I MUST be PMSing... (long)
... either that, or I'm an undiagnosed manic-depressive or something along that order. (I no longer have my uterus, so it's a crap shoot as to whether or not it really IS that time of the month for me.)
Last night, I was crabby. No good reason, just crabby. The GOOD thing about me being crabby, is that rather than lash out at my family, I tend to clam up and just CLEAN a lot! (Rich doesn't know how good he's got it!) My kitchen looks FABULOUS!
Today, even tho the weather is really cruddy and the parks are unusually slow because of it, I've been feeling pretty silly. You may have noticed on some of my posts, I don't know...
But someone here just reached in, grabbed my heart and SQUEEZED it good until the tears started pouring from my eyes, and I'm feeling the need to share some thoughts.
In a pm, someone mentioned to me being scared that this whole WLS journey is too good to be true. (here go the waterworks again, dangit!!!) THIS IS NOT TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!!! We DESERVE to regain our health and happiness! We have PAID for the right to FINALLY lose weight with YEARS of blood, GALLONS of sweat, and PILLOWS full of tears!!!
We have put up with **** from people who aren't WORTHY of our giveadamn.
We have suffered humiliation at not being able to fit in restaurant booths, amusement rides, airplane seats, you name it. We have ALL been mortified by how our obesity has embarassed us.
Most of us have suffered some serious health-related issues because of our weight, I know I don't need to bother listing any of them here.
We reached a point of DESPERATION deep enough that we researched the possibility - and the RISKS - of having our bodies cut open, surgically rearraged and/or having a foreign object put in place, in the last-ditch hope of finding that magic answer to our prayers - SUBSTANTIAL AND LASTING WEIGHT LOSS!!!
I'm not done.
We had to jump through a plethora of hoops to find a surgeon, meet insurance requirements, go through all the pre-requisite assessments and appointments to make sure our surgeon believes we're truly ready for this. Some of us had it relatively easy, some of us fought with all we had for many months, even YEARS, to convince some doorknob sitting at a desk in some insurance company's HQ that WE NEED THIS. OUR VERY LIVES, and frankly, your BOTTOM LINE, DEPEND ON IT.
We struggled with whether or not to tell our friends, and we dealt with how THEY reacted to the news that we were planning to put ourselves through such a procedure. Some of us have seen long standing friendships fade because they just didn't get it. (With friends like that, who needs enemies?)
Then one day, for most of us, the magic "I've Been Approved!" and "I've Got a Date!!" posts appear. And all of our new friends here CHEER and CELEBRATE with us, because WE DO GET IT!
We suffer the LD's if required, we go through the actual surgery, and we suffer through the buyer's remorse, the full liquids, the puree's, and the JOY of finally being able to put REAL FOOD in our mouths once again!!! WOO HOO!!!
Is that it? Is it all over?
HELL NO!!! We have to fight this battle for the rest of our lives! Head hunger. Dumping, if we're lucky. Getting stuck when we're not careful. Losing our coping mechanism for life stresses we face unrelated to our weight or our surgery.
What's the moral of my lengthy babbling???
WE HAVE EARNED THIS!!! WE DESERVE EVERY FRICKIN' POUND WE LOSE!!!
HERE'S TO US ALL!!! 
I love you all very much - for all the support, through the occasional drama and everything, I don't know what I'd do without all of you and this place to keep me fighting!
(And I swear, I just saved myself hundreds of dollars in therapy by letting all this out!)
**WHEW!!!**
I love you all very much - for all the support, through the occasional drama and everything, I don't know what I'd do without all of you and this place to keep me fighting!
(And I swear, I just saved myself hundreds of dollars in therapy by letting all this out!)
**WHEW!!!**
Imperfect does not = unsuccessful
((((DARLA)))).....next time call me and I will only charge $25
Loves!
~Sandie~ 
-147!!WLS:12-12-06:Preop 268,Ht.5'4",BMI 44.9
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"Do unto others as you'd have done to you"~ The Golden Rule to Live by!
You are what you EAT and WHO you hang out with! Choices=Outcome~ what's YOUR choice??
I'm not perfect but I am going to die trying!!!
Amy,
Your too funny..........
Darla,
I'm so glad I had the WLS, not only for my health but I got to meet YOU and all the other wonderful people on here. That was an unexpected gift....Friendship........
I love what you wrote, we did fight to get to where we are, we deserve it. AMEN.......
I just can't say enough about you.......Your a special person......
Love, Kelly
Darladee
Amazing!! you have a way of saying just what SOMEBODY needs to hear... I'm so happy to have you as a friend.
Have a wonderful weekend!
(((HUGS)))
Hugs ~ Lisa
Well behaved women rarely make history!
305/296/147/150 159 pounds down 3 lbs below goal!
Highest weight/day of surgery/current weight/goal weight
Sounds like some great thought... and a beautiful message that we all have gone through alot of crap to get to where we want to be.
As we had talked about before..its soldiering on through the ups and downs and fighting frontline to stay where we want to be.
You are an amazing woman!!!
Hugs to you and I adore ya!
Start Weight - 263
Current Weight 135 and making it work for ME !
~ 
Well said sweetie!!!
We do work very hard and we should be proud of what we've accomplished.
Marching like soldiers to our healthy way of life.
And you have done absolutely WONDERFUL -- another inspirational person if I've ever met one!!!
XXOO
Fitness is not about age or a size -- it's really about an attitude and life style!!!
Life is not measured by the number of breathes we take, but by the moments that take our breathe away~~
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