Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
I was never overweight until my senior year in high school (although I thought I was because I wasn't a size 0) but my senior year I decided to get on the depo shot for birth control and it made me gain weight like crazy. I was on it for a year and gained about 75 lbs because of it. I continued to gain weight over the years and after having my daughter in May of 2008, I weighed 240 lbs. That was my heaviest. (I am only 5 ft tall) I was always miserable. I hated looking at myself in mirrors. I struggled with my identity because I knew that I wasn't meant for a body like that. I am not trying to be conceited but I have a pretty face. I hated hearing that all the time! people would say "well you have a pretty face" or pretty eyes, nice hair etc. ugh I just wanted people to say you are beautiful in general. I was worried that I would never lose the weight. And I tried! I constantly was on diets. I would bust my ass to lose weight and it just would not come off by itself. In a few short words....I was miserable and depressed. I am so grateful and happy now that the weight is off. And i would encourage ANYONE trying to get bariatric surgery, to DO IT!
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
The worst thing for me about being overweight, was feeling uncomfortable in my own skin. I hated myself. The way that I looked and felt. I wanted so badly to wear what the "skinny girls" were wearing. Feel comfortable in shorts or a bathing suit. Not have to sweat my ass off in the summer time because I am covered with clothes, ashamed to show any of my body. It was miserable. I know there are people out there that like to be obese and it blows my mind bc every day that I woke up, i was miserable, tired and depressed.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
After losing 110 lbs. those feelings are gone. I have so much more energy and my life is amazing. I can go to a store without having to try things on. I don't have to shop in the plus size section anymore. I can buy what I like and not what fits. I can run for longer than 2 minutes on a treadmill. I can keep up with my 5 year old daughter. I have an amazing man that I never would have approached had I been overweight bc he is simply gorgeous. I had the courage to leave my jerk of a babies father bc I knew I could do better. My life changed because of my surgery. It was a long hard journey but I made it and I wouldn't take it back. I don't regret it for one second and would do it all over again if I had to.
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