Question:
Have you Thought About Wrting Letter To Your Loved Ones?

I am filing again for the surgery when our new insurance goes in affect in a week or so. I am still thinking deeply about this and whether I should do this or not. There are days when I just KNOW that this is the right thing to do and what I will benefit from it and then there are other days that I am just scared to death of what the ramifications of this could be if something did not go right. Did any of you write ur husbands and kids a letter or family members or friends in case something did happen? When I think about doing that I get sick to my stomach when I think there might be a chance, even though small, that I might not come home to my wonderful children and husband. Did ya'll feel the same way when writing them and how did you get past that? Thanks?    — dixieb (posted on September 24, 2002)


September 24, 2002
I knew I was going to be alright. But just in case I wrote letters to my Son, Husband and my Mom. It took me several hours of crying to write each of them. And I laid them on my table and told my husband if anything were to happen to give my Mom hers. Read his. And then on the years, and special times read my Sons to him. Well I nade it, and my husband the stinker read his anyways. And he came to the hopital in tears, he said I was glad I did the surgery, and he was ready for our new life together to start. It was so hard to write those letters. And it made me realize even more how bad I needed this surgery, so I would actually live to enjoy, life and all it has to offer. If you were not afraid I would be worried for you. Every surgery is scary, and they all have complications. The mortality rate of this surgery, is really no different than any other. Relax, write your letters of love, and then read it to your loved ones when you get home. I wish you all the luck and love in the world!!
   — nkoehler88

September 24, 2002
Actually, I did just this before my Sept. 12 surgery. I wrote a letter specifically for my husband and a separate one for our 9 yo son. On the day of surgery, when they were getting the IV port in, etc., dh and ds left to go catch breakfast. At that time I gave the letters (in envelopes) and asked that they be given to my loved ones in case I died. A day before my release from the hospital, a nurse asked me if I wanted the letters back. She gave them to me, no problem. I felt better knowing that ALL sides were covered. I couldn't have left them without saying goodbye.
   — Kathy B.

September 24, 2002
I thought long and hard before writing "goodbye" type letters. After thinking a while I finally decided to write just love letters, of positive thoughts, of good memories, and filled with admiration. I wrote about the things I liked about my spouse and my son, pride in my son's recent high school graduation and hopes for my son's future, his impending college education. I told my husband how much his love and unending support meant to me. It was not a "goodbye" type letter, instead it was a love letter of positive things. I also wrote about the surgery and how much it meant to me, no matter what the outcome, that I had to try or die trying, but that I had every confidence in a happy outcome and I thanked them all for their support and well wishes. I gave one love letter to my husband and one to my son the morning before surgery and told them to read them while I was in surgery. They were both deeply moved. I also wrote one very serious letter, "in case I die", type letter", outlining my accounts, my wishes for funeral, my business matters and other necessary things about work benefits, etc, that my husband must know. But I kept this separate, in a sealed envelope, in our lockbox and told my husband to open it in case I should pass away. It was strictly a business type letter, no sentimentality. I saved the sentimental stuff for my positive letters of love. I was very happy that I did this. It is important to tell your loved ones how much you love them! My husband treasures his letter and my teenage son was in tears when he read his... I had never seen him that touched before. Regards,
   — C. C.

September 24, 2002
I have started a journal. I told my husband that he can read it during surgery. It will be filled with my fondest memories of our life together, and also with the happiness, and hope that I have for the outcome of my surgery. At the very end of it, I am going to seal 3 letters which will have my goodbyes, my husbands, daughters, and moms, but they are not to be opened unless... This will be a hard time for my family already, and I wouldn't want to give them anything to make it any harder on them unless it has to be, so the journal will be a happy one to hopefully keep them preocupied while I am in surgery.
   — katmamma1975

September 24, 2002
I wrote a group and hid it at home. Made my surgeon promise he would tell jen where they were hidden if I didnt make it the morning of surgery. Got rid of them after surgery. Had final instructions and all. Gee did I ever waste a LOT of energy and time worrying... I WISH I could of seen just one glimpse of post op life. Nothing to be scared of unless I hadnt had surgery. Take a deep breath and try to RELAX. Its not bad like you think! POST OP IS THE PLACE TO BE!!
   — bob-haller

September 24, 2002
Dottie, I did write the letters to my family members and I hid them in a desk drawer and told my sister where they were just in case. I cried my eyes out the whole time I wrote them. My husband also requested that I have my own funeral plans written out so I did that also....TERRIBLE! But I know that would have been of great help to him just in case because he would be to overwhelmed with grief and dealing with our sons. It is somethig each person must decide on their own. Good Luck!
   — Lynda T.

September 25, 2002
I wrote a letter to my husband and hid it in my underwear drawer. I told my sister to tell him it was there if anything happened to me. Of course nothing did, but I felt better letting him know I loved him and warning him that if he had an open casket for me I would haunt him every day for the rest of his life!!
   — Mary U.

September 25, 2002
I wrote individual letters to each one of my children and husband. I put them in our Bible at home and told my husband about the letters and where to find them if something happened. I told him as they wheeled me into surgery. It was one of the hardest things to do. I wrote them the night before surgery and I sat and cried my eyes out. It seemed so final, but everything thank you dear lord worked out great and I was only in surgery 1 1/2 hours so the wait was not too bad. I think that you will feel much calmer if you write the letters. Just try to relax and think positive and all will work out. Best of luck in whichever choice you make.
   — Robin B.

September 25, 2002
I thought about writing one, but decided against it because it ran against the positive attitude that I was taking into surgery. I knew that I was going to make it through surgery with flying colors and have an uneventful recovery. Writing such letters would have put some doubt into my mind. I didn't want that...JR
   — John Rushton

September 25, 2002
Instead of writing a letter, have you thought of making a video tape? You can make one for each one of your family members explaining why you had surgery and how much you love them. I think it's a wonderful thing to do. That way, in a year you can watch it and see how great you look!
   — Sarah K.

September 25, 2002
I am pre-op and I have done this...and sobbed for days and days...it was a real downer. I have 4 months til surgery and I am glad I did it now instead of waiting until right before surgery...I would have been a depressed, nervous wreck if I waited til right before. I think it's an important thing to do...not just for WLS patients, but for anyone...after all...we never know when our time will come and just think how those letters will comfort our loved ones when we are gone.
   — Amy S.

September 26, 2002
I wrote one for my husband and 1 to each of my three kids. It was extremely difficult but I wanted them to know why I did what I did and to tell them how much I love them. It made me feel better. I didnt tell anyone I wrote them but I left them in a place that would easily be found. I still have them there.
   — Maureen P.

October 1, 2002
I also wrote letters to each of my parents and to my husband. Part of the incentive for me to write was that my husband and I have only been married for 3 1/2 years. He and I had talked about what I would want "in case". I wrote say those last few things that I should say and also to let them know that my hubbie did know what I wanted, in order to make things easier for him, "just in case". Of course everything went fine and the letters weren't needed, but they were good to write. I wouldn't write books, but I a page or two each is valuable. GI's often do this when in dangerous situations. There's nothing wrong with being prepared, and it doesn't mean that you have a bad attitude or are expecting everything to go wrong. Do what you think is best.
   — Jenni K.

October 1, 2002
I started writing letters and then I read somewhere on this site: Would you write your family a letter if you were having your gall bladder out? If so, write. If not, it's not necessary.
   — Dana S.




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