Question:
At first I worried about not getting insurance...now that I got insurance...

I have been working on having this surgery for about 2 years now. I finally got to a point where I realize I still have hope and now my worries are killing me more than ever before!!At first I worried about not getting insurance. Now that I have insurance, I am worried about being approved AND my mind is jumping to other worse things. Like IF I do get approved for the surgery and they do their pre-ops and find something that will prevent them from operating and if that doesn't happen, what if I get in under the knife and they find something wrong with me and sew me back up again without operating on me. I think this is the hardest thing I've ever had to go through..Are these worries normal? Does anybody feel the way I do or is there something seriously wrong with me??!?!? How can I prevent any of these things from happening?!?!I am going crazy wondering what my future holds. My condition is getting worse everyday and if I don't have this surgery soon, I am going to either go crazy first or die!!    — Samar M. (posted on May 26, 2002)

May 25, 2002
I think your worries are very normal - I went through the same - except a little faster since my insurance didn't require pre-approval. My biggest fear was that something would happen that would prevent it from happening! But just try to recognize your fears as what they are - normal on the road to making this decision. Just be confident in your doctor and keep remembering your new future! It will happen for you. I have lost 135 pounds since 7/5/01.
   — Gay D.

May 26, 2002
You sound a lot like me. I was never worried about having the surgery - I was not afraid of it at all. What I was worried about was NOT having the surgery. I didn't relax until I woke up in the recovery room in pain. When the recovery room nurse told me that the surgery was text book and that I would soon be a shadow of my former self, then I began to believe it was real. That was almost six months ago and it has been a "dream trip". I never in my wildest imagination dreamed that I could lose over 100 pounds in less than 6 months. I had lost 100 at 5 months, 1 week. I will not weigh again until June 8 when I go to my monthly support group meeting. Can't wait to see what the scales say then. Best of luck to you on your journey. Keep up the positive thoughts.
   — Patty_Butler

May 26, 2002
Samar, I think your feelings are normal. We all had the fear of failure before the surgery--why not, we had always failed in the past. Try and let go of those negative thoughts and think positive affirmative thoughts of what you will and can do with this tool!! It is such an awsome journey. Difficut at times but awsome as you watch you body get smaller and smaller. Good luck--you're going to make it!!
   — Pam K.