Question:
I'm more discouraged about my health now while waiting, anyone else?.
Now that I've decided on WLS I find my current health more and more discouraging. Especially since it continues to worsen while I have to wait for pcp, BTC and INS to get it all together so I can start living again. I don't really have anyone to talk to just needed to share and see if others find this to be a problem. I take prozac and have been for years. I think my DH would love to lock me in a room by myself because I tend to get easily upset about all I can't do or his not helping the way I want. — Dawn Y. (posted on October 26, 2001)
October 26, 2001
Oh Dawn, I sure do feel for you. Once I was approved, and waiting the
almost 3 months to a surgery date, I got more and more discouraged. So, I
did two things. I asked my doctor to increase my Prozac dose...that helped
a lot. Then I started doing some things to get ready for the surgery.
Started trying different protein shakes. Ordered the $1.50 samples from
VitaLady.com and decided which I liked best. Started about a month pre op
on 2 shakes a day. It really helped my energy. Also started taking my two
Bugs Bunny Complete sugar free vitamins/day. Forced myself to start a
walking program, which I hated, but that's ok. I decided I can hate every
minute, but I'm doing it anyway. I was still impatient with myself, but at
least I was doing something proactive. I found I grew disgusted with
myself when I looked in the mirror. Well, all that changed, as I'm one
month post op today! I came through the surgery wonderfully, I was down 21
pounds at 23 days, I'm walking two miles a day (and not hating it as much!)
and feeling better than I have in years. Your day will come. It can't
hurt to get your body ready for this big change, so why not start now?
Best wishes. Yvonne
— Yvonne R.
October 26, 2001
I deffinately can relate... Getting my insurance approval made me take a
hard look at what was wrong with me because of my weight AND write about
it, I got depressed, it seemed to get worse.. I'm still waiting for my
surgery date and keeping in mind that relief is around the corner, it's the
only thing that gets me through the day....
— Elizabeth D.
October 26, 2001
Oh my God, I was going to post almost the exact same thing, I've gained 35
more pounds since I decided on WLS (partly because I stopped smoking) now
I'm approved but my surgery is delayed until I can come up with $3000 for
my Doctor's program fee and I'm freaking out. I don't even want to go out
in public anymore my doctor increased my anti-depressant and all I can do
is obsess about my health and not do anything, now is the worth time I've
ever been through in my life, I feel for all of you.
Diane
— Diane B.
October 26, 2001
Hi, Before surgery, or actually before I even thought of surgery, I wasn't
really aware of how big I was, I mean yes I knew I was severely overweight,
but sometimes when you look in the mirror, you don't see what everyone else
see's. Well I started looking into surgery , knowing my horrible family
health history, and after my first consult with my surgeon, I didn't want
to leave the house, in fear of embarrassment. I can't explain it , but
after I knew I was approved and the date was set, I just started realizing
how huge I really was, and I started to be so disgusted with myself I would
not even look in a full lenght mirror. I guess it took going to the
surgeon and having him agree with me that surgery was a good idea to
realize that I looked really bad.
— [Anonymous]
October 26, 2001
I don't have an answer, but I just wanted to tell yo I feel the same way.
I am becoming very intollerent of my weight related problems. I am sick
and tired of being tired and achy all the time and I guess I am letting
myself feel these things that would have been too much to bear when I
believed there was no answer. The end is in sight now, so I can let myself
see myself,and the reality of what I look like and feel like. I think we
all know the reality underneath, or we would not all be needing the
anti-depressants! We are just letting it surface, knowing the end is in
sight.
— CaroleAnd
October 26, 2001
I also know how you feel. Today my surgeon faxed in my paper work to
Aetna. My nurse said I should hear in 1 week.
Oh my gosh!!!! 1 week, and hen I can pick a surgery date. Since I live in
Houston there are MANY MANY WL doctors/clinics. I have chosen a LAP
surgeon. He does many
differnt LAP's other than WLS. I can just about pick any
date, because he doesn't have a waiting list!! As I came in
the door today I realized my poor tiny size 6 1/2 feet are
hurting so much from carrying around all this weight for
so many years, my knees hurt especially when it's cold
and damp. I have gained 10 # while waiting for approval,my
journey started back in Feb. Now that I'm really close
I am throughly discusted w/ myself. I don't want to buy
another BIG top!!! but I'm sure everyone is tired of
seeing me in the same ol clothes. You are NOT alone.
I do have a very supportive hubby, who has loved me through
all this weight. And he is excited, because I'm excited,
I thank God for that. Good Luck and like the other posters
said you can always come here to talk.
— Cindee A.
October 26, 2001
Dawn, you are definitely not alone. I am 10 months post op now and down 93
pounds! However, for the two or three months immediately before my surgery,
my health seemed to just keep rapidly declining. It seemed to get much
worse the closer my surgery date came. I told my therapist at one point
about a month before my surgery that I wasn't even sure I would live to see
my surgery date! That is how terrible I felt. My diabetes, which had been
semi-controlled, seemed to get worse, my asthma was at an all time bad
level, and I could barely get out of bed in the morning my depression had
gotten so bad. I truly wasn't sure I would live long enough to have the
surgery. So I don't think it is uncommon to find your current health
problems discouraging. Just remember, there is light at the end of the
tunnel. Try to hang in there and realize you are not alone. Many of us have
gone there before you and will be happy to help you along the way. If you
need to talk, feel free to email me at [email protected]. Good luck. Maria
— Maria H.
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