Hi Jenni :) Sweetie, the fear is normal and it's real important to just keep your focus on how much better your life will be for you (and your kids) after your surgery. Think about all that you'll be able to do that you can't do now! For me, I was terrified of the actual surgery. So much that I woke the morning of 5/2/03 and almost went back to bed with the full intention of not showing up to the hospital. Fortunately, somewhere inside me, there was also a great amount of hope and that's what finally got me up and going. Turns out that my surgery (RNY) when exactly as planned with no complications, almost 0 pain, 0 naseau, etc. I am not almost 5 months post-op and 90 lbs lighter, and I am feeling better than I have in a very long time. I'll be keeping you in my prayers, knowing that you can do it! Sending hugs, Caroline