Question:
Has anyone been obese so long that they can't remember what they look like thin?

This may sound really lame, but I have lost the same 50 to 100 lbs over and over and over. I weighted 160# the day I was married and that was 40# overweight and 36 years ago, my children have NEVER seen me thin. I am 5'3" and have weighted over 300# for 21 years. I am very excited but at the same time I don't have a clue what I will look like. Has anyone else had this sort of problem?    — [Anonymous] (posted on February 21, 2002)


February 20, 2002
I was never thin. I went from beihg a chubby babv to a 370 pound woman. Since I'd been obese all my life, I have no concept of my self as a thin person. Folks here might find this hard to understand...but...I don't even want to be very thin. The very thought of being a size 8 or 10 turns me off. I had my wls for two reasons. My health was rapidly going downhill and my weight was escalating. I knew I'd never see fifty if I didn't lose a whole lot of weight. My original wls goal was just to get down to 220. I did that (sadly regained 20 pounds...) and now my personal goal is to get to 195. I'm doing great and expect to get there by 7/1 (God willing..). But, I fear getting smaller than that. That's the size I was in high school and feel that 195 (size 14/16 for me) is the perfect size for me. I love my vavavavoom (as my boyfriend says...) curves and I can't imagine *me* as a skinny girl. People in my support group think I need counselling. My boyfriend thinks that there's nothing wrong with my choosing to remain a bit overweight if that makes me feel happy and self confident. I don't know what to think.
   — [Anonymous]

February 20, 2002
I was a plump baby and a fat toddler. MO entire life. Having lost 120 pounds and near chart weight my appearance in mirrors still bothers me but I am adjusting to that stranger looking back at me. I now weigh less than I did in 9th grader or so, which is unreal. As another post op told me.... You will look like you were supposed to. Somehow that helped a lot at the time.
   — bob-haller

February 21, 2002
This does not sound lame. I have lost about 155 lbs. in 5 1/2 months with about 90 more to go. I now weigh less than I did when I graduated from high school. I am 30 now. I was wearing size 14 in 4th grade. I remember that because it was hard to find a girl scout uniform in that large size. Considereing I was much shorter then, I have always been overweight. I am not sure what I will look like at my goal of 170 (I'm 5'11" so this is a perfect weight for me), I'm not even sure if I will ever reach that weight, but I am determined. To Annoymous below, I think your feelings are fine and healthy. If I never lost another pound, I would still be happy with what I've done as I am much healthier and happier than I have been in years. I don't think you need therapy.
   — Danielle M.

February 21, 2002
Funny you should ask this question. I was remembering when I was doing the hypnosis thing for weight control, and he told you to imagine yourself at your ideal weight. I could never grasp that concept!! Still can't. I can remember when I lost 125 pounds and what I looked like then but thats as far as my imagination will stretch. Good luck,Diane
   — Diane D.

February 21, 2002
I never ever felt thin. I wasn't FAT until my adult years, but even when I was a teen, I felt horribly fat, because I had very large breasts. I was wearing size 14s, even when I was on pom pom team. I had breast reduction surgery 5 years ago, so after my RNY on March 17, I'll hopefully learn what it's like to feel at least ALMOST thin! ;) It will be a new experience, and I hope it comes true.
   — photographer45

February 21, 2002
Hi, The last time I weighed 150, which is my goal, I was 16 years old, I'm now 29! As I get closer to my goal I look at my body with amazement. I realize that no, I'm not a big chested person LOL, and other little things that have changed dramatically with WLS. Things I haven't seen or realized in YEARS!! And I'm with you, my kids have NEVER seen me thin. I've always weighed over 300 lbs at 5'4 341 at surgery. The other day I was driving my daughter to school, and she was looking at my arms, she was like "Wow, mom your arms are getting thin, I can see your bones ". LOL. It has been weird for my kids, family and I to see the transformation of what I'm really supposed to look like. I have about 65 to 70 lbs to go, and I'm still am not sure what the outcome of my bod will be. hehe. I wish you the best!! :)
   — Carey N.

February 21, 2002
Never have been thin. I weighed 158 pounds when I was 10 years old. I have no idea what I could look like under all of this. My best guess is to look at my sister, but she's 2 inches shorter than me.
   — Toni C.

February 21, 2002
The last time I was a normal weight, I believe, was at my Christening. Even then, all of that lacy frill on my gown added a few pounds! Even at 3 weeks of age, I couldn't win. LOL
   — Donna L.

February 21, 2002
I have never been a normal size. No...I take that back. I weighed 7 lbs 6 oz at birth and was pretty normal until I was three. After that my weight rose dramatically...120 pounds by the age of 6, 200 pounds by the age of 10, 328 by the age of 14. My top weight was 425, but I "only" weighed 404 when I had surgery. I'm now 284 and it's amazing to be smaller than I was in high school. My goal is to hit 199 and actually be smaller than I was at the age of 10. I can't even imagine what that's going to be like, but I know I'm going to make it.
   — Cynthia B.

February 21, 2002
Thanks for posting a question I wanted an answer to also. I've been thinking about this myself and realized I haven't been normal weight since before I hit puberty. So unless this surgery also takes off about 30 years I have no idea what I might look like afterwards, but boy I can't wait to find out LOL. Pre-op still researching.
   — Elva C.

February 21, 2002
I just checked everyone's pictures that had a link to their profile, and had a picture on it. Well, to let you all know.....you are all beautiful now, you are going to be incredible when you're done taking your weight off. Now you can relax and enjoy it! Aren't you glad I checked for you? LOL Good Luck to everyone!
   — NicoleG

February 22, 2002
Since I have been overweight most of my life, I don't really have anything to compare too. My lowest weight I remember is 160 in high school.. thought I was really heavy then. Now I am at 157 and realize that maybe 160 wasn't so bad and that probably I was way too hard on myself back then. Sure, I was bigger than most of my friends, but in my mind I was gigantic when in truth, it just wasn't that bad. At 157, I feel and look pretty darn good now!! What will you look like? I don't know... but you will feel much better.
   — susie K.

February 22, 2002
I can totally relate to what you are saying. I too was always chubby as a kid. I was a womans size 12 in 4th grade, a size 16/18 going into 7th grade and by the time I was in 9th, I was up to a size 26. I was never thin and I know I never will be either. I just don't want to weigh 450+ pounds anymore. I would be so happy to only weigh 200 pounds. I doubt I would ever even want to be any thinner than that anyways. I do like having curves and being a bbw. I just can't stand the physical pain that I have in my back and my knees when I do something as simple as walk. It is excrutiating at times. I want to be able to go shopping, or anywhere for that matter, and not care how far I have to park away from the building because I can walk it pain-free. I am only 29 years old. If this is the life I have at 29, I definately don't want to know what it could be like at 39 or 49 if I am not able to get this surgery.
   — ImANewDee

February 22, 2002
It's funny, I was just discussing this with my friends. I was ALWAYS the fat kid. I think I remember hitting 200lbs. somewhere in 6th grade. I hit 100lbs. in 2nd grade. When I finally stopped growing taller, I was probably about 235lbs., and that was my freshman year in highschool. That is the thinnest I have ever been, so I don't know at all what I would look like a normal size. I've been trying to pull the fat back from my face and chin, trying to figure out how I will look when the fat is gone. I really don't know how it will look! I fear that maybe I will be ugly with the fat gone- like my face will be a funny shape, or it will make my nose look big with less face there. I am really pretty scared. I don't do well with attention from men, and the attention was embarrassing enough when I was at 250lbs. That scares me, because it will probably be worse if I am thinner. It is going to take a lot of getting used to, that's for sure. But that is what my counselor is for. =}
   — Jennifer Y.

February 22, 2002
YES, YES, YES!!! I just had to respond to this one .... I too was always the "fat kid". I was put on my first medically supervised low calorie diet at the tender age of 7! Although my birth certificate shows a normal birth weight, I have been fat as far back as I can remember. When I was 11, I was put on prescription diet pills and lost down to 118. This is probably the closest I ever was to "normal" ... I estimate that my height at the time was around 5 ft. and I remember that I wore size 9-10. As was often the case with the amphetamine diet pills prescribed back then, after a few months, they no longer had the same effect. I very rapidly gained back everything that I had lost, plus a bunch. I hit 200 for the first time at 16 ... lost down to about 170 on the Atkins diet (yeah, that one's been around a while), and had gained back up to 225 by my wedding day, 3 months before my 18th birthday. I was a fat kid, a fat teenager, a fat young adult, and a fat middle aged woman. I am still technically morbidly obese, but I have lost over half of my excess weight. My face looks totally different. I always thought I had a round face, average nose, and smallish eyes. I was wrong on all counts ... my face is actually heart shaped, I have BIG eyes, and my nose is on the largish size too! The last time I was at my Mom's to visit, my son and I went into the grocery store while Mom stayed in the car. When we came out of the store, she didn't recognize me at first. She said for a minute she wondered who was that woman with her grandson! It's kind of neat when your own MOTHER doesn't recognize you! I am not thin now, and doubt if I ever will be ... but I feel and look at lot better than I did before. I can totally relate to your dilemma and will cross my fingers for you that all the "surprises" that are in store for you as you lose weight are pleasant ones!
   — Lynn T.

March 6, 2002
I have always been overweight. Since I was about 4 1/2.. So i really do not know what it is like to be thin.. I guess I will find out soon huh?
   — [Deactivated Member]

March 6, 2002
I grew up in a rough environment (nuff said) and was thin until I went into foster care at the age of 10. I was finally being fed and oh boy did I like it! From that day forward it's been a struggle. I was "thin" for a couple of years in high school...my 2nd foster mother was a yo-yo dieter herself and pushed me very hard to get thin and stay thin. It helped that she also pushed me into exercise...I was on the high school swim team for 3 years. I look at my high school yearbook now and think, hmm...perhaps I'll just be an older version of her. The difference is that this time around I am doing it myself and I'm doing it FOR ME. No one pushing or criticizing. - Anna
   — Anna L.

April 2, 2002
Yes, I am 25 and I don't remeber ever being thin. I am starting to get involved into the surgery. I have my first consutation coming up. I hope this works nothing else has.
   — Lona H.

May 16, 2002
My mother and I had this same discussion the other day. I haven't been a "normal" weight since I can remember. In high school I was big, not even sure how much I weighed, but when I look at those pictures I think she wasn't so bad after all and wished I was at that weight. All the posts about wondering what your face will look like kind of freaked me out. I have a triple chin (lol), no neck and I will be startled to see my face as I'm sure everyone else will be. I have an attractive face though I believe :-) and as one of the posters responded being nervous about the attention from men, that too bothers me as I don't know how I may respond to it.
   — Devera R.

May 16, 2002
Discovering what was under all of "that" has been one of the most fun parts of this journey. I have gotten such a kick out of seeing my body change. I watched as bones gradually re-emerged & then became more prominent. I went around asking friends & family if I could feel their bones so I could compare with mine. They are nice & mostly indulged me.. :) I have collarbones, ribs, shins, hipbones...When I pick up something heavy, you can see the tendons in my wrist & forearm...they were there all along--who knew!?! My kids had never seen me as a normal-sized person, either. Now I have been normal weight for a year. I didn't really know what to expect, either. I wish I looked younger & I wish I didn't have so much loose skin, but I am really OK with how I look now and I LOVE how I feel now!
   — Kathy W.

June 3, 2002
I'm 60 years old and I was the fattest kid in the class in grade school. Do I remember what its like to be thin? The only time I was thin was as an infant when they accused my poor Mother of trying to starve me because I was allegic to milk. Of course once they got me to eating and gaining weight there was no stopping until I reached my current weight of 357 lbs.
   — Shirley J.

July 7, 2002
I have been overweight since I was 9 years old, now at 30, I am excited to see what it feels like to be healthy, and not fat! I told my husband, he was going to feel like he had a different woman!!
   — RebeccaMS

July 7, 2002
I too do not know what it's like to be thin. I was a "chubby/ chunky little girl" when I was growing up. I was wearing a size 18/20 my freshman year of high school. I weighed 239 until I was 19yr. Right now at the age of 30, I weigh around 274. I now have diabetes & high blood pressure. As many of you know when you have always been overweight, you dream of the day when you will be thin. I hope and pray that my insurance company will approve this sugery. I have told a few people at work about this sugery and they all say I should be happy with myself... I tell them that you were once thin in your life and you have experienced what it's like to be thin, I on the other hand have never been thin nor will I ever get the chance to be thin without this sugery, I have dieted all my life and I want to take this chance to be thin....They usually remain quiet....FOr all those that are chubby,overwieght, slightly large,or chunky, take the chance and try maybe your insurance company will say YESS once we become thin there will be a different life for us.
   — Martha L.

July 13, 2002
I came into this world weighing almost 9 pounds and I have never stopped growing! I have dieted and exercised and the lowest weight I ever reached was 180 (size 16) when I lived in Calif. for one year and lost over 135 lbs. while I was there. I moved back to Ohio and gain it all back - plus in 6 months. I am pre-op (no definate date yet) but I can't wait to have the surgery and to see myself thin. I keep trying to imagine what I will look like, but my imagination isn't that vivid. Guess I'll just have something to keep looking forward to.
   — Mary E.

September 16, 2002
I'm not sure if its easier for me, or worse, because i have never been thin. I have always been a big girl, so i'm very excited to see what kind of woman is hiding beneath the layers of fast. I'm sure that you'll love the person you will find :)
   — Christina S.

September 16, 2002
*big smile* me too...
   — Lisa C.

September 16, 2002
Very interesting question. You know now that I am 7 weeks post op I am noticing the weight loss more and more every day. My clothes are starting to fall off me. I can't believe that I am saying "this is too big!". This is something that I never thought I would say, but it is starting to feel very good every time that I say it. I have been over weight since I was about 8 and have gotten bigger and bigger every year since. I never thought that I would be normal but I am now begining to see that I will be and I can't wait. My face only has 2 chins now instead of 3 and my boobs have deflated a bit. Anyone who is pre op go for it mate, you wont regret it
   — Mrs Larisa M.

September 16, 2002
Your post really make my stop and think...I realized that I have never seen myself thin....except at birth..LOL. I am told that I look like my mom (who has NEVER been overweight a day in her life)..so I had her find some pics of herself at my age....I have figured out for the first time in my life that I am pretty!!! I just cant see it yet!! ;) open RNY 10.15.02...28 days left
   — cherokey55

September 16, 2002
i have no memory of being thin . i have been morbidly obese all my life. at 8 yrs old i was first time i was told my weight 220 lbs. i have always tried to lose weight never seemed to lose weight even when i was a teen. surgery in november, wish me luck.
   — Delores (DeeDee) Torgerson

October 20, 2002
i have never ever been thin i have no idea how i will feel or look..i have wanted this for so many years im afraid that once im down to the weight i like something bad will happen just coz i seem to have bad luck..lol..silly i know..
   — christine S.

October 27, 2002
Hi. I can remember a boy I went to school with always calling me "washtub" when I look back at pics from that time frame, I was not what I'd call fat...maybe slightly chubby...oh, to be that thin again...anyway...I find comfort in the fact that he is now a used car salesman wearing double knit pants and balding...smile...I on the other hand am starting to remember a time when I was small...after my first son was born and I had lost down to like 135 and really felt great...then I see a pic of myself wearing a size 8 dress and try to remember what it is like...I will find our soon...my RNY is on 10-9-02...I'm tempted to send the boy from my old school days a pic when I finish reaching my goal! Best wishes!
   — ajnewsom

October 27, 2002
It is real easy for me to remember what I looked like being thin. It was the day my mom brought me home from the hospital for the very first time. I weight less than 7 lbs. By the time was a toddler I was chubby and the rest is history. Just sign me, Never been thin. Surgery scheduled Nov. 14 Open RNY Yippee!!!
   — obsessivekompulsive

October 27, 2002
I dont ever remember being thin. Just like most of you I have struggled with my weight all of my life. Even my big successes still had me a good 40-50 pounds from my ideal weight. I went on my virtual model.com (www.mvm.com) and chose my physical attributes and put in my goal weight and I could hardly believe it!! I cant imagine looking like that! So I printed it and cut my head out of a picture and replaced the model's head and put it on my fridge. If I want to look like that I dont open the door.
   — dragonfly0125

October 27, 2002
Never been thin. Ever. Nor have my sisters, so I have no idea what I'll wind up looking like. Kind of exciting....
   — jen41766

October 27, 2002
I'm with you, Jennifer. never been thin.
   — Tamara K.

February 2, 2003
I started gaining weigt in 2nd grade...if it worn't for the pics to prove it I would have thought I was fat forever. But even so I have been most of my life. I still can't imagine beign thin at all. I am so excited about the surgery tho and can't wait to walk onto Wal-mart and buy off the rack. No more big womans stores (sigh, is it true?)
   — Jamie M.

March 8, 2003
I was born fat. I remember weighing 105 in third grade and everyone trying to see the scales....the humiliation started early in my life. When I was a senior in high school I weighted about 275....about what I do now. In college I lost down to 175 but all the guys considered me fat. So, if I get to my goal of 135, I won't know how to act!
   — Sharon B.

March 8, 2003
I think I was thin for about an hour when I was 7 yo, LOL. While I didn't hit obese until I was 20, the only time I was not overweight was during the first two years of my life when I was seriously ill (took two years for the docs to figure out I had salmonella food poisoning) and was actually underweight! I don't know what I will look like as a thin person, but I do have pictures of me at 30 lbs overweight between 16 and 19, and I'd settle for that again.
   — rebalspirit

March 25, 2003
I don't ever remember being thin. Nor do i remember ever weighing in the 100's. I hope some day I will though.
   — jko

March 25, 2003
This is cute, I think I might have been thin at birth, how-ever from the age of 11 (when I could fit into my mother skirts) up till now, I think I've been MO my whole entire life, I'm just now below 200, I'm at 176, from 303. In a size 13 pants ! Whoo Hoo ! I never knew what it felt like to be this size, seeing from age 11, I went from a size 10 to a size 28-30 over night.... Post op 10 months down 127 pounds
   — tannedtigress

March 25, 2003
In my case, I was actually born large. I was 6 weeks premature and still weighed close to 8 lbs. I gained 30 lbs in 6 weeks when I was 18 mos old. Been downhill ever since.
   — Kellie T.

March 25, 2003
I was MO by 4 years old. Never thin till just over a year ago. You will look like you should have if you were normal weight. That statement by a post op helped me pre op I hope it helps you.
   — bob-haller

March 25, 2003
I tell everybody I went from diapers to a size 24. Actually before my surgery I was wearing a size 30/32 and bulging out of that. I am now 10 months post op and lost 130 pounds and almost 100 inches. I have NEVER in my life been anywhere near thin. I now have an addiction to shopping since I can walk into any store and pick clothes off the rack and they fit. I still tend to grab the largest size, but I'm actually wearing a size 14 pants and Lg or XL shirt. I still look in the mirror and wonder who is looking back at me. for the longest time i looked in the mirror and saw 300+ pounds still looking back at me, but my head is finally catching up to my body...Best wishes to you!!!
   — candymom64

March 25, 2003
I have no memory at all of myself at a 'normal' weight, so this is all a voyage of discovery for me. just like you! Enjoy the ride! ~Peace
   — Joscelin

March 25, 2003
I have no idea what I will look like when I am "thinner". My body image is shot to heck. When I was in 6th grade, I was 4'11" and weighed 97 pounds. My family kept telling me how fat I was. I heard that all the time growing up. Finally in 7th grade I started to overeat (I can even remember the very lunch when I started - why did I do that? I don't have a clue.) Since then, I gained and gained. Losing 100 + pounds is going to be a huge adventure in the land of unknowns. I'm a little bit scared but I'm excited, too. Thank goodness for Obesityhelp.com!
   — Judy K.

April 29, 2003
You know when I was growing up, I was always the biggest girl in my class and so on...When I was a teenager I had no boyfriends because I thought I was too fat. After I was married 15 years I looked at a picture of myself when I was about 17 and I thought why did I spend my young life in fear of how I looked. In that picture I was HOT! So in regards to your question even when we look O.K. in our minds we still look fat. I am in the process of starting my journey and can't wait till I see the end result.
   — DeAnne H.

April 29, 2003
You know what's funny. In all of my dreams that I can see myself in, I'm thin. NEVER big. So I have to say that I see myself thin quite often. :)
   — Kim L.

June 22, 2003
My twin sister and I have been MO for most of our lives. We will be 40 this year. I do not ever remember a time when I was not overweight. Maybe in kindergarten. I don't think we were big at 5 years old. Anyway, we have both had the surgery in recent months and are looking forward to seeing what we look like in "normal" bodies. I think it will be okay as long as I don't grow a nose on my back or anything..lol.
   — Anastacha B.

October 8, 2003
I'm pre-op and have never been considered "thin". I was 145 in 6th grade, and graduated from high school at 185. After hitting 236, I started lifting weights in 1999 and lost 30 lbs within 6 months and gained a lot of lean muscle mass. Would you beleive that I actually thought I was "thin" at 200lbs?--Hey, that size 14 clothing did fit remarkably well on me:). I'm 264 now, and I don't know how I'll act when I get under 200lbs. Shucks--I might have to go to start therapy just to calm down! I can't wait!
   — HungryGirl B.

October 8, 2003
I weighed 10 pounds, 13 ounces at birth and went up from there lol. I've never been thin...in fact I am thinner now than I was in 6th grade. But I still look like me - just a narrower version. I've not had trouble with people not recognizing me - even after losing 200 pounds. Its been interesting for sure.
   — [Deactivated Member]

January 2, 2004
Thin? What is that? I was 275 in high school. Funny though how it is in different places now at 43? Mmm! I'm less than 2 weeks away.Yikes!
   — Beckie R.

January 6, 2004
Thin? were any of us thin? 9lbs 10oz at birth and still going strong. I was wearing clothes from the "fat" dept by the time I was 14. I admit I have good legs, even now they aren't too bad. Just weight until after the surury wwohooooooo!!
   — Cindi D.

January 28, 2004
yes; i'm not sure that i was ever a thin person. i don't really feel as i'm walking around that my body is wrong and that i need to do something, then i go to do something or look at myself in the mirror and wham there it is i am fat. I'm not sure how i will feel thin but can't wait to be able to do the things that i haven't been able to do,gardening,walking,traveling,my hubby being able to put his arms all the way around me. i think it will be a great time and that we will both enjoy it..........good luck and best wishes...............peggy va
   — Peggy R.

January 28, 2004
I completely understand your concerns. I was a size 16 1/2 chubby kindergartener, a size 32 fifth and sixth grader, lost tons of weight prior to eighth grade (I was on some real BAD diet pills but got down to my lowest weight 172lbs 5'7" size 16 - 18. I am now at high school / college weight size 18 - 20 5'10" 49 years old from a size 34 prior to surgery. I too have lost the same weight over and over again. It's a wonderful feeling yet very scary to have lost so much - I look in the mirror or especially at pictures and its just not me. I'm sure its the color I'm wearing or the angle the shot was taken at I could never have lost so much. I go to a counseler at once a month and it helps, also have a great support system with coworkers and friends. I try to tell myself this is the real me outside! Good luck to you and take care....
   — debmi

March 20, 2004
I'm very scared 2 I have been heavey ever since I could remember. Now I'm 27 somewhere between a size 26-30. I have a 9 year old son and have no Idea what I'm going to look like. I have a very wonderful and caring fiance who say's he doesn't care if I'm 340, 440 640 or a 140. But being this heavey and still feeling cute now. Im petrafied of losing my weight. I feel your pain on this but I have decided that I will be healthy and that is the most important thing. Just keep your head up and remember that your prolonging your life for your children. Brigette
   — Brigette A.

March 20, 2004
I have been very heavy for about 20 years now, I am 39 years old at this time. I am about 10 months post op now. My children have never seen me thin either. They really have not noticed the weight loss because they see me every day. (I am down 146 pounds at this time.) Your children, like mine, will love you no matter what. It will not matter to them if you are 140 pounds or 340 pounds, except you will be able to do more with them and will feel much better. My nine year old's only comment is that I am not as squooshy and comfortable to lay on as I used to be! LOL! I am not married, so I can't comment on that except to say that it should not matter to your spouse, either. At this point, I will be happy with where ever I end up on the scale. I feel much better. I also look better, but that was never my major goal. However, it is difficult to lose this much weight after so many years. For me it was a buffer between myself and other people. I went through a lot of counseling in the years prior to surgery due to abuse issues. If I hadn't, I would never have been ready for this. It takes guts for all of us to be out there and be more comfortable with our new selves. But think of it this way, it took guts for us to be out there and take the insults and attitudes of ignorant people before having the surgery. You will be surprised by how good you will look, even with the extra skin, etc., and, it's okay to be happy about it! Try not to be offended by people telling you how good you look. If you are like me, you think, "God, did I look that bad?". But I have come to the conclusion that we are beautiful now and will be beautiful after we reach our goals! God Bless.....
   — Catherine K.

July 1, 2004
I have been overweight my entire life. So I have no real concept of how I will look as a normal person. I'm 29 yrs old, 5ft2 and I weigh 285. I weighed 195 when I graduated from high school in 1992 and I could wear an 18. My surgeon said I should drop my first 80lbs by my birthday (NOV). That means I will weigh around 205. The last fad diet I did took me down to like 215-220. My husband has no clue what I will look like either. I can't wait! Every time I look in the mirror I want to cry, my face is SO swollen with fat, my legs are swollen, I can't wear a watch anymore. I'm just miserable. I can't wait to get the first 50 off and be comfortable.
   — Lelandmm




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