Question:
I'm having relationahip issues and would like input. Kinda long.

   — sarah C. (posted on August 31, 2004)


August 31, 2004
Sounds like you both need to be in counseling. He has problems with alcohol, depression and wanting to control you. You sound like you might want a different lifestyle, maybe not. In any case, try some counseling to see what you each want (or don't want) from this relationship.
   — koogy

August 31, 2004
I had this same issue back in 1997. I had lost alot of weight my self esteem shot up and I started to really want to live life. However the spouse I had been with for 12 years was depressed all the time. Never wanted to do anything or go any where and followed me around like a lost puppy. He wasnt abussive. I just wasnt the same person and I also didnt have them feelings there for him. We did a trial seperation along with theraphy. It still didnt work out after 6 months of theraphy and a year seperation I filed for divorce. Those feelings just wasnt there any longer and they never returned. You could try a seperation with theraphy and if things get better you could always getback together or if those feeling dont get better you can go your different directions. Good luck. It's a wonderful feeling coming out of that shell that you are hidden in for so long. Jen:)
   — imgabbie

August 31, 2004
alot of people get together BECAUSE they have problems. you know " well we are both broken, so maybe the two of us can fix each other". or maybe "because you have problems my problems won't seem so bad". now that you have gotten better you are really starting to see that the relationship that you were willing to settle for years ago isn't what your willing to settle for now.
   — franbvan

August 31, 2004
I know this sounds horrible, but you have to do what is right for you. You are only responsible for yourself and your actions. You've done so much to improve youself and your quality of life, please don't be with him just out of fear. My guess is that you really want out of this relationship the way it is now and you should. I am afraid that if you stay you could get depressed and you don't need that. At least give yourself permission for a trial separation and see if things do improve and if he really has changed. I beleive that change is possible, but if you don't love him anymore why should you subject yourself to an unhappy marriage? You loved youself enough to have surgery to "reclaim" you life, now love yourself enough to live your life. Only you know what's right for you. I wish you happiness, wherever you find it.
   — klinzey

August 31, 2004
I'm going through exactly the same thing and I'm leaving. I believe that you already know that you should leave as well. If he chooses to do something to himself if you leave, well, that's his problem.
   — lizinPA

August 31, 2004
Sarah, I can't tell you what is right for you but I can relate my experience and wish you the best in making your decision. I was in a ten year relationship with no children. He was also very possessive. In September of '02 when my Grandma passed away I went to pay for the flowers I had ordered for the funeral and my Visa card was denied. He confessed that he had taken money out of my account. I was so upset that he would do something so selfish while he knew my Grandma was dying of cancer. I was too upset to deal with it then. A few weeks later his mother suddenly passed away. He was an emotional wreck and I was afraid if I left then, he would attempt suicide. So I stayed. He got even more controlling and insisted on taking me to work and picking me up even though it was only a few blocks from home. In January we got into an arguement over something stupid and he pushed me into a wall and freaked out. I tried to call 911 and he took the phone. The next morning I had a doctor's appointment and after that I went to the courthouse and filed an emergency protection from abuse order and never went back. And it was my house, not his. Of course I had been told if I left he would hunt me down and kill me and whoever I was with and then himself. I think this is usually just a guilt trip to try to make you stay, but I was always looking over my shoulder. After we went to court and they made him move from my house, I noticed he would follow me and that upset me. But he never tried anything. Within a few months he had found a new woman and moved on. He called me not too long ago and we had a nice talk. I asked why he never trusted me and he admitted it was because of his own insecurities. All of this happened before my surgery. I could have never done this while I was in that relationship. He was just too insecure and could have never handles the changes I have gone through the past few months since surgery. That's why I am glad I am not in a relationship now because I can be selfish and just do what is best for me with absolutely no guilt. I think this is the first time in my life I have ever done that. I have decided that I still love him and probably always will but I love myself too much to stay in a relationship like that. I don't want to come home and make someone dinner while they lay on my couch. I'd rather be outside on my bike or in the gym. I want to go and do things. If I don't ever meet someone who shares that with me, then I guess I'd rather be alone. But keep in mind that you are the only one who can make you happy. You must do what is best for you. Best of luck with your situation.
   — Donna F.

September 1, 2004
I went through the same exact thing and ended up leaving my boyfriend. He never wanted to be around my family, friends and he also did not want to do anything. My weight was his security and after I lost the weight he made a comment that he missed the meek, fat humble girl. I am so much happier now and have a wonderful new man in my life You have to do what is right for you.
   — Marti M.

September 1, 2004
This obviously isn't the popular opinion, but I believe we make the marriage committment for life, for better or worse, whether we're feeling that "in love" feeling or not. Unless there's emotional or physical abuse (and the possesiveness IS a warning sign...so I'm not saying you don't need to be careful), my opinion is that some effort should be made to try and keep that commitment. Maybe with some marriage counseling to help him get himself under control.
   — mom2jtx3

September 1, 2004
Wow, your story sounds just like mine. When I had this surgery my husband and I had only been married for 7 months, but together for almost two years. He was cheating on me from the get-go, lying and drinking all went together. The weightloss only seemed to make him more sick in the head. I tried everything to help and keep our marriage together. I finally picked up and left one day after catching him in another cheat/lie and have never gone back. Oh yes, he tried to get me to come home. His mother died, he got in trouble with the law, you name it. He would be nice, then he'd be out right cruel and then apologetic. I got tired of the pattern. I finally got all the divorce paperwork finished this week and have moved on. I met a wonderful man and am happier than I even thought I could be. You have to believe you are gonna be all right. I remember I kept telling myself through all of this, "You are gonna be allright Molly, you are!" You will be too, just believe that if you believe nothing else and move on to a much better chapter of your life. Believe me, even if your husband does stop drinking, he'll still have so many issues to work out, you NOT being there will not only help you, but will help him in the long run. Feel free to e-mail me if you want to talk about it more. I am there for you sister!!!!
   — missmollyk

September 1, 2004
I may get bashed for my reply but here goes. I am only 20, and have been married for a year. My husband has gotten a new job where he is much more active and has lost like 25 pounds, and is gaining more muscle every day. I think he is hot, and unfortunately, others girls do too. Maybe we should look at your husband's point of view. You are even more beautiful now than ever, and maybe he thinks there is a chance of you leaving him for someone better. Is this why he is possessive? Or has it always been this way? I find myself getting possessive over my husband (I know, it's crazy) just because he's looking better now. I would die if he wanted to leave me because he didn't feel love for me anymore. We can't judge books by their covers, remember? Atleast he is trying by admitting he has a problem, and wants to get help. I know you want to be happy, and safe, and that is best for you. Just realize how it would feel if the tables were turned, and you were in his shoes.
   — Babyphantisy

September 1, 2004
I want to add one more thing. Alcoholism is very serious. Please get yourself into a support group like ALANON, it might open your eyes up to alot of his behavior (and yours!) You will find that alcohol is probably playing a much larger role in your troubles than you realize. I realized this alot more after I left. The meetings are free and in just about any place you look.
   — missmollyk




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