Barb,
I'm so sorry to know that you're feeling so depressed. As you can see from the responses, you are loved and are important to a lot of people. Remember that, especially when other people try to make you feel bad. I wish I had some great words of wisdom and cheer, but I hope you do take some comfort in seeing that we all care so much about you, believe in you, and are here for you. Take care, my dear. I'm sending lots of positive thoughts your way.
Diana