Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.

yikes. Such deep questions...not used to all this sharing. I have been overwt since hi school, started at a size 5 and graduated a size 16. Being overwt is a heriditary curse in my family, I have found a picture of my great grandmother who lived in an era when if you didnt kill it or grow it- you didnt eat it; and she was a heavy as I am. My 4 sisters also have the curse. I have not had wls yet; I was all psyched to go and had my first dr appt scheduled, when I came down with shingles in my eye twice in 2 months. The eye specialist said no physical or emotional or nutritional stress....so there I was. I have now recieved the green light and can't get excited like I was. I am trying to remember all the reasons I hate being fat...no energy...decreased quality of life...no energy...ugly clothes...poor sleep...can't participate in so many activities...am going to need a second knee replaced if I dont lose wt...no energy...reflux...hi bp...and most embarassing of all-if i fall I cant get up (have had a knee replaced). I started to think about wls as an option this past winter after I was put on Prednisone for a cold I couldn't shake. It made me hyper and for the first time in a long time I GOT THINGS DONE!!!! It made me remember what it was like to have energy again. I also work in an office where I watched many women go on an all protein diet and some of them lost about 70-80#. Then they started to eat again and they all gained it all back. How discouraging. I decided that route was not for me. I have tried WW. optifast, lo fat, counting carbs and I always fail. I suppose that is why I am so terrified to do wls...what if I fail again??? and this time I can't just quit! The biggest question i have is...if i can stop eating because someone cut me open; why can't I just stop eating because I know I should?

What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?

Everything. There are no good things to9 being fat.

If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?

I haven't had it yet