Describe your behavioral and emotional battle with weight control before learning about bariatric surgery.
It all started on 09/03/46 when my mother was told "Congratulations, you have a beautiful healthy bounching baby girl, birth weight nine pounds, eleven and one-half ounces"! ! ! Little did I know at that time that this would be the basis of my entire life, larger then average.
I remember while growing up, that I was always the largest girl in my class, and taller too. I learned at a very young age how to "defend myself" by not letting others hurt me in what would be said to me. This defense mechanism remained with me throughout grade school, junior high school, high school and throughout my adult life.
In life one often makes "bad choices" as they feel they must "settle for less", this could be in relationships and/or the work force. As an obese person you are discriminated against in job opportunities, relationships and even treated as a second class citizen by your family. Your family members are oftened ashamed or embarrassed at your presence.
Often times obesity is "inherited", not in my case. My parents were of average size as were my two brothers and one sister. They never had a weight problem. I was the only one in my family that was obese.
At the age of 15 years, my sister who is eight years older then me, trying to help, and only with the best intentions, on a Saturday morning made a trip with me to down town Boston, MA to a Rexall Drug Store, after reading an add in the newspaper about a diet aid that would help one lose weight. Since this medication could be purchased over-the-counter in a public drug store, what could possibly be the harm? The name of the pills were called "Regimen Tablets", they were guaranteed to make you lose weight, they were on sale. We bought it.
This was my first experience with "Diet Pills". I took this medication for three weeks and could not believe the outcome! Wow! I had lost 30 pounds in three weeks! Soon after that I started to pass blood from my rectum and vomited blood. I was hospitalized. My doctor was horrified at the findings. He immediately contacted the pharmacy where these pills were purchased and was told that the company that manufactured the medication went out of business. I remained in the hospital for one week. The pills contained "eggs" from parasites, much like a tape worm. It was determined that the blood I was seeing was from worms eating into my intestines. Pretty Gross!. Any way I survived.
I then decided to try other modes of weight loss. There was Metrical, Seago (liquid diet drinks), Aydes candies in three delicious flavors, caramel, chocolate and mint chocolate. You would eat two of these candies with a hot beverage, tea or broth and this was to help curb your appetite. This would work for about ten pounds or so, hense the beginning of yo-yo dieting.
After high school graduation at 165 pounds, I then graduated to various reducing diets such as Weight Watchers, Dolly Parton, The Seven Day Diet, where you would eat only one type of food per day, all day long such as oranges on Monday, green beans on Tuesday, brown rice on Wednesday, etc. This was not too bad though, over a five year period I lost 90 pounds the first year and gained the weight back; 85 pounds the third year, and oh well we are back to the yo-yo dieting again. Also tried various gym memberships, Trim Studio, Eileen Feather Reducing Salon, and various others.
When I lived in California I joined Jenny Craig several times and lost 40 pounds and gained the weight back.
In 1992 while living in California, working at a hospital, I had heart palpitations one night. I did not think much of it at the time. This happended several more times throughout the night. The next morning while at work it happened again. My supervisor insisted that I be seen in the emergency room. I said I would rather not, but instead saw my OB/GYN physician in the next building. He examined me, listened to my heart. He then started to palpate my throat and asked me who my endocrinologist was. I told him that I did not have one, he immediately referred me to one. I did not know that heart palpitations could be caused by hypothyroidism. As it turned out it was determined that since my late teens through adulthood I had a thyroid gland that was not functioning. I was then placed on thyroid medication for which I will have to take for the rest of my life. My thyroid is now diseased and may possibly have to be surgically removed. Three months after being placed on thyroid medication it was suggested I try a new diet drug called "Phen-Fen" This terrified me. I had an immediate flash back of 40 years prior with my first experience with diet pills. I related this information to my endocrinologist, and he informed me there was nothing to worry about, after all this was approved by the FDA. I took this drug on and off for four years. As it turned out the endocrinologist was wrong. I had an echocardiogram on 09/01/02 that shows I now have two damaged heart valves. There was one more final trial of diet pills in March of 2003, Meridia. I will not do diet pills again. It is time to try something else, more definitive and hopefully will work.
I have researched bariatric surgery for the past six years and it is all that I can think about. This is my last hope for hopefully experiencing some normalcy in what it would be like to live without high blood pressure, GERD, sleep apnea, heel spur pain, ankle, knee and hip pain, enjoy life more. Bariatric surgery will be the next step.
What was (is) the worst thing about being overweight?
Aside from being looked down upon, discrimated against and not being able to enjoy life, I cannot think of very many worse things that could happen. The biggest fear is the deterioration of my health and not being able to be independent of my normal activities of daily living.
If you have had weight loss surgery already, what things do you most enjoy doing now that you weren't able to do before?
Freedom of movement without pain. Being able to walk more then one block without becoming short of breath. Shopping for smaller size clothing.