Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
What battle with weight control? I just got used to the fact that I was fat, I didn't do anything about it, I had absolutely no drive to do anything to better myself....I had no control. One day I looked at my kids asking me to come and play with them and I just started to cry, because I couldn't. I secluded myself from everything and everyone. My own husband felt he hadnt married the same person he fell in love with. My poor kids were without a mom for some time while I laid around on the couch and did nothing with them or at all. It felt awful!
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
Not doing everyday things. Not going outside because I didn't want to run into people I once knew. Not swimming/skating/exercising because "I was too fat". Not shopping for clothes with my friends, not fitting into air plane seats, wearing jogging pants on a daily basis cause lets face it, who cares. Not going to the movies or out for dinner because the seats are too small and I don't want people looking at me while I eat because all they will think is "she's already fat enough" Having my kids be embarrassed of me at their school or having my son tell me "mom, can dad and I go to Wonderland, I know you can't go cause you won't fit on the rides"(broke my heart for the last time) Those are just a few things that would run through my head. There were so many more but I think that explains some of the worst things.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
Today (January 10th) I am almost 3 months post op, down 45ish pounds since October 19th, 2011. I am at the gym every morning for a min. of an hour, something that iv never been able to do before and I'm not just talking about doing the work at the gym, I'm talking about actually going to the gym....I physically wasn't able to go due to being so scared about what people would think of me. Now I couldn't give a crap who's there, something I hardly even notice any more. I look and feel so much better. Although I cant really see the difference people are telling me I look much better. Clothes are fitting much better, I have gone from a jean size 24 to an 18 and my uniforms have all been gone from a 2x-3x to an XL, which feels awesome!
MrsJButler
