Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
Seems like I have been waiting all my life for this change.
When they came out with that show extreme make over plastic surgery, my spouse and I sent in a video this was way before I knew anything about gastric bypass surgery. Anyhow we were both over wight and he needed a new smile. I since then left him and lost over 100lbs. It is funny how one day you know you want to change and you try everything to do so but then you give up. Well at least that is what I did. I have been fighting with my weight for 13 years now. I mean to the extreme I would go from 300lbs to 150lbs and then a year later back up to 250lbs and then down to 170lbs. It was a lot of work keeping myself down. My highest weight was 326lbs and lowest from 11 to 21 other then when pregnet was between 105lbs to 120lbs. I don't really over eat nor eat things that are bad for me. My biggest thing was pop. (been a year since I had one now). When I was young and a teen I was very athletic and popular I never had any problems with my weight and was a little vain. Never seen myself as a large woman. My mom was always heavy and that was a big fear of mine as a child. I never wanted to be like this. My mom says that my weight is post dramatic stress syndrome. I guess I can see where she could see that. I was abused for 4 years of my younger life by my children's dad. He was a very crazy man. He raped me and beat me daily. I died 7 times from him drowning me and choking me out till I was not breathing. Every time I woke up I would cry because I rather be dead then go through another day. I know, why did I stick around so long if it was so bad? well He had locks on everything and we had a baby. He would take my son everywhere he would go cause he knew I would not live with out him. He was right and then finally one day while I was pregnet with my 2nd son he told me that he was going to beat me if I did not have the house cleaned by the time he got out of the shower. Now understand I am 8 months pregnet have a 3 year old eating making a mess and we just had a party the night before. There was no way I could get it done nor take another beating. As soon as he got into the shower I grabbed my son and the keys for the door, I ran never looking back again.
Again I see where my mom may think that I try to hid myself and have a low selfasteam. But I do not feel that way to myself. I am a fighter I know how to survive and I feel like that is all I have been doing since I ran out that door. I was a young mom and raised my boys the best that I could. I was remind of him everyday. But it is what it is and I just keep going so that they would not turn into that man I feared so much. My boys are now teens and I mean they are not perfect teens but no worse then the topical one. I love my boys so much and I lived for them for so many years. It is finally 4 me time I am still so young and have a full life a head of me I want to make sure I will be around to enjoy it. I started this journey March 2011. Yep it has been a year. Unlike the U.S. we here in Canada have to go through a hole lot and then even after all that can still be told no. We have to loss weight and keep it up. We have appointment after appointment to make sure we are healthy enough physically and mentally. Then we finally meet our surgeon and he says yes you can have the surgery or no you need to work harder or just a simple no. Let me tell yah when I met the surgeon I was so shaky I was scared he would turn me away and when I left with my optifast and a date I cried all the way home. Finally all my hard work will pay off. I received me surgery Date in January it has been the longest month I have ever felt. I am now 20 days away from my 2 week pre op diet and a month off from my surgery. I know this month will go by so fast. I am excited I finally get the new life I have been waiting on but also so scared of change. I have 3 children of my own now + a step son. I cant wait till I can run around and play basketball with them outside. I cant wait to not sweat every time I walk just out the door. Life will be so much better and know my family and I will make every moment count.
March 2012 -238lbs
Aug 2012 -230lbs
Jan 2013 -225lbs
Feb 28 2013 -213lbs
Surgery April 4 2013
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
The worst thing about being over weight is noting being comfortable in my own body, I have no energy and I have missed out on a lot of activitys with my boys.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
Surgery date is April 4th looking forward to playing basketball and racing my boys who are now teens down the road this summer
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