2 weeks I had lost 9 lbs, then for some strange reason, I gained 2 and I have lost one of those. But I have been exercising every day, I ride my stationary bike 28-30 mins a day at a vigorious rate of 28-31 mph and according to my bike I am burning about 400 calories. I am taking in between 600-800 cal like my dr.'s office told me and I am not losing weight nor inches!!!
I go to the doctor on Thursday so I will ask if if I am getting enough calories, but I am scared to raise them because I don't want to gain. I get my first fill this week, but from what I read on the board, I am very skeptical that it will help until I get 2-3 of them. I really hope I am wrong and that it will help.
I also started taking fiber-sure this week to help me go to the restroom more regular, but it doesn't seem to be helping yet. It is however giving me incredible gas.
It is sooooo much pressure because everyone knows I did the surgery and all eyes are on me to see if I am losing.
***Okay, I am thru with my pit-party*** I am off to begin my new day, with better choices, and better attitudes!
In 2 1/2 weeks I had lost 9 lbs, then for some strange reason, I gained 2 and I have lost one of those. But I have been exercising every day, I ride my stationary bike 28-30 mins a day at a vigorious rate of 28-31 mph and according to my bike I am burning about 400 calories. I am taking in between 600-800 cal like my dr.'s office told me and I am not losing weight nor inches!!!
I go to the doctor on Thursday so I will ask if if I am getting enough calories, but I am scared to raise them because I don't want to gain. I get my first fill this week, but from what I read on the board, I am very skeptical that it will help until I get 2-3 of them. I really hope I am wrong and that it will help.
I also started taking fiber-sure this week to help me go to the restroom more regular, but it doesn't seem to be helping yet. It is however giving me incredible gas.
It is sooooo much pressure because everyone knows I did the surgery and all eyes are on me to see if I am losing.
***Okay, I am thru with my pit-party*** I am off to begin my new day, with better choices, and better attitudes!
What to eat --- Will I ever get it right????
Apr 06, 2008
Okay, so I haven't done the best this week. Not that my choices have been bad ones, just that I haven't been measuring and I know I am eating more then the 1/2-1 cup that I am supposed to be eating. I have also been eating too fast and not chewing enough. It hasn't been a problem because I have no fill, but I go this week to get one and I am so afraid that I am going to pb. I have got to learn to slow down, take smaller bits and chew, chew, chew.
I am also a little concerned about the amounts that I can eat. Yesterday for lunch we had a bbq and I ate 1 chicken thigh, 1 pork rib, a scoop of beans and a scoop of brocolli salad. The choices where good ones, just the amounts where way too much.
I guess at least I know this is a problem and I can work on it before thursday gets here.
I promise just for tomorrow, to measure everything I eat. To track it on fitday and to slow down when I eat and to eat small bites.
I am also a little concerned about the amounts that I can eat. Yesterday for lunch we had a bbq and I ate 1 chicken thigh, 1 pork rib, a scoop of beans and a scoop of brocolli salad. The choices where good ones, just the amounts where way too much.
I guess at least I know this is a problem and I can work on it before thursday gets here.
I promise just for tomorrow, to measure everything I eat. To track it on fitday and to slow down when I eat and to eat small bites.
My exercise Bike!!!!!
Apr 04, 2008
I have been riding my exercise bike on days when it's ugly outside. Well, the batteries have been dead in it so I have just been riding for 30 minutes. I thought I remembered that 30 min = about 6 miles! Well, today I put new batteries in and in 30 mins I rode 15 miles! I was going about 30 mpg and boy was I sweating! It felt so good to see how far I had riden and to figure out that I had been doing more then I thought I was all last week. I think I like the bike riding better then the walking. I feel like I get more out of it, I definately sweat more with the bike.
About Me
Crosby, TX
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31.3
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Surgery
03/14/2008
Surgery Date
Feb 08, 2008
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