Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
Feeling Sad, Depressed, Ashamed and Defeated losing to say "I will NEVER gain it again" over & over again only to regain, feeling the shame & humiliation of what others must be thinking. Hiding, not wanting going out where people, family & friends of the past can see me. Not wanting to try on clothes so I wear the same thing over & over again because it is comfortable & I think it is the most slimming but at the same time feeling people are thinking "Wow doesn't she ever change her clothes". Hiding in the back, darkest corner of the restaurant to eat, hoping people won't notice me as I feel they are thinking "She could go without eating for several months" or "What a Pig! Always feeling like the biggest person in the room.
Laughing and making fun of myself around people while I am really crying on the inside... Crying myself to sleep.... and to think people think we choose to be this way.
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
All the medication's for the co-morbidities, Diabetes, HBP, HC, HT, DA,GERD, and not knowing what is worse on my body, the health issues or the medications I take to control them as they are now effecting my kidneys & liver. The pain it takes to move & the struggle to breath as the fat controls my body. Looking in the mirror... and seeing physically what I have become. I feel the same on the inside, pretend I am the same person I use to be while out talking and having fun until I come cross the mirror in front of me to realize that person I remember in my head is no longer me. The fat has taken over and disfigured my body to becoming rolls of disgusting fat. And people think we choose this.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
I have not had my surgery yet but I know my life will be wonderful, although I realize it will still not be easy and I face many challenges. I have to follow the direction of my Dr.'s to stay healthy and not to regain, as this too is only a tool. I have fought for this for over 10 year's now and only dream of how it will be, but one day it will happen if it is "God's Will" and I know My Life will change for the better.... I get butterflies with just the thought... my smiley face will go from 3 chin's :))) to 1 :) .... I am 56 years, '5.4.75", 257lbs & fighting for the DS... As I look at everyone's Before & After's I am so jealous.. Congratulations! may you all "Shine in your Beauty" :)))
HAD MY DS ON MARCH 30,2012.... Coming along slowly but surely. Even with knowing what will be expected of you and doing it are too different things. Sip, sip, sip & walk, walk, walk :") All will be worth it in the end.
ammisha
