Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
I have struggled with my weight since I was about 7 or 8 years old. Metabolism, at least, high metabolism does not run on either sides of my family. I was only 123 lbs when I graduated high school (20 years ago). I got married when I was only 20 years old. I had gotten up to 192 lbs when I was married to my 1st husband. I got married too young, thought I was in love, but depression had a lot to do with it. I went to a bariatric clinic & ended up losing about 50 lbs. I felt like I was on top of the world. I got pregnant at this time, but lost the baby only after 6 weeks. It was devastating but as I look back it was a blessing. I wasn't ready & my (then) husband definitely wasn't. I was only 23 at the time. The depression made me start eating again & I had gained the weight back. I've taken diet pills, been to the bariatric clinics, & yo-yo dieted most of my life. I finally reached the highest weight I had ever been since I've been with my husband (now). I gained 75 lbs. since I've been with him. I started isolating myself, eating like there was no tomorrow and finally could not move around like I used to. We don't have a very good marriage because he doesn't communicate with me. There have been other things that have happened in the last 7 years that we've been together that have also contributed to my weight gain. I finally had had enough. I was tired of feeling tired & depressed all the time. I have 2 boys & they need their Mama. That's when I decided it was time to do something permanent. I was tired of trying to diet & just fail every time.
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
Having to go to special stores for clothes.
Not being able to feel good about yourself (naked or not).
Feeling like everyone is staring at you.
Depression.
Not being able to enjoy the things you would be able to if you were smaller.
Not being able to run & play with my boys.
No energy.
Not feeling comfortable around other people.
Isolation.
Feeling tired all the time.
Not happy.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
Too soon to tell. I'm post op. I had my surgery on May 7th, 2012. I am enjoying watching the scale go down :-) My journey has only just begun.
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