Question:
I Still Feel Morbidly Obese

I am nearly two years post-op. I am still 50 pounds from my "ideal weight". I would like to lose another 30 pounds, even though many tell me I'm just fine where I am. I was a size 32/34 and am now a 12/14. I'm tall, so I can carry more weight than most. However, I have been really sensitive lately. I look at myself in the mirror and see all the hanging skin, even though I have had some reconstructive surgery, and wish I was more proportional and firm. By no means do I want to be skinny, nor even at my "ideal weight". I have only lost 5 pounds since October. I am wondering if this is it. I guess I can live with the excess skin, though I dream about more plastic surgery, but I would like to see those scales get within 20 lbs of my ideal weight. I admit I'm not exercising, not doing my protein or water, eating more carbs than normal, and generally feeling sorry for myself. I know it's not all about vanity, but it's important to me, so it counts.    — [Anonymous] (posted on March 5, 2002)


March 5, 2002
The WLS promises to get us out of the morbidly obese category and on the road to better health. It does not promise that we will be super-models or have perfect, firm bodies. I'm sure, like me, you did this for health reasons first and for cosmetic reasons second. Even most thin people aren't 100% happy with their bodies. Try to keep that in mind and practice positive self-talk. Look what you've accomplished!
   — Terissa R.

March 5, 2002
Were we separated at birth?? I feel the same way... I am just over 2 years post op and would LOVE to lose 30 more pounds... I am 5 ft 11... went from 24/26 to 14/16... I am considering liposuction for my thighs... they are just not cooperating!! :-} If you have any doubt or don't feel good about what you have accomplished so far... put on a pair of those size 34s... It will put things in instant perspective... and it will make you smile...
   — California J.

March 5, 2002
Please don't be so hard on yourself! Do you know what Victoria's Secret is? Her stuff isn't made for anyone over age 25! Embrace your improved health and vitality.
   — Anna L.

March 5, 2002
I am 71/2 mos post op, and still consider myself MO. When looking at myself I still see big. Why, I do not know, I am down to 184, and a size 14/16. I know I have lost, and look good, but unless when someone actually says so, I do not see it. My son out of the clear the other day said "Mom, your getting skinny, my whole life you have been , you know round, and your not round anymore". I instantly went to the mirror and looked, guess what, he was right. So now I try to think of that everytime I still feel big. Good Luck, hope this has helped.
   — Valerie M.

March 6, 2002
I am the original poster, and thank you all for your responses. I either need to get to exercising and eating right to lose this 30 lbs or get myself to my therapist to accept myself where I am. Although I know I have accomplished so much, I get SO JEALOUS when I read profiles like Victoria Bowen's, Barb Day's, Darcie Leigh Donlon's, Angela A.'s, Jill Sokol's, and basically anyone who started near my weight, got to their goal, and had reconstructive surgery and look so good. I just feel like a failure, even though my mind should know better. Everything is going so great in my life, maybe I am just looking for something to be wrong. It was so bad for so long, and I am not used to happiness! And, stress could be an issue...a good vacation may be the key to kicking my body image blues and motivating me to quit whining and act! Thanks again.
   — [Anonymous]

March 6, 2002
Well i think its like they said it class, you can't always change your head. For years we've been told were fat, we knew we were fat and we reacted as thus, taking all the blunt end of jokes and laughing them off etc...but now, we're GOIN DOWN BABY . And I think its hard for us to see it like it is, One thing thats helping me, is as much as i didnt want to do it, my dau is taking almost monthly photos, and comairing them is amazing!!!! Also, i keep around one big outfit..to slip into now and then so i can see what ive lost. Its a great reminder!!!!
   — Jackiis

March 9, 2002
Oh, honey, our heads play such games with us. I'm at 132 now, 12 pounds from a goal just a little pooch as far as loose skin,and I have a lot of days where I still feel obese. It's hard, after years of being the "fat one" to not be. I think if I were even at goal (120) or LOWER I would still have this problem. LOL One way or the other, I really think it's a mental issue. Good luck, and congratulations on your weight loss! Keep up the good work! Donna in AL
   — Donna S. C.

August 28, 2002
I know how you feel, after losing 125 pounds,and near my goal, I still didn't feel like I had lost that much weight; I had a huge apron of fat, and had that removed June 20,2002, since that surgery it has made all the difference in the world, not just with clothes, but just my overall self imaige. I wish you well in your pursuit for a better body, and healthy attitude; No one knows what we go thru till they have been overweight themselves I don't think you are being vain, you have just gone thru so much, and want to be normal; God Bless you, Susie
   — lostitall

June 25, 2003
Hi there, After reading your post it sounded exactly like me. I will be 2yrs out post Roux-N-Y as of this November. I started size 26 and now am a 16/18. I too have only lost about 8 lbs since October and weigh 190 @ 5'4". I have lost 90 lbs and am very thankful...but like you I eat too many carbs, fried foods, been full too many times, not eating my protein like I should and drinking alot of tea instead of water...I need to get back on track... I look much better.....but I could look much better...let me know how you are doing.
   — Sue H.




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