Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
I have struggled with my weight almost all my life, I have never been able to look into a mirror and be happy with what I saw. I heard "you have a pretty face" as the only compliment I ever heard. Growing up with a mom who was never over the 115 pound mark and a sister who was also skinny and beautiful was very hard. I felt like the ugly duckling and I hope one day I can be that beautiful swan. My mom never understood why I was so big, she always took my sister shopping for the best name brand clothes and I got whatever would fit. I always felt like a outcast and hated going anywhere because I was afraid of people judging me. Still today I hate to go into public because people are mean and judgmental. I am almost 35 years old and almost 400 pounds, at my heaviest I was 430 pounds and that was around the time my Father died. It took me about 10 years to make the decision to have gastric bypass surgery but now that I have I feel hope, hope for my future and I want a great future.
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
The worst thing about being overweight is not being able to be the kind of Mother I want to be. My children deserve a great Mom, and being overweight limits me is almost every aspect in my life. I want them to be proud to call me Mom and not embarrassed. I want to be able to be active with them in life and not just sit by the sidelines and watch their childhood pass me by. I want to be a better wife to my wonderful husband because he too deserves the best. On a more personal note, I look in the mirror and the first thought in my head is disgust and hate. I try to be the best person I can be and I feel if the person on the outside matched the person on the inside my quality of life would be so much better.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
surgery is April 2, 2012, it has now been 6 months since my surgery and I have lost 89 pounds. I feel like I have more energy and I can finally see the difference in the mirror. I am beginning to be more active and I told my self when I loose 100 pounds I would join a gym to help me on my journey. I wish I would have done this surgery 10 years ago, I could of been living my life then and starting to live it now.
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